flashbacks ;sweetmisery

Tuesday, May 31, 2005

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its been an uber tiring day. serious. its not that easy to be a game master. and ive just realised it today. poor sweekoon. now then i know how difficult it must be for you to lead the school (: i took group 2 and we named em ' THE AHs' (: nice right. me kailing jinshi and samantha in charge of em. wahahhs. and we thought em my trademark ' xie xie, xie xie' (: anyways, me anet phebe fish andre denise kailing were sleeping in the library during lim's health talk. yea. serious sleeping. all of us were tired out though we only 'worked' in the morning. got back our report book. and my mood changed. yea. cos ive got like, 2 F9s and 1 E8. whats so amazing was that my class position is actually 17. i expected myslf to be at the pitt bottom lurhs. and the more i think of my marks, the more upset i become. and i shouted at reagen. so sorry. i was uber pissed at everything then. sorry sorry sorry. and caleb was uber lame. he was walking past our table with s.t and those dumb guys when he suddely called my name. i was staring at my report book. then i looked up and was like, huh? then he stared a bit and i was like, what. and he said nth and said he calling for fun. lame lurhs. and his hair color very striking lurhs. lol. got out of school. and was feeling uber down. not really all because of my results lurhs. today's the first day that im really trying to let go. and yea. i deleted his msgs from my phone in the library. and i deleted the pict anet send me. and its really is difficult. make me feel really very down. and i kept brooding over it. plus my bad results, its a black day for me. met yangkai at amk mrt. went north point. was unable to get in to watch hse of wax cos the blardy guyy asked for our ic. so we watched monster-in-law. yea. was feeling much better after that. walked hme alone after that. walking really helps in thinking, yea. and i felt kinda better lurhs. haiis. darn tired. and theres still hiking tmr. LOL. alrighto. shall end here le.

5/31/2005 08:13:00 PM

Monday, May 30, 2005

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today was sooo great (: had choir in the morning. i missed choir so much. learnt a new song- rainbow connection. and practised an old one - teddy bear's picnic. dunno why, but we sang until we were kinda tired. hahhs. wanling gave me my bdae prezzie. thanks loads! lurfe ya (: went for lunch behind the school next and met denise and lao pop to buy the stuffs for the TAF camp. so many peepo kaobei us today. wahahhs. and we actually kaobei back :D there was this indian guy lurhs. dunno how to say excuse me, and was like saying, "let people walk" in a very du lan way. then i not shuang. hahhs. and i rebutted, " let people breath larhs" cos he was smoking (: lol. anyways, we went back to sch to wrap the prezzie up and i was like, helping yiyuan apply the aloe vera thingy to his sunburn. wahahhs. aft that we went over to j8 to meet yang kai, cos he say he treat me cheyenne and phebe swensen as bdae prezzie. we went there first. and after that, yangkai gave. and he bought something for me too (: so surprised. cos i thought the swensen treat was the present liaos. thanks lots arhs (: yang kai ended up treating all of us. miie cheyenne shimin yiyuan kailing phebe. ate banana split and fries. yum. total bill was arnd 57 bucks (: really thank yangkai loads for the treat. wahahhs. aft we finished eatting, we continued to sit there and talk crap. LOL. was fun (: hmmm. just now we were thinking, how nice it wld be if yiyuan like me and i like yiyuan. guaffaws- cos tt wld really save both us from loads of unneeded probs. haiis. budden we only have sista cum brother cum aiiaii cum great fwens de feeling for each other. wahahhs. and we shall remain like that for a long long time, hopefully (: and i shall really let go now :D yupps. alrighto. having taf camp tmr. am looking a teeny weeny bit forward to it. lols. and yea. ive uploaded the photos taken at marina bay (: theres more wib me. get it frm me if you want them. yupps (:

5/30/2005 08:54:00 PM

Sunday, May 29, 2005

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heyys. erms. this blogskin may be just temporary larhs. uh. its still under construction. so, yah. double click ' yell' to tagg. cos dunno y its a bit spoilt. yupp. i shall try to improve it. yeaa (:

5/29/2005 06:29:00 PM

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME (: wahahhs. yesterday was fish's birthday. and we went out to celebrate. oh man. it was UBER fun. woke up at arnd 8. met fish and cheyenne at the mrt station. moved on to meet kailing and charmaine and we went sentosa. was soooo happy to see the beach (: been longing to go since dunno when. lol. had fun at the beach tho it was only the 5 of us. and we actually stripped. wahahhs. took lotssa photos, and tanned (: was so great. we played truth or dare and talked lotssa craps (: after cleaning up, we went to the 7 eleven and had our lunch. saw some phs peeps including pin wen. so qiao orhs. went back to harbourfront mrt station, where kailing left for her organ class. got birthday kisses from cheyenne and char (: cheyenne left for her religious thing soon after. shopped around harbourfrnt shopping mall. saw this really awesome hot pink bikini and it cost 89.90. cheap right (: took the train to marina bay mrt station next. jolene and melly were there already. and we waited for anet they all. took the bus 400 to the steamboat place and we sat at the bus stop while we wait for the rest to arrive. kailing came next. was sooo surprised to see the cake she was holding (: thanks larhs. hahahhs. we went to the steamboat place first. then phebe they all came. started our dinner. yum. steamboat with baobeiis is fun. duhh (: after that they took the cake out and they sang the birthday song for me and fish (: loudly. hahahhs. they wanted to aa mahs. lol. then we took photos. yea. took photos, and the cake suddely just came crashing into my face. fish too. and the rest started dumping ice down our backs. lol. it was an unforgettable birthday alright (: thanks !! at least my mum didnt kaobei me when i went home lurhs. so it was alright (: thanks again, everyone for making me and fish's birthday soooo perfect (: xie xie, xie xie (: i lurfe all the prezzies all ya gave. im very de touched. hahhs. recieved quite alot of birthday msgs too. yanjie was the first to give (: then shimin, bian tai de, yiyong and anet (: wahahhs. morning recieved from mcdonalds, wahahhs. sihao, jiayan, fish, cheyenne and seah han. thanks everyone (: lurfe all ya loooads. okaes. shall be posting photos ltr on. birthdays seriously roock!! get lost, negative thoughts (: beams-

5/29/2005 03:36:00 PM

Friday, May 27, 2005

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been thinking lots today too. and im still feeling so confused. sent patch to the councillor rm le. wahahhs. everyone loved him today (: i brought him to assembly before putting him in the council room. guanghe is very bian tai lurhs (x yuenchen and yiyang also. LOL. waihong.. no needa say more. wahahhs. btw, waihong has got really a lot of white hair orhs. helped him plucked two out today. lol. im such a sadist. and elgin is such a big asshole :x bleahs. i shant talk about it. hmmm. not so many peepo going for the beach thing le. was disappointed. budden at least the dinner still on (: ahahhs. and theres gonna be some watching sunset and looking at stars thing (: kinda looking forward to it lurhs. i wanna change my blogskin soon :) ahahhs. you know whats so damn sickening? i wanna try to stop liking him. but what i kept doing in the hall was looking out for him. grimances- and i was disappointed that he didnt gimme my bdae prezzie today. its not about the present. its about whether he remembered :( and to me, its kinda like, if he neba give today that means he wunch be giving le. budden, yea. wasnt too disappointed larhs. cos i didnt really keep my hopes too high up. now i just wanna see whether he will rmb... ahahs. argh. its down to hormones again. wahahs. excuses. rolleyes- anyway, its down to 2 days to my birthday! grins-
hoping. hope. hopfully ;

5/27/2005 07:40:00 PM

Thursday, May 26, 2005

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its not exactly a great thing to be wearing a councillor badge. teachers expect more from us. i hate that man. kena caught by quack quack chan cos i was wearing sarah's nametag. and he was saying what... im a councillor and blah blah blah. rolleyes- i was like, apologising over and over again cos he threatened to give 3 days dc. ask him FUCK OFF lurhs. keep threatening and threatening. he confiscated sarah's nametag lurhs. and made us both buy the temporary nametag for one buck. lame. i haven give him the money yet. coundnt find him after school mahs. heck larhs. fuck. damn suay lurhs. and hes darn kok eye. i told him my nametag was in class when it was all along pin on my shoes with wanlin's nametag. then he scolded me for my ankle socks and anklet and he actually neba c the nametags on my shoes. dumb. its great for me anyways (: had a game of bball with the guys after the taf camp meeting (: greeeat game. wahahhs. initially me anet and phebe were only watching the guys play match. aft tt some left and we played with sihao, xiaoxing, zongyang, an unknown guy and that toot toot guy. me phebe anet xiaoxing and zongyang same team. well. it was obvious that the guys were purposely not blocking us or what lurhs, and letting us win. tt was so not fun man. budden after a while it became better lurhs. and duhh. became much more fun. hot liao hot liao. LOL. i was thinking next time play again with em cos it was FUN (: wahahhs. alrighto. quack quack chan sucks (x btw orhs. im so sorry for any misunderstandings horrs. about the saturday thing. cos i thought everytime if we are having this kinda outing, we spread from one person to another de mahs. so, yah. all the twograce girls are invited. so sorry orhs. also, everything was not confirmed yet. so only some people know. yea. sorry (x
thinking of u whether u've been thinking of me;

5/26/2005 08:08:00 PM

Wednesday, May 25, 2005

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today was PAIISEH. yea. seriously uber paiiseh. i could have just ask someone throw me into a big black hole. wahahhs. mr white larhs. whats his bloody problem lurhs. rolleyes- ohwells. at least the home econs presentation is over. finally. it was dumb. but everyone said our cereal flakes with honey are nice (: mayb it wasnt so paiiseh larhs. but.. it still is larhs (x blame it on tt MILKYWAY larhs. si ang mo. okae larhs. im being real mean. but just now i was real pek lorhs. haiis. anyways, went to buddy hoagies cafe for lunch (: yums. budden it was expensive. hhahas. anyways, my brother broke the other half of his the other rabbit tooth. dumb right. and now he sorta has a triangle hole in his teeth. ewk. want see ask me. ive got the pict in my phone (x alrighto. sadistic.
~~meaningless~~ sweet-nothings
; i want you to notice me

5/25/2005 09:09:00 PM

Tuesday, May 24, 2005

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i didnt fail my fnn! wahahhs. i was seriously uber surprised. yea. i expected myself to fail. and i got an exact 50 (: oh. mayb that means i dont have to work so hard for the frucking funfair presentation. that is seriously wearing me off. i mean, we are given such a short notice. and teachers expect us to do a really great job. rolleyes- oh yea. it was fun mixing all those cereals with those honey and those chocolates. CADBURY! wahahhs. but i DUNCH wanna go up stage to do some dumb presentation. its gonna be so paiseh tomorrow. im serious man. yea. and im supposed to do the ppt now. lol. what the hell am i doing here? wahahhs. anyway, amazing race today was lame. yea. and NOT amazing at all. and 3joy losed to 4agape for netball. wah- i tnk we could have won if we played with sec threes (: lol. okaes. shall end here le bahs. yepp.
im the reason for not ~~letting go~~

5/24/2005 08:41:00 PM

Monday, May 23, 2005

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sarah and kailing came over to do the fnn project today. hahas. and kinda make a mess out of my hse kitchen. but it was fun (: esp with sarah mixing the milo and coffee and milk together to try and make mocha. ohwells. i think i can go and join fear factor ;p wahahhs. and yea. honey and cereals and chocolate is a great mixture. lol. anyways, i just found out that im like, uber sadistic. budden yea, those goth thingys are seriously kinda cool orhs (: btw, thanks everyone for their concern aft reading my blog. im not those who will go depressed and suicidic. and theres nth wrong with me or my life. yah. wahahhs. theres gonna be some dumb amazing race tomorrow, i think. and its gonna be dumb, i think. or mayb it will be fun? oh whatever. i think its kinda funny. how people can get so... big reaction over my msn display pict. alright. it is sadistic. lol.

5/23/2005 09:11:00 PM

Sunday, May 22, 2005

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im uber bored. seriously. haiis. dunno what am i gonna do during the hols since im already so bored now. aint going to zhenhui's birthday celebration. partly cos phebe they all also not going. and partly cos im uber broke. im gonna save up. i shall. yah. i dunno why. budden im really feeling so darn restless. kailing ask me to take initiative again to msg him. i tnk fish too. budden, yea. i think.. mayb not today bahs. cos even if i msg him today, who knows whether he will take initiative to msg me the next time. so what's the use? so, yea. i think i should consider till tomorrow bahs. wahahhs. truth is, im not really feeling very sure about this. i really dunno larhs. and i sure wanna dump anything about this outta my mind. budden, what the hell lurhs. i just cant get em out of my head. they're bugging me. bleahs. mayb i shld just go become a nun. wahahhs. see, im turning crazy. tts it. hormones are driving me crazy. as shimin says, yea, im blaming it on hormones again. wahahhs. budden i seriously am going crazy. oh. im turning 15 in exactly one wk. hooray. im not exactly feeling enthu about it now. what the hell is wrong with me today arhs. haiis.

it hurts. ~~dunch leave me alone.~~
pls.

5/22/2005 03:42:00 PM

Saturday, May 21, 2005

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it was an uber rainy day today. wahahhs. just when i wanted to go swimming. anyways, it wasnt raining at first. duhh. met kailing at 1, and for once, she was earlier than me. we had lunch, then she pei me go cut hair. and it started raining. great. and we went over to safra and played at the arcade. it was still raining when we finished playing. and thus, we sat down at the lobby there. we started chatting, and i started talking about my hair. cos i spent like, ten bucks on the haircut and it did not really seem as if it had been cut. and so, we walked back to northpoint. kailing got splashed by a car. wahahhs. and the ground was DAMN WET. felt as if we were walking on shore -.-"" our feet were real wet when we got to real dry ground. hahas. and we got my hair cut again. oh. it was kinda paiiseh to walk into the shop again and say ive decided to trim it shorter. kailing is so daring. dot. lols. and we walked back to safra again. wahahhs. it was only drizzling and there were people in the pool. so we went swim lurhs. yupp. the water was warm. so it was great. lols. had dinner tgt aft tt. then we went hme. and im tired (: and i stiull dunno and wondering whether he will msg me. haiis. dunno larhs. end here lers. ciaos.

5/21/2005 09:19:00 PM

Friday, May 20, 2005

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we rock! yea! our 4x100 team got bronze in the sports day today (: alright. i noe its not the first or the second. budden at least we got it, right? and im really very happy that we got it :D our efforts did not go to waste. alright. at least im not feeling fuckup about the fact that i was one second slower than my timing on normal training. wahahhs. cos i dunch think that one second would make a really big difference. cos shuhui and xiaoli were kinda far frm me lorhhs -.-"" so, yea. at least we won something (: i just took the baton and chiong. wahahhs. anyways, i got back some of my exam results today. no surprise, i did real badly in the exams. and yea. someone kill me with a gun please. i didnt know where the tears came from. i was NOT supposed to cry. alright. mayb it was better for me to cry. craps. and elgin really made me feel like slapping him. first, he suan me about my result. second, he say we would get last in our race. third, he said i ran very chhou. excuse me! hello??!! who in the damn hell would go and observe how i run? and i definately did NOT close my eyes. talk cork. and need he boast about him going on a holiday? i dont really give a damn about his present to me from other country lurhhs (x alright. im mean to him. wahahhs. budden he can really be very childish sometime. and yes. i know i look wierd when im running. but i just cant help it. but i did NOT close my eyes, i shall repeat. ohwells. we still rock (: hmmm. hes still so cute (: ohwells. im supposed to like.. stop myself from going so mental about him. yeaa. i shall try to do tt. yeaa. i shall.. -.-""

5/20/2005 07:55:00 PM

Thursday, May 19, 2005

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theres an eight year old whos infatuated with me. LOL. alright. thats crap. its crap by sarah and kailing. hhahas. budden ben is cute. but i still like gabby more. wahahhs. sarah's brothers are soooo cute (: oh. elizabeth too. went sarah's hse to do the home econs prj today. finished the proposal. i dun wanna go up stage to present! it would be so damn malu lurhs. haiis. tomorrow's sports day le worhhs. ANET JOLENE PHEBE KEMPATE!! lets just try our best. no matter what result we get, we know that weve tried our best can! im kinda afraid. everyone is getting all tensed lers. i need a redbull! wahahhs. shall end here le. ciaos.

5/19/2005 08:57:00 PM

Wednesday, May 18, 2005

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im like, aching now. wahahs. had training today again. and this time, i managed to keep quite a constant timing bahs (: anet jolene phebe miie kempate ! budden even if we are not gonna get any prize, at least we knew we've tried our best :D was soo happy that he said hi to me (: wahahhs. soooo happy. lol. im really getting mental about him sia. hehh. budden i think im like, kinda fuckup lurhs. cos im like, supposed to stop liking him. rahs! hes damn cuute, and so i think larhs. anyways, im like, wondering why peepo just lurfe to get so depressed and sorry about emselves. im talking about no one in particular. just seem as if many peepo want commit suicide or wad like that. make me feel abit... dunno how to describe the feeling. lol. mayb i might be like that in the future. who knows. hhahas. budden hope not lurhhs. tmr gonna go mrs shawn's hse to do prj. lols. i wanna swim! screams- alrighto. shall end here lers. ciaos/ lian zhe ni,deng zhe ni,hao xiang ni (:

5/18/2005 07:23:00 PM

Tuesday, May 17, 2005

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this two days in school have been total craps, i think. i would rather stay in class and go strolling arnd the 4th floor worhhs (x wahahhs. had training today. yepps. was kinda happy with my first run de results. didnt really believe the timing. wahahhs. budden anet and jolene must kempate orhhs (: and me and phebe must stay like that or improved. bleah. i actually deproved on the second run lorhs. phebe best. stay same timing. hhahs.had rum and raisin ice again after that (: yeaa. life's so great now. wahahhs. i hate competitions. really. haiis. and lim xiuanpin is a big pig. wahahhs. hmmm. i shall end here le bahs. yepps. should i or should not. what the crap. hmmms.

5/17/2005 07:53:00 PM

Sunday, May 15, 2005

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went town with kailing and vicki today. met at amk station at 11.15 like that. alright. i was late. wahahs. budden kailing was even later as usual. accompanied vicki to go pierce her nose and ears. lol. and kailing was so freaked out. wahahs. he smsed me(: lol. then we had lunch at amk de mos burger. aft that we took taxi to kallang, to vicki de church there. was so surprised that her church isnt in a chapel. LOL. okaes. im dumb. i thought churches are supposed to be in chapels. hhahas. and i think we were late for the service. budden a guy came and open the door for us. they were singing in the room. yarhs. we were handed a cloth each ( cos we were wearing skirt and we were supposed to sit on the flr ) and we saw joanne. ahhahas. she seemed so surprised to see me and kailing. hmm. they sang and sang. then prayed. and we sat down. was kinda cool larhs. and they actually spoke in tongues lorhs!!! me and kailing were kinda freaked out lurhs. and i think kailing never got used to it. hhahas. cos she still seemed so freaked when they prayed in tongues again. no offence, budden all the tongue language sounded like gibberish to me (x and some of them were shaking lurhs. like they were possessed or something. quite scary. lol. budden the service was quite fun larhs. the yvonne dunno whether issit pastor mahs ask us to go join the cell grps in our sch the next time they hold one. mayb lurhs. hahs. we went town next. bought food eat then we went fareast shop for clothes. almost got chased out by the this fashion woman cos we were making so much noise in the changing rm. wahahs. ended up buying nth tho we took lotssa skirts. hhahas. we went back to heeren. stopped at samual and kelvin and i bought that racerback and another normal tee. and we were squeezed in one dressing rm again. lame. wahahs.saw zhenhui and huangyong. had dinner at the heeren wanton mee there at the graffiti cafe. and we found a drawing of chunfu. wahas. and another one with pinwen's name on it. lol. left at arnd 8pm. yeaa. and there was this two biantais lurhs. bleahs. there was this two malays who kept looking over at us (vicki was saying he was looking at me and i was saying he was looking at vicki. lols ). then when he looked again, vicki asked him what. lol. then he was like.. asking for her number. hhahas. and we were so disgusted. lols. vicki saw some agape peepo, kokheng they all. they were in the same train, same cabin as us. lols. and vicki kept trying to hide frm em. LOL. kailing alighted first. me next. and vicki was left alone with the sickos. hhahas. budden she say they alighted at yishun. hmmm. shall end here lers. ciaos.

5/15/2005 09:49:00 PM

Saturday, May 14, 2005

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alright. i have no idea how this entry is gonna look like cos im using the comp in my bro's room and its darn darn lag. i cant edit the font or whatsoever. and i cant get into friendster. and i cant install msn on it. no wonder my brother dunch like to use this comp. hurh. its really boring to be at hme. wahahs. went j8 with kailing just now. just to take neos and have dinner. its beta than being stucked at hme, right. and we were crazy while taking neos. yeaa. instead of the usual bimbotic pictures that we usually take, we were doing dumb actions like staring up the ceiling. i gave the idea. woots. so fun -_-"" had macs dinner. yeaa. and we went samual and kelvin. i lurfe tt racerback! i must have it. wahahhs. alrighto. shall end here. tmr mayb goin out with kailing and vicki. haiis. dunno whether got not. c lurhs. yupp. ciiaos

5/14/2005 09:50:00 PM

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ive totally absolutely nth to do at all. exam's finally over and its a total waste to be stucked at hme. seriously. and im still so glad tht everything's een cleared (: wahahas. think im going out with kailing ltr on. i sooooo wanna watch hse of wax! why must it be nc16? damn. too bad i dunch have the mature look at all. lol. been hooked up on chocolates this morning. and im like.. thinking too much about him. acck. i wanna just stop liking him. but i think i myself dunch really wanna let go. and tt sucks loads. let go!!!! bahhs. i hate hormones :/ its about that again. wahahs. but i shall not take the initiative again. yeaa. i mean, like what kailing says, ive already taken the first step out. its up to him whether he wanna continue. yeaa. and i shall stop liking him. try lurhs. ahhahas. kkaes. end here. ciao.

5/14/2005 01:48:00 PM

Friday, May 13, 2005

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(: had a totally fun day today. the quarrels were forgotton. and all those crap shit. yeaa. thanks loads phebe. and kailing. and shimin. sorry ahmah. sorry cheyenne (: i guess i mighe just look back later on, and finds everything so childish, like how i feel the previous quarrels are. but, yeaa, quarrels strengthen friendship (: and im glad. alls well end well. didnt actually intend to cry today. guess i was kinda hurt bahs. and i just couldnt control my tear glands when i told anet. yeaa. budden anet dunch think too much le larhs. i dunch blame you. we shld just forget everything bad of what has happened in the past. yepp. thats much much better than losing friends right. and yea. everyone does have their bad points. no one's perfect. and nobody's name is no one kkaes. and noone's name is nobody kkaes. get what i mean? lol. so heck larhs. just realised i owed so many people presents. yelp. huikuoon ahmah sweekoon. coming up is fish and dunno still got who. bleah. i shall save money. i shall go on hunger strike. wahhahas. kkaes. i shall end here. today was a fun day. and nth bad happened, tho its friday the 13th :D ehh . just that i just got only a teeny weeny peep at him. what a pity. ahhahahahahas (: yea. im supposed to try to let him go. yah. heck larhs. hhahas (: adieu then .. btw. picts posted up lers. go to navigation. yupps (:

5/13/2005 10:03:00 PM

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(: everything settled once and for all. it might just happen again in the future. budden i guess.. let tomorrow worry for itself bahs (: anyways im glad everythings alright. hhahas. in jolene's house now. eating pizzas and watching tv. it feels like old times again :D im so glad. wahahas. exam's over. finally. been real tired. and now its finally time to play. ehheh (: shall slack much. hmmm. he havent been smsing me, but seriously, i dunch feel wierd that hes not smsing me now (: but i do hope he will. hheh. now all of em out there singing the mvp valentine theme song. wells. kinda bonding tgt now (: we rock cans! [[gvantaramera !!]] lols. hope to go shopping for new clothes. wahahas. hope can larhs. lol. im ending here. shall be posting photos in soon (:

5/13/2005 04:01:00 PM

Thursday, May 12, 2005

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btw. i just wanna say. in case of some dumb misunderstandings that im talking crap again. im not talking crap and i mean exactly what i say. its the truth kkaes. haiis . and i seriously just wanna sit down and cry and scream . hormones. roll eyes- and yeaa, quarrels make friendship stronger . hopefully .

5/12/2005 09:25:00 PM

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im feeling real tired. mentally. been thinking lots and lots. exams finishing tomorrow. yeaa. last two paper. cme and pac pp1. im flunking. i didnt know how to do much of the exam papers. not very sure where im supposed to go after the exams tomorrow. btw . i really said that i dunno if i can go. not i cannot go or dunch want to go or dunno shld go not. kkaes. shho stop talking craps. im darn pissed. actually. and i do feel like crying. what the hell is wrong with people arnd me? i dunch feel like trusting em anymore, besides shimin kailing sarah fish phebe.. and i never kaobei about ah mah and cheyenne kkaes. all i said was, i felt disgusted with them. this was exactly what i said. i feel disgusted with em. so can people just stop rephrasing me?? i thought you wld understand. you didnt. all of a sudden i just feel like theres a ~~barrier~~ between us. you wld be saying im suddenly hanging out with kailing, and blah blah blah. for goodness sake. its just kailing. yeaa. the one whom i said suck and whom said i suck. now we are great fwens all over again. and i never kaobei about anybody. im not like people who go arnd critiscising people once she like it. i show when im bu shuang. and i dunch act arnd anyone. for goodness sake. its always very obvious that you were talking abt us. or me only. or kailing only. even before i hung out with her. you talk about me. you doubt my character. you condemned me. i know. but i was always pretending i didnt know anything. im hurt. kkaes. actually, it has always been liddat. you were biased against me. what i did never seem to be right. including the way i dress. hello?! which century are you in now? btw. i noe im like .. too thin to wear oversized shirts. yah. i noe. and phebe and shimin once told me about it. but i still wear em cos they are comfy. and its hot in singapore. so can you stop bitching about me? ah mah. yeaa. and cheyenne. and im neutral now. i dunch condemn kailing now. its my freedom to hang out with her. anyways, i always hang out with some other people other than shimin de lorhs. and mayb you all think i changed. to the worse. thats just cos you dunch understand me. yeaa. budden, yeaa, peepo do change. mayb this should just be cleared up face to face. no one sucks here. i mean .. those ' this person suck , tt person suck ' thingy is so childish, come to think of it. & i know i was once like that. for me and kl, no one knows whether we wld be quarreling again (x but for now, its great to have her and shimin (: you guyys roock kkaes. thanks for being there for me. people reading this. dunch misunderstand or rephrase anything anymore. cos that always cause more misunderstandings. i still have got lots more to say. its all bottled up inside. mayb when we really try to clear things up, everything can be settled, once and for all. im seriously being non-pretentious now. dunch get sarcastic kkaes. im just trying to clear things up. so yah, dunch make things worse by bitching more. and seriously. i dunch dislike anyone. i dunch mean anything more. i just want all the crap to be cleared. and let times be like how it used to be. wells. things always turn out right after a quarrel. wells, hopefully. its up to you to believe whether im saying the truth.

5/12/2005 08:06:00 PM

Wednesday, May 11, 2005

/ uunderneathh ;

ive still got 4 more papers left ( including cme ) and exams gonna end on fri !! whee (: im definately looking forward to that day . wahahas . have been going to group studies . yepp . went sarah's house ytd and today . and i just realised that theres a straight bus from my hse to her hse . and it takes only 10mins . wahahas . and i just fall in lurfe with gabriel . beams- i mean gab . as in sarah's brother. hhahas . i think im gonna flunk maths . im definately confirm gurantee chop gonna flunk science . i did soooo terribly . ohwells . it just aint my sbj . real hope exam will finish yeaa . hhahas . oh yah . happy barfdae eugene (: lol . hmmm . looking really forward to aft exams . im sick of exams !! argh . as in sick . literally . past few days . cough and cough and sniffles . wahahas . i think i shall be editing my blogskin soon . yeaa . aft exams (: end here . ciaos .

5/11/2005 06:28:00 PM

Sunday, May 08, 2005

/ uunderneathh ;

woke up with a bloody sorethroat. and streaming nose. and my cough got worse. just when i was going to recover. what the hell?! and now i think my voice changed. bleah. had group study today. did some physics. and i just cant get anything of ss into my head. damn. i dunch even understand why we are supposed to study about indians and sinhalese. hello??!! okaes. im such a racist xD anyways, when i was on my hme just now, a bunch of dumb assed guys were behind me. and they were shouting things for me to turn around. what the fuck. i just continued walking and ignoring em. this went on from the traffic light there to the bball court near my house. they are sooo pathetic. what the hell. i just ignore them. bunch of kaobei freaks. act beng de. fuck off larhs. anyways, kl helped me smsed him -.-" oh. and she did smething else. prank. wahahas. alright. it was crap. hahas. kkaes. guess i shall end here. ciaos.

5/08/2005 06:59:00 PM

Saturday, May 07, 2005

/ uunderneathh ;

i had to wake up at 7 in the morning today for the hpt mentoring. and for once, i wasnt late. hahas. but only some were there. and gary was the only grad down there. moved to the classrms after tt, one rm per group. for my group, only me yiyong and clarinda were there. so we did our revision for 45mins. aft tt, we had our 5mins break and yiyong was so amazed at how much i could eat. grins- he havent seen the real me yet. wahhhahahas. aft tt, we were supposed to continue studying. however, the three of us started chatting. talked about lotssa stuffs. ahhahas. and i went over to play bbal with kahwee xavier jy sijie jack. eugeneng and waihong they all were there too. got so pek after a while cos the guys always solo. so i went back to the classrms. and arnd 5 mins ltr, it was lunchbreak. ahhahas. so to say the truth, we did not much revision at all. went for lunch at hawker behind as a whole big group. and i was in the middle of pinwen and fish. bleah. and the stoopid rainbow song that pinwen recorded in his phone. ahhahas. aft tt we went back school and sang barfdae song in chinese english and malay for the may babies !! wahhahas . me fish zhenhui vanessa and yiyong are the may babies. were smearing cream on each other's faces. i think me and fish dio the most cream. ahhahas. and i smelt of cream. lols. aft tt went back to the rm to study. me and kahwee were actually using bluetooth to send songs larhhs. ahhahas. so didnt study also. did ask some pac questions tho. hhahas. kkaes. guess i will end here le. its the fifth day le. shld i sms him instead ? ponders- adieu .

5/07/2005 05:58:00 PM

Friday, May 06, 2005

/ uunderneathh ;

today was the maths paper 1. alright. it was fine. but the door just won't open still. so i guess, im deadmeat. went j8 with jolene wenqi fish fiona and shimin today. walked all arnd. lol. it was kinda boring. budden still fine larhs. saw sonia and stephanie. and they were pinching our asses. and we ended up having SORE ASSES (: kkaes. its aint anything good. budden it kinda felt like the old times again. cheyenne and anet joined us aftwards. i guess things dunch feel the same way lers. yeaa. was pretty high in sch today. and it was hot. but i guess i settled down again aft a while. theres mentoring tomorrow. yepp. guess i shall b studying pac. yupp yupps. 4 days lers & i aint hearing anything frm him. and im trying to get use to it. haiis. shall end here. ciaos.

5/06/2005 08:54:00 PM

Wednesday, May 04, 2005

/ uunderneathh ;

Journey

It's a long long journey
Till I know whera I'm supposed to be
It's a long long journey
And I don't know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you

Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong

I know I will falter I know I will cry
I know you'll be standing by my side
It's a long long journey
And I need to be close to you

Sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know why I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through?

Cause It's a long long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on calvary
Beneath those stormy skies
When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feels like everything is out to make me lose control
Cause It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you ... to you

5/04/2005 04:58:00 PM

/ uunderneathh ;

today's chinese was darndarn hard. guess i really got it bad. yeaa. tomorrow's english(: thats kinda the sbj im most confident in. just that.. its difficult too! ewk. upper sec english SUCKS. big time. pon maths remedial today. hhahas. i heck care le larhs. theres grp study tomorrow again. to prepare for maths. yepp. i think i shall not be blogging for the next few days bahs. yepp. &iwouldjustlurfetogethimouttamymindandletgo . can ii ? pul-lease ?? help -

5/04/2005 04:42:00 PM

Tuesday, May 03, 2005

/ uunderneathh ;

and the exams shall start tomorrow. not exactly getting stressed up, but im definately afraid for my science and my maths. i dont even understand whats the need of studying them. yah. for our future and blah blah blah. im gonna be dead if i fail em again. i know. im gonna prepare a gun to kill myself by the day we get our results back (: alright. i shall not get so pessimistic. tomorrow's chinese paper. have already prepared for it, and thus, im here (: ahhahas. tho im not supposed to be larhs. nt de pupils good larhs. the day after tmr then start their paper. mrs soh say they have only around 6 paper to take. us? i think much more than that. have been having group studying. its nicer and better than studying alone at home. yepp. that buddy cafe is nice sia. ahhahas. kns lorhhs. just now on my way there saw ivan they all. was comparing the rank of marshells and counscilors. ahhahas. was just crapping arnd larhhs. ahhahas. and they actually teased me about the sms thingy. what the fuck lorhs. made me so paiseh. cos they know. rahs! i shallnt sms him anymore. hmph. i mean i shallnt be the first one anymore. as if ive been. crap. anyways, was grp studying again with cc jy and sm. got some free fries frm cc again. LOL. aft tt cc and jy sent me hme again. ahhahas. alrighto. shall end here. adieu (:

jy: dun say huh
me: try not to say huh
jy: eh
cc: what?
jy: blah blah blah
cc: what?
jy: c, you can do it de lorhs. no huh. hhahahs.
eve: hahahas. ehh.
cc: huh?
eve: GUAFFAWS . euu said huh agaiin. ahhahas.
jy: ahahhas .

kkaes. tts roughly our conversation. crap right. and all the while i was still tryin to get cc to stand straight. guaffaws :D

5/03/2005 08:17:00 PM

Sunday, May 01, 2005

/ uunderneathh ;

yang kai rocked yesterday at his laselle sia concert cum exam (: i seriously does not have anything to wear out since ive given out like.. almost three quarter of my clothings away -.o" ended up had to wear that bright blue converse collar shirt of my sister which made me look really.. eekyy. anyway, me and kailing met for dinner at khatib macs before that. missed the train that shimin they all was on and had to wait for the next one. reached outram park station at arnd 7plus. made our way to the jubilee church. all the seniors wear till very mature and i felt so out of place. bleahhs. took the lift and as we did not kjnow which floor to alight, we were practically stopping at every flr. the first time the lift door opened, we screamed. ahhas. cos it was pitch black and all of us just freakedd out. yiling looked as if she was gonna cry again. ahhahas. finally alighted at the fourth flr, where the light was on. ahhahas. we were a bit late to get in and yang kai had already started his solo performance. great. really like an opera singer. ahhahas. after his performance was aanother performance by zhen yue, another laselle student. whooa. uber soprano sias. hhahas. the concert ended with yang kai and zhen yue singing all i ask of you (: great. the concert was nice, budden as yangkai had said, it was a teeny bit boring. ahhaas. budden still can larhs. aft that the whole bunch of them went amk to have dinner, budden me shimin and cheyenne went home. reached hme kinda late at 10plus. yepp. budden, frankly speaking, it was quite a new experience goin to that kinda concert. ahhas. hmmm. ltr on goin for grp study. its another hot hot hot day. rahs! shall upload the photos next time. yupp. end here le. adieus (:

5/01/2005 01:14:00 PM