hahs! i made two templates today, one for me, and one for anet. both are similar, and both are still incomplete. lols. shall continue tomorrow. anyways, i just realise my previous post was my number 777 post. nice number. hahaha (: and! sihao thought that jake was really my boyfriend. hahaha (: AND. i decided not to go do stupid things on weewee's photo cos thats a fricking waste of my time. lols. ohwells. im effing tired. but ive decided to stay up to watch The Park :D ohkays. bye bye. this is a stupid and random post. LOL.

WE LOVE MISS YEO (:
Joel the Chairman, Yusong the KORRRRRR, Jake the madeup BF and ME! (:

rahs. school was boring today. except for the youth day celebration, which was quite alright. there was a lot of screaming going on. fun ((: after that approached mr wee to get back my phone and he was like saying he was busy. then he remembered that i had approached him once already, and said that if i really want to get my phone back, i was to wait outside the DnT room for him. and i did, with anet, for one hour, and he never turned up. then i realise his van wasnt outside the DnT room anymore, meaning he had left. i got so fucking pissed. it's like, what right does he have to scold us when he stand people up? teachers arent supposed to be like this. i shant say more, cos i'll get pissed all over again. i dont think i should respect him that much since he doesnt seem to respect me. i might be damn afraid of him, but it doesnt mean i really do respect him >:/

after that me, phebe and fiona went J8. then phebe told me that she used to think i look like ET cos i was so thin and my hair was screwed and my face looks big and everything. i laughed my ass off. haha. so perhaps it's reallygood for me to gain weight. cos now my face looks super small and im not really skins and bones anymore. haha (: but i still dont like my weight! lols. then bought a black and white polka dots bangle (: cute. hahs. then met shimin. walked around. went to look at the hamsters. i so want to get one :D and im still thinking of a name. haha! then felt super tired. so went home.

theres so many photos in my comp, its slowing down the whole thing. so i shall clear the redundent ones out. and i want to make new templates (:

anet always sleep. hahs!
foot wrestling with cheyenne (:
view from the gallery (x
the three dumb guys. lols
baby faith and me (:

we had the career seminar thing today. kinda boring, but i guess tomorrow will be better. the f was gone already when i went to look for him after school. 4th time! >>>:( i wonder when will i be able to get my phone back. sighhhhhhhs. if i cant get back tmr, i'll have to wait 3 more days cos monday's a holiday! rahs.

anyways, how sweet. clement was afraid i'd get hurt by ___ and he was like, warning me. lololols. okays. dont worry. cos i confirm gurantee chop, haha, wont. lols. 13 years old kids will never understand how the 16 years old think. i guess people really learn alot as they grow up, but i'd prefer it if the way people think can remain not so complicated. lols.

kays. i guess i'll have to go do my fricking FNN coursework part b already. and pray hard that i can get my phone back tmr.

i havent been myself these few days. im moody and the times when im laughing and fooling around doesnt seem real at all. sounds so fucking corny, but i dont give a damn.

today was the worst of the previous days. i snapped at people when they tease me when the effing idiot walk past. some kinda quarrel went on and i scolded mengzhou fuck you unintentionally infront of all the other guys. and, i didnt want to talk about it cos i really know nothing and i was alone there, not literally, obviously. i cant express myself properly and all i know are only bits and pieces and the bloody tears kept threatening to flow out. [edited]ohwells, but not surprisingly, after two humanes period, it seemed as if nothing happened. as usual. i shant say more. it will come out all wrong.

just as i was at my lowest today, anet wrote me a note on the piece of paper we used to write crapshit to each other, telling me to smile (: and just before zongyang left our classrm cos mr lau was in class already, he gave me a pet on my head. maybe it was just for fun or something, but it cheered me up a teeny bit. and sihao pinched me and said something though i didnt really catch it. so maybe even if shimin's opposite and phebe's downstairs, theres still people arnd who cheers me up. and i really wld like to have nth to do with the idiot already.

Horoscope for Gemini today: Nostalgia is a double-edged sword. Don't hold on too long to things that are stale. There's a nice warm place in your heart where you keep special memories and nostalgic ideas, but it's not an infinite space, and right now you need to make some room. There are a few old exes, forgotten dreams and outdated philosophies that need to get cleaned out. Many of these things feel necessary from an emotional point of view, but from a realistic point of view (which is what you need to use), they could be holding you back. Don't hold on to things that are too stale.

i aint talking about twograce'o4. it's one of the rare things that happened in my life and the memory of it will never go stale, neither will all the friendships. on a brighter note, the trip to the HDB hub gallery was a great one, despite the initial reluctance. once we were out of the school, i was pulling yusong by the ear and he was stepping on my foot, and before i knew it, he had ripped out all my hairpins and rubberband =/ then yuenchen decided to help me take revenge and she poured water down yusong's back. he was wet from the waist down and what was so effing funny was that he didnt know anything at all until someone asked him why was he so wet. ROFL.

after that the few of us had lunch with miss yeo and we talked alot. shes the nicest teacher ever (: oh, and speaking of teachers, i think of the f. i finally manage to see him after school to get my phone back, with cheyenne's company, and he just walked away after saying he was busy, with a glance of my nametag. @$#%^&*

oh and i needa do my coursework b already. bian tai's been asking me to do it soon. he's turning into my mom. a mother managing my fnn homework. lololols. okays. it has been a long entry, and i think i shouldnt be using crude words that much anymore.

my mood sucks today. emo emo emo :/ its weird. cos i just feel like crying at every single little thing, and i'll just stone without me knowing and think about weird things. and i feel so stupid. if someone actually tells you that he misses you, you wouldnt reply i see right? thats the kind of stupid things i did :/ gah. it's like all the weird things come rushing to me today. ahahs. but kelvin, ehem, i dont mean poopoo head. i mean the cute one, LOL, he's cute on msn too. hahaha (x and he says i walk like a da jie da. LOL. ohkays whatever.

so anyway. school sucks today too. and i didnt manage to get my phone back again. the walking... okays i decided not to put the c word up here cos it is a revolting word though it fully suits the person im referring to. so yes. faggot. the f went for a meeting. GAH. my phone's already with him for more than 1 month le laaaa >:/ oh kelvin just said im cool. ROFL. (: back to what i was saying, the secfours were also punished today. cos we sang the song too softly. then ehem, certain people were damn loud, ehem. LOL. and the f wasnt happy with it too. sheesh.

after recess the few of us got punished to stand outside the class by miss cheong cos we went back to class late. okays. i dont mind standing outside frankly speaking, for her lessons. then slept through for chinese, and had home period replace chemistry lessons. gah. i dont like to see birdface. rahs.

after school spent time hunting for the f. gah. then went yishun for lunch, then home. its great to get home early today. i dunno why, but faith's so cute. she loves ah yi the bear :D okays im off. bye.
blue hippo, ah yi, moo moo, cheep and faith! (:

im in the school IT lab (: dear mr tan gave us the periods free after finishing what he wanted to teach. yayness :D and im satisfied cos presently, the second blogskin up is rated 5 stars :D hahaha. im easily satisfied, thank you. lols. but im fricking unhappy with my effing hair >:( its sooooooo irritating i feel like just shortening the top part more and go to school with a teeny weeny long pony tail and broom-like hair at the top :/ hahaha. oh sheesh. my effing cramp is hurting like fuck. it's bulletproof vest's lessons later after recess. rahhhhs. im off til later.

byeeee [:

first day of school sucks big time. the stupid guy who's always wearing his maroon-turned-pink shirt (let's just call him the faggot) was throwing his weight about and being a total wet blanket to the happy reunions of friends. lols. and he left school so effing early that me and boulder couldnt go find him in time to get back my phone and his mp3. rahhhhhs >:(

besides the faggot, having to look at the faces of certain adults whom i just dont like to look at also sucks. some certain birdface. but on a brighter note, being in school is so effing much better than staying at home. how contradicting. but being with friends is really so much better. and i really think everyone should thrash things out as soon as possible cos the weird feeling is suffocating. and to say the truth i dont really understand what started everything.

ohkays. anyway, after school we went cwp. then went to the library and i kept asking ahmah to take photos with me. im sorry! hahaha. but i love taking photos xP and blame the faggot for not returning my phone to me yet. gah.

okays. i dont feel like blogging anymore. i feel weird again. sheesh. im off to do my stuffs. byeee.

oh sheesh im watching Devil Beside You over and over again and Mike He Jun Xiang is still so damn fricking hot la (: ohkays anyway, i posted that hear me out skin yesterday :D and im so glad cos people rated it 5 stars, except for one who gave 4.5, i think. lololols. shall post another old one up tmr or something.

watched the movie Hinokio yesterday night on TV. damn touching and bloody sweet. then couldnt sleep and the idiot called. was rather stupid :/ perhaps it was cos he was tired. it was silence for most of the first half hour. lololols. then we started talking about really stupid things which people dont normally talk about over the phone :/ super retarded. lols. but its getting kinda tiring to talk to him. something like that. i cant really figure myself out. sheesh.

kays. having dinner with the relatives later. school tomorrow, and HOPEFULLY, i'll get my phone back.

PS. this bloody website rocks: http://twitionary.blogspot.com/
im gonna stop spelling dunch and wunch le. ahahahaha. (x

AHS.

i had mac for dinner today, and that guy at the counter was so bloody cute can. i mean cute as in those small little boy kinda cute. he's short and he's got a very cute face and he doesnt look older than 13. hahaha. think he was new there, cos he was asking me how big my drink and my fries were supposed to be, when i told him i want 2 student meals upsize. rofl. though im in a very irritable mood, i couldnt help but feel amused. lols. in the end he still gave me two medium fries instead of large fries. but whatever. i spared him the hassle of changing it for me and being embarrased all over again. cos he gave me two small coke instead of two medium coke at first, and he kept giving those embarrased smile. hahs.

alright. im gonna post my old blogskins up (: and hopefully i can think of a new template. i feel heavy. gah. x/

it's another one of those stupid days. school starts the day after tomorrow and thats so effing retarded. i havent done any of the homework i'm supposed to do, and yet, here i am, still giving excuses and procrastinating. but ive finally finished my three days food record modification for FNN with help from biantai haha (: there's still an excess saturated fat and cholesterol and blah, but i dont care already.

it was a bright and fricking beautiful morning just now and i hate the way the weather was just now. thank goodness it looks as if it's about to rain >:( im supposed to be at the beach on a bright and beautiful day. rahs. now im going effing bonkers.

my life is in a bloody mess right now cos
1. my chemistry sucks
2.my physics sucks
3. my pac sucks
4. my maths sucks
5. my coursework is in a mess
6. my results suck
7. i dont have a boyfriend. yes yes. singlehood rocks. -roll eyes-
8. that bloody friend-of-my-friend freak is irritating me now
9. im feeling fat and im still eating
10. ahhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >>>:(

i just feel like screaming and everything. sheesh.

RAHS. didnt go Sentosa today cos firstly, only me and Brenda could make it besides the guys, and secondly, it was raining in the morning >>:( then stayed at home. tried to do FNN, modify the three days food record, but the fat content turned out to be more. how effing stupid. so i gave up. decided to do some other day or something. although i stayed at home for two days already, i did no holiday homework at all. gahhhhhhhhhhh.

and somebody's being really irritating. sheesh. so what if you know my friend la. that doesnt mean ive to know you can. its only for the sake of her that im replying dude. and thats so meaningless. rahhhhs x( im in a totally irritable mood.

apple strudels are damn yummy (: sheesh. i'll go find something to do.

im back to blog already, and below are some photos. im lazy to upload more. the rest are uploaded at shutterfly ((:

Chorister's Cottage, that is, choir camp 2006, was okay. but compared to previous choir camps, it wasnt that great. perhaps during the camp, the few of us might have made some people pissed off or what so ever by being so high and mighty and stuffs like that.

okays. so anyway, me phebe and min got to school later than the rest of the people cos we thought the first hour was for BMT, that is, the basic music theory, that we neednt attend. turned out that the frozen tees arrived, so they played that and we werent there. at least our grp managed to get the third position without us (: then when we reached, we still could slack for arnd half an hour cos they were attending the BMT. after that played amazing race arnd AMK. that was fun (: but super tiring.

had lunch, then Yiyuan came. we watched Sound of Music in the music room, then had some quizzes and stuffs like that. wanted to get back my phone from mr lim, but then didnt see him around >:/ had discussions about our disco night item, then had disco night. it was kinda weird disco night. cos it seem like everyone goes high for a while, then quieten down again, then go high again. that sorta thing. had nightwalk after that. half of the sleeping time was spent having girls' talk with angelyn, tricia, fiona (heng), vera, half of phebe and half of shimin. hahs! cos phebe and min were at the same time on the phone with ahmah. lols. talked mostly abt c, the beansprout, and teethlikeshit and her three friends. lololols. couldnt wake up on time in the morning (x

had brekkie, then games and stuffs. the candle game turned out kinda disastrous and i think we made xinyi cried or something :/ awww. but nobody was blaming her la. she planned everything well enough (: then blah blah blah. the camp goes on. then i went to get my phone back with tricia. but realise my phone wasnt with mr lim, but with mr wee >>>:( so sad la. then ive got to wait till school reopen. sighs. and mr wee is so difficult to find, i think. sheesh. i wonder when will i be able to get back my fricking phone.

okays. so anyway, HappyThreeFriends got second highest for the points (: yay. we rock we rock! hahaha. then went home happily. and phebe and me kept talking about detoxifying. LOL. got home at arnd 10.

spent the day at home today. went library too. hahs. finally found the book The Pretties, the second and last book in the trilogy (: oh and the idiot says the friendster bg i made for him is pretty :DDD yayness. hahaha. okays. pray hard that it doesnt rain tomorrow, cos i want to go Sentosa! (:

and and and,
HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY TO KEITH,
HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY TO YINKIAT,
and HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY TO SHAOJUN!
yea. like they will read my blog like that. haha.

ohhkays. photos HERE!

more photos HERE

i was late today. supposed to reach school at 8, but i woke up at 8 instead. hahs. then had briefing. yay, am grouped in cluster 3, and we named ourself HappyThreeFriends. lols. hopefully camp will be fun :D then went find mr lim, but couldnt. think he wasnt in school. rahhhhhhs. so in the end i couldnt get my phone back >>:(

after that went angmokio kBox. sang and sang. then that kbox guy was pretty nice, and we were like saying he seem to have taken an interest in ahmah. ahahs. then there were like so many songs which makes me think of phebe. lololols.

okays. ive got a lack of sleep and im fricking tired now. but i bet i wont be able to sleep tonight again. sighs. okays. im off already. shall be back on wednesday night (:

i wanted to change my blogskin and change my friendster thing also, but i think i like the present background for my friendster and perhaps i'll just change the fonts and the colors of everything else. sighs. and i dunno how im supposed to make a new blogskin. rahhhhs. i found a lot of old ones though, in my folders. so perhaps instead of deleting em away, i might post em up to blogskins.com anonymously. gahhhhh. life sucks cos one never seem to stay happy for long. mood's going down the drain soon >:/

i wonder if my cbox's still down. if it still is, i'll try to figure how to use haloscan and maybe change to that. the time passes so damn fast. if mr lim's in school tomorrow, I MIGHT BE ABLE TO GET BACK MY PHONE! :DDD thats the only thing to look forward to, i guess. oh, and Sentosa on Friday. hopefully the choir camp will be great and get me back to being happy again.

staying at home sucks. i feel as though my parents are against all of my friends, and perhaps against me too. im the blaaaaack sheep of the family. baaa, baaaa :/ sheesh, adults today! stupid creatures. gah.

played basketball at the 609 court today. ahmah and shimin came up to my house before that and i played with the mascara on ahmah. fun fun (: cos she's got that super duper long lashes. hahs. then went down. saw xiuanpin poopoohead and yuxuan on the way there, then jolene and cheyenne were already there. there was this weird feeling today. but yea, didnt enjoy myself as much as the previous time.

after that had dinner at NorthPoint KFC with ahmah shimin phebe and jiayan. then talked and ate and stuffs like that. and dear phebe and shimin dont think so much already! (: it's my turn to say that to the both of you. hahs! occupy yourself with something else so that the mind will be occupied (: then ahmah was plotting against guys or something like that. lololols.

ohwells. im still in a less than excellent but more than okay mood now, after that call from the idiot. its kinda ironic, how someone we can makes your mood damn good can make you feel like shit too. if only we can stop growing up. things dont seem to be so complicated and hard to explain when the hormones havent kick in yet. SHEESH. it seemed so long since i last blamed hormones for everything. so now i shall start. effing hormones la.... *(^#I)@^%E%$&!!!

some people just dont understand that they arent good enough to not get dumped, and thus, they always seem to be sore at the people who dump them. these people, are plain stupid. i should capitalise the word. STUPID. super duper tremendously effing stupid. vulgarities are not to be hurled at them, cos it's too not worth it to make myself say those oh my gawd crude things, if you get what i mean. and and and, those who love taking people for granted, they should be happy that we are even talking to em. hello. stop that effing attitude. one day they'll be left alone, and by then, its too late to even regret. perhaps they wouldnt even care// im not talking about anyone particularly. im a fricking nice girl :D

so yea, girls. move on with life. perhaps a few weeks later, im the one who need this kinda comfort. but right now, im here for youuuuuuu! thoough im so super bad at expressing myself (: thats the way girls' lifes are, isnt it? :D im off to keep myself busy busy. hahhhhs. (:

went BuddyHoagies today. did some geography, and wongkailing, if youre reading this, the aunty misses you damn lot, i think! cos she always ask about you. hahaha. okays. anyways, i hate staying at home now. rahhs. it's like my mom really thinks im hanging out with bad company or something. i dunno, but theres this really weird feeling, esp today. sheesh.

ytd night morning i was on the phone, and it started raining and my sis and mom woke up and caught me on the phone. and the rest, expected stuffs la. i feel so controlled. GAHHHHHH. what the fuck is wrong with em laaaa. effing people. sighs. hello. it's not as if i like ahbengsahlians / ahbengsahlians like me that much for me to hang out with em. those adults love to think that they teenage kids are hanging out with bad companies. WEIRD LA. it seem as if they love thinking of their own child that way. -ROLL EYES AGAIN AND AGAIN- hahaha. whatever. i dont give a damn. oh and my mom seem to suspect a bit that its not the choir camp im going next tues and wed. SHEESH. shes going to get mental already with all that suspecting >>>:/

alright alright. theres so much to do. the taipei invitation thing, the idiot's friendster thing (i decided to do it. heh heh.), my own friendster thing, and A NEW BLOGSKIN. ahahaha. ohhhkays. ive to keep myself busy busy, cos the weird controlled feeling is still there. perhaps some fight between me and my parents is gonna happen soon. probablyyyyy. gahhhh. lololols. i looooove repeating letterrrs!!! so retarded. bye bye (:

AH I WANT A CHANGE OF BLOGSKIN!

im so bloody hell fricking fickle minded, really, so much that even i cant stand it >>>:( and bloody hell. i want to get back my phone! i dont like 3100 ): three more days, but truth is im scared of mrwee. lololols. >:/ this post is so random. anyway. today wasnt fun at all. tried on so many things but couldnt find any nice things to buy >:/ and i still had to be a free babysitter. rahs.

im getting heaty. pimples popping out, my skin's kinda warm, ulcers popping out, blahhhh. i better drink more water. btw. kelvin's the real poo poo head :D

new blogskin tomorrowwwwwww. bye bye.

went Bugis today. managed to get 20bucks from my mom. BIG DEAL. rahrahrahhhhhhs. im dying cos im effing broke! GAHH. somebody give me lots and lots of cash, pls. hahaha. okays whatever. then had lunch at Mcdonald's and i bite my lips and it became bloody and for once, i couldnt finish my fries. then walked around Bugis Street. bought a pair of playboy ear studs. and now ive got so many pairs of those big studs. lols. then couldnt find any nice belt.

after that went to meet my sister. walked around again. and we went into this shop selling bags. and i, for goodness know what reason, was feeling so confident and talking to the owner like i know him for so gawddamn long alrdy. then my sister said she decided not to buy the bag and i was like saying bye to the guy, and i turned and walk confidently and i trip and almost fall and i grab some random malay guy by the hand. oh my fricking hell so effing effing embarrasing kays. MY GAWD. gahhhh >:/

okays after that i started complaining about the lack of cash from my mom to my sister and my temper got worse and worse and i was like, damn grumpy about everything. at least my sister was in a mood good enough to stand my fricking nonsense. decided to go marina square. then mood became better. it was as if seeing all the ahbengsahlians at bugis affect my mood. HAHA. okays whatever. thats total nonsense. then saw this really nice ripcurl bikini. sighs. 69.90. and the nice Fox shorts which cost like 33bucks >:((( rahs. after that went Millenia Walk and bought chocolates from the CandyEmpire (: and i bought a wonka bar too... though i didnt feel like eating it. sheesh.

ive decided to stay at home and study tomorrow (: wanted to go Sentosa on Fri. but Yuenchen cant make it :((( so MAYBE will hafta postpone. sighs. alright. im off already. bye bye.

drats. i decided not to help after all :D and my polka dots can wait. teehees. im so fricking bored. rahrahrahhhhs.

:/

oh me gawd. i was sucha big ass yesterday. im so much better today okay (:

well. that idiot finally contacted me. hahaha and i dont feel especially great or happy or whatever, so thats good. and nobody messaged me at all today too :D so yea. troubles always seem to start with smses, thats why. teehees.

spent the whole day at home doing practically nothing :/ baby faith wasnt here, so there wasnt much things to do. so ive gotta get out tomorrow, and the day after tomorrow, and the next next day, cos staying at home sucks. hahs.

"Love, like rain, can nourish from above, drenching couples with a soaking joy. But sometimes, under the angry heat of life, love dries on the surface and must nourish from below, tending to its roots, keeping itself alive."
the above is extracted from the book: The Five People you Meet in Heaven. damn. its a effing great book (:

okays look at this:

i got it from a blog and it says that if Disney owned the stylized mouse head logo, then we'd all die for lack of water. true. hahaha.

sheesh. i think im going crazy from all that boredom just now. i hafta help that idiot do up his friendster. gah. and maybe i'll change my backgrnd to polka dots. hahaha. bye bye.

...but they seem to always never do. sheesh.

She's The Man's a fricking nice show. totally hilarious and super sweet. laughed like crazy. and i guess all guys are pretty much the same. was so pissed with the guys cos they decided not to join us cos of some totally stupid reason, and was pissed with the girls cos they didnt tell us about their plans for the movie. fine. there aint any need to tell us about their own gatherings and stuffs.

in the end, watched with ahmah anet and min, and surprise surprise! zongyang and yuxuan joined us. -roll eyes- after the show walked arnd town. went Borders. then went Fareast. then home.

i dont feel like blogging anymore. im feeling bloody emo and i hate to admit it, but i really want him to call.

im feeling depressed and im stuffing junk food again. but that si bian tai made me laugh my ass off:

sweet misery;;
biiiiiiiiiiiiian tai!
sweet misery;;
ewwwwwwwwwww
{[hehe]}hOpe & deSpair is only one arm apart from each other!>>>S.A.M>>>
haha
{[hehe]}hOpe & deSpair is only one arm apart from each other!>>>S.A.M>>>
is you lor
sweet misery;;
you then
sweet misery;;
dont deny
{[hehe]}hOpe & deSpair is only one arm apart from each other!>>>S.A.M>>>
i nvr deny i am pervert
{[hehe]}hOpe & deSpair is only one arm apart from each other!>>>S.A.M>>>
i knew it since i grew up
{[hehe]}hOpe & deSpair is only one arm apart from each other!>>>S.A.M>>>
heihei
sweet misery;;
HAHA

thats like only one small part of the conversation. lols. ahhs. She's the Man tomorrow with the people (: cant wait. ive been rotting at home yesterday and today. and really. ignorance is bliss. sheesh. bye for now.

super nice song. im darn bored. rahhhs.

i skipped Physics yet again yesterday. intended to go, but ended up going for breakfast behind school again, this time round with Jake, Zhixuan and John. hahs. then the 4i guys came too, and we saw Andy, Eugene goh and the rest of the guys. so i guess most people didnt go for the lesson.

after that had FNN. time spent today was better spent today. did the pie chart thingy. after that went home, and met up with Shimin and Cheyenne to go to Yiyuan's chalet. it was fricking horrible cos the chalet was much further in than the chalets we normally go, and it was raining. gah.

when we finally reach, we realise that there were so many people. hahs. didnt really like it there. played cards with laopop. then we left after a while. hung out around Tampines Mall. then wanted to catch a movie, but didnt in the end cos Cheyenne was having a headache. had Pastamania for dinner. sighs. the creamy chicken was so rich, i couldnt finish it cos i got kinda gross out by the milky smell.

bought ear studs, then wanted to buy a black studded belt, but didnt in the end cos Cheyenne thinks that the uncle talks too much. teehees. after that, spent arnd 15 minutes in the toilet trying to poke the ear stick into min's earholes. sheesh. her ear hole never seem to be able to heal, and a lot of blood came out together with the pus and she seemed to be in so much pain that even i was wincing when i poke the ear stick through the hole. sheesh.

then today, didnt even bother to wake up in time to get to school for Physics. lololols. went for FNN straightaway. did the analysis things. went to Pizza Hut for lunch with Anet Wanlin Huixin Zhixuan and biantai. biantai was so biantai today cos he kept pulling my hair, and he even got Marcus to conspire with him :/ rahs. ent back for FNN. didnt do much after the break. hahs. then left at arnd 4.30pm.

ohhkays. i have to start studying already, if i want to stop failing (: so, i guess i'll start tomorrow. suntanning and retail therepy next week :D alright. bye bye.

i've been tagged by : PINWEN (:

(instructions: state eight different points of ure ideal lover. mention gender.
tag eight other ppl to do it.)

gender : male :D
01- sensitive, though not over
02- must not be too be toooooo egoistic
03- caring, thoughtful, truthful (:
04- super sweet (:
05- understand me (:
06- really love me (:
07- must be able to converse well with me (:
08- able to share all his joy/unhappiness with me, and vice versa (:

People, i want them to do on their blog :)
01- phebe
02- kailing
03- kitty
04- fish
05- fiona
06- shimin
07- wenqi
08- melly

(:

i didnt go for Physics today. went for breakfast with yk kh and t. ohwells. it feels weird to have their name here, so i shall put the initials instead. and it wasnt exactly a breakfast cos i only had a cup of ice milo. at least i didnt have to pay for it. sheesh. kays. i felt kinda weird there with em. and yk laughed at my hair, and kh says its messy :/ gahh. after that met up with anet and went for FNN.

did nothing, cos me and anet were just fooling around, checking out phones and prices, then learning how to login to msn using the school's comp. it was a crap waste of time, but afterall, we were the ones wasting the time cos we were supposed to do our coursework. hahs.

after that went J8 with the 4faith girls. was kinda in an emo mood. rahs. then was being high and all that, but nothing helped today :/ sighs. had lunch, then went Swensen to use the 10bucks voucher Afrose gave to anet. then was so hilarious cos kitty gave us a shower of blessing. we were talking about the chee of cheebyes. HAHS. and she was drinking water, then she laughed. lololols. after that walked around J8, then tried to stalk Hukuoon and her bf. hahs.

saw this really pretty phone just now - Samsung e870. i think if im changing phones, i might get that cos i like it alot. lololols. phebe does too (: the only negavtive point about it is that the camera is only 1.3 mp. aint alot, but i guess it's good enough (: hahs.

okays. im still not in a happy mood. there seems to be something heavy pressing on me emotionally, and ironical it might sound, i feel so empty. ohhh i dunno what im talking about anymore ): yiyuan's chalet tomorrow! but theres still lessons before it. sighs. bye bye.

sixian, jingning, jianing (:

beautiful childhood. hahs! (:

she was afraid of getting wet. lololols

(:

me and lynette

me and siying.

me and char

watching the day after tmr on the wall (x

eheh. ahsohs. hahaha.

BRENDA AND ME being SPASTIC (:

i just came back from the chalet.

okays. it wasnt that bad afterall. when my little cousins left for the swimming pool, me and my two other cousins were left in charge of filling up the balloons for more water bombs. and obviously, teenagers + water = war. there. so we started pouring water all over each other, and soon we were wet thoroughly, and of cos, besides the two toilets, the area outside was flooded too. hahs.

sheesh. by the way, i ate the lollipop. and i havent even been sucking it for more than half an hour, i dropped it onto the ground. was at the bus stop, and when it dropped, i screamed. gah. how embarrasing. sighhhhs. i guess its fated for me to not have the lollipop. hahaha :/

miss cheong nagged and scolded at me today. she said that i should do something about my studies, and that i should try. screw her. how does she know im not trying or that im not even planning to try, and that im just gonna take everything easy and fail my O's and it wouldnt even matter to me? thats not it. she aint me. she should bloody hell stop assuming, and that she shouldnt even be saying anything about Kailing being a bad influence to me. no matter where she moves me, im still not gonna listen during her class cos ive never understood anything there. i learn everything from anet and its always after lessons, during our own self studies, that i actually get to learn something about pac.

actually, i admit im a tad too stubborn, and daryl is right. im silly. sheesh.
it's effing late already and i still have lessons tomorrow. sighs. bye bye.

oh my gawd. i cant believe ive been so stupid. so blind. so rah rah rahs. and i gave the lollipop to my brother. i shall eat the lollipop tomorrow. theres bloody accounts and maths lessons tomorrow. sucks. and i so dont want to go to the chalet tomorrow. i just want to stay at home and wallow in my own misery about not being loved, but i have to. hahs. im feeling crazy all over again. oh and something random. i cant believe yk was so dumb that he actually followed my instructions to eat more chocolates when he was having sorethroat to 'yi du gong du', and now he's having throat ulcers. ROFL. okays. tomorrow shall be a better day (:

im soooo tired. bye bye.

wonder of wonders. yk was the one who woke me up today morning for school, or else i wld be still in bed at 9, pressing the snooze button on my the phone every 5 minutes. sheesh. i havent been able to sleep these few nights. sighhhhs. okays nvm, whatever.

reached school a little after 9. then sat in the canteen to wait for Miss Wong Kailing, the forever late one, till 9.30 when she finally came. then miss cheong didnt allow the 6 of us to go in at first cos apparently, she thought we were trying to make a statement :/ *(%$@! what the hell can. okays, lessons were a bore, and it was kinda useless to me, cos i didnt feel as if i learnt anything.

then didnt know where to go, so sat around the bball court with brenda while yuenchen, anet and cheyenne played. then when i went to get drinks, cos i was having effing hiccups, jx came and acted retard, and then pass me the xxl lollipop which the idiot got for me. yuenchen says cheapskate. HAH and i fully agree (x but never mind, its the thought that counts and somemore, its a xxl lollipop and well, its special, i guess :/ according to jx, the idiot wanted to get me tops or something like that. but he didnt in the end, and jx, being the bloody retard, was like telling me not to be sad. SHEESH. im not fucking affected by that okays. ohwells. uhm.

okays. after that me yuenchen and brenda went Northpoint. then fricking bad things happened to yc and there she was being so sad, while me and brenda were still camwhoring and laughing at the 'punch himself' thing. sheesh. we're such mean friends. then walked arnd Northpoint and considered piercing my ear. but then decided not to cos im still not prepared. HAHS. ive got a bloody low threshold for pain. then yuenchen was like saying we go get tatoos together some other time ((:

i need to get belts (: its the Great Singapore Sale! sheesh. i so need cash to go shopping. and i dont wanna go chalet tomorrow. and there's still Yiyuan's chalet on the 8th. but im darn looking forward to Sentosa next week, and to getting my fricking phone back (:

okays. till laterrrr.

i dont understand why guys have to do things which they know it's wrong, even on impulse or what. they end up hurting both the girls, and end up in self-mutilation. like this __ guy who gave a honeyed letter to another girl because "it's like she kept pestering me..and then i just wrote that letter to her.. and i got rid of her after that", and now his gf is pissed, and according to him, he punch himself and asked for forgiveness using his blood.

frankly speaking, i dunno whether thats the truth. but he did show me the photo of the 'bloody words'. but despite my trying-to-comfort-him-and-get-him-not-to-commit-suicide-words, hes a big flirt, that i know and thats why i think he should just go bang the wall and die.

ohmygawd. i so didnt mean that. now he ask me out for coffee. see, what a nice boyfriend.

dad brought us out today, in the morning. we had brekkie behind school, then we went Ikea. shopped around and bought stuffs (: i like Ikea. i think it's a totally cool place, and it's a really great place for family outings, weird as it might sound. after that we went to the Singapore Buddhist Association place, where my dad hire the people to chant at his funeral or something like that. fucking weird. LOL. even my mom was laughing her ass off about it. then we just kinda went all over Singapore in the car :/ with my dad talking to my sister about universities and stuffs. then went home.

then i went out again with my sister to buy ingredients for baking cookies. and yea. i baked. they were supposed to be chewy, but turned out to be like cakes instead. haha. but it tasted pretty good (:

i had a totally weird dream yesterday night, and i totally forgot what was it about, but i remember the ending. there was supposed to be this huge beetle buzzing around my head. it was so real, i woke up, and couldnt really believe that it was a dream, and i kept my blanket over my head, until i was sure that there was no beetle buzzing around. sheesh.

anyways, i cant wait to get back my phone. ohmegawd. im so afraid that the teacher will ask me to get back to him after the school hols. i'll seriously hang myself then :/ ahhhhs. and i hate it when guys... i dunno how to say. lols. but i think some guys are thoroghly irritating and loathsome. gah.

oh sheesh im really bad at expressing myself. okays till later.

ive posted the photos in shutterfly already. nothing much actually. suddenly i'm so sick of friendster. and im having a headache from looking at so much chinese words in BaiDu. lololols. and i still cant't find the song. sheesh. okays. i think i'll try baking tomorrow. hahaha (:

bye bye.

oh sheesh. didn't get to blog yesterday cos i reached home close to 12 am (: RazzMatazz was great. we didnt really screw up the dance and stuffs, and besides having a very tight gown which i couldnt really breath in, everything was fine. the night show was so much better than the matinee show, cos the audience was much more hyper (: camwhored lots and got roses from fufu and rolypoly :D then had supper at Burger King.

wasn't as tired as i expected myself to be, cos i still had Chem lesson in the morning. and Joel was super funny, cos he came to school in a white button long sleeve shirt and jersey pants and slippers. hello, high class plus uncle can. how mismatch can he get? hahs. oh and many commented on my hair. haha. and mrs tan said i look nice. LOL.

then today, PTC. screwed as i expected it to be. rahs. shant say more about dads and report cards and PTCs already. make me fricking hell pissed. played basketball at Zongyang's house there. effing emo today. mood became better after a game (: but really, am still effing pissed off at my dad. he shouldnt just assume, and so what if i love talking on the phone after 12am? im the one losing sleep, not him. and its not the phone calls that cause my fuckedup results. damn it. cant i even have my own life? gah.

kays. shant blog anymore. will be uploading photos, in different posts, cos blogger sucks.

i'm done with the stupid template. now im bored, i got this from Lydsy's blog (:

You can only say YES or NO.*
* You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING
unless someone comments and asks!

1. Taken a picture naked? no
2. Painted your room? no
3. Made out with a member of the same sex? no
4. Drove a car? no
5. Danced in front of your mirror? YES haha
6. Had a crush? yes
7. Been dumped? no
8. Stole money from friend? no
9. Gotten in a car with people you just met? no
10. Been in a fist fight? yes lol
11. Snuck out of your house? no
12. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them
back? yes
13. Been arrested? no
4. Made out with a stranger? no
15. Met up with a member of the opposite sex
somewhere? yes
16. Left your house with out telling your parents?
yes
17. Had a crush on your neighbour? no
18. Ditched school to do something more fun? no
19. Slept in a bed with a member of the same
sex? yes
20. Seen someone die? no
21. Been on a plane? yes
22. Kissed a picture? yes
23. Slept in until 3PM? no
24. Love or miss someone right now? yes
25. Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes
go by? yes
26. Made a snow angel? no
27. Played dress up? yes
28. Cheated while playing a game? yes
29. Been lonely? yes
30. Fallen asleep at work/school? yes
31. Been to a club? yes
32. Felt an earthquake? no
33. Touched a snake? yes
34. Ran a red light? no
35. Been suspended from school? no
36. Had detention? yes
37. Been in a car accident? yes
38. Hated the way you look? yes
39. Witnessed a crime? no
40. Pole danced? no
41. Been lost? yes
42. Been to the opposite side of the country? yes
43. Felt like dying? yes
44. Cried yourself to sleep? yes
45. Sang karaoke? yes
46. Sucked your thumb? yes
47. Done something you told yourself you wouldn't
do? yes
48. Laughed till some kind of beverage came out of
your nose? yes
49. Caught a snowflake on your tongue? no
50. Kissed in the rain? no
51. Sing in the shower? yes
52. Made love in a park? no
53. Had a dream that you married someone? no
54. Glued your hand to something? no
55. Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole? no
56. Ever gone to school partially naked? no
57. Been a cheerleader? no
58. Sat on a roof top? yes
59. Didn't take a shower for a week? no
60. Ever too scared to watch scary movies alone?
yes
61. Played chicken? yes
62. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes
on? no
63. Been told you're hot by a complete stranger?
yes
64. Broken a bone? no
65. Been easily amused? yes
66. Laugh so hard you cry? yes
67. Mooned/flashed someone? no
68. Cheated on a test? yes
69. Forgotten someone's name? yes
70. Slept naked? no
71. Gone skinny dipping in a pool? no
72. Performed on stage? yes
73. Blacked out from drinking? no
74. Played a prank on someone? yes
75. Gone to a late night movie? no
76. Made love to anything not human? no
77. Failed a class? no
78. Choked on something you're not supposed to
eat? no
79. Played an instrument for more than 10 hours?
no
80. Cheated on a girl/boyfriend? no
81. Did you celebrate the 4th of July? no
82. Thrown strange objects? no
83. Felt like killing someone? yes
84. Thought about running away? yes
85. Ran away? yes.
86. Did drugs? no
87. Had detention and not attend it? yes
88. Dumped anyone? noo
89. Made a parent cry? no
90. Cried over someone? yes
91. Owned more than 5 sharpies? no
92. Dated someone more than once? no
93. Have/had a dog? no
94. Own an instrument? no
95. Been in a band? no
96. Drank 25 sodas in a day? no
97. Broken a cd? yes
98. Shot a gun? no
99. Dated a married person of the opposite sex? no
100. Written a love letter? no

i think im gonna get off to sleep soon. i guess the idiot aint back yet. hahs. so yea. and tomorrow's the concert, and theres still chem in the morning. it's gonna be a super tiring day. gah. teachers cant seem to spare a thought for us :/ sheesh.

okay. bye bye again.

hell, i don't think i'll be able to sleep in during the holidays cos it's almost impossible with baby Faith's crying at 8am in the morning, and my brother's screaming and shouting, and my mom's nagging to get my brother to shut down the comp. and bloody hell cos i need the sleep. i slept at 2am yesterday night cos i was on the phone with really, the biggest retard ever, and i had to wake up at fricking 8am cos i couldnt go back to sleep again with all that noises :/

sheesh. but i did quite a lot of things today. i clear up my cupboards, then my cousins came over while i was still clearing, and my mom decided to go J8 with my aunt and my lil cousins literally dragged me along. i didnt want to go at first, but kids are sooo... horrible. i had to give in to em, or risk having my arms pulled off and ears go deaf. so, yea. saw quite a number of PHS people. saw Yiyuan also. then shopped a bit. bought 3 tops. went home after that, and continued to tidy up my drawers, then went out again to collect my altered jeans. and really, after all that walking and tidying up, im seriously pooped, especially since i was super tired to start out with.

OH, and today's my lunar chinese birthday. HAHA. had that mian xian thing for lunch (: and of cos, eggs. hahaha. okays. im gonna find some day when im free to bake cookies. teehees. okays. im gonna try finish up on my unfinished template. bye bye.