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Went for the HPT's KAH selection camp thing today. Was part of the advance party in the morning, so I was at AngMoKio park most of the time with Jack, Charmaine and Brenda. We were doing the chicken dance and taking it down on video cos we didn't really had much to do. LOL. Overall, it was super fun. Imagine, the secthrees went up and down the long staircases 32 times when playing the 100 seconds no NG game. Anyhow, I'm guilty of not knowning most of the Batch 8 people because I haven't really been to any of the HPT activities this year actually.

Next up's training camp in October I think.

Went to town with Anet to help the sister get her stuff, but it was sold out. Had the urge to shop, but was uber tired, so we headed over to Shimin's house instead for a watermelon meal and to watch the telly :D By the way, this world's lacking of eyecandies. Serious shortage. Pttf. Had dinner together. Home. My hair's getting redder and redder. Like, it supposed to be black... I mean, purple. Really dark purple. Whatever, I don't really care about hair colours now. Shall only worry about it during the next hol.

Wanted to go shopping tomorrow or something actually, but I think I'll stay at home and finish up my homework instead. Next week's filled with projects to do. I'm gonna try to keep up with the schoolworks, hit the targets. That'll be two months of hell. Time flies, and it will continue flying. Fwahah. May these two coming months pass fast fast fast [:



LOL.

I think I overate today ): Lunch at prata house with the classmates, was rad but super fattening. Heh. Accounting was spent playing stupid games. kBox kBox! Fwahah. CWP after school, met up with ahmah, Fiona and Phebe, had dinner together. HPT tomorrow morning! Anyhow, Huan huan ai part 1's VCD is like, ouuuuuut! But it's impossible for me to get it. Can't wait for the next episode ):

Right. I'm really tired today. Byeeeeee. I'll leave the replying of tagboard to tomorrow night or something if there's any new tags because once again, I can't see it. >:(

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Fuck la. Like, there's no tickets for us tomorrow and no one told us about it? If Phebe didn't ask, we'd have stupidly gone to the Spore Indoor Stadium after school tomorrow. And now that I'm free to go for the FangDaTong campus concert, I don't have the bloody tickets. Like, why are things always so bloody screwed?! $#%^&*! Ugh.

And now that they have enough strength on Sat, don't really see the point of going. Afterall, don't really know what we're supposed to do since we didn't go for the dryrun and I don't really know the secthrees. Plus, it starts at 730am. This week has already been a killer with all the early mornings. Yepp, excuses. I know I know... Had some weird dream last night about HPT cheering and all. Do miss the times in HPT, miss all the cheerings, leading the classes, the camps... but then again, do feel so out of place sometimes. Kind of a lovehate relationship I guess. That's why I always want to go for the stuffs yet don't want to? I'm a very mixed up person, really. I've got a lovehate relationship with almost everything. Hurhur.

There's no class tomorrow, time to sleep my ass off! Feels like going for a poolside tan, but LowShimin says she's too tanned already ): Maybe I should like, really try going the white way instead since I don't seem to turn darker already. Oh by the way, I got 45.5/50 for Retail Accounting :D Even though the paper was kinda easy, especially since I've taken POA before, I'm very very happy with the marks. It's been decades, no, make that centuries, since I've got this kinda marks for any subject. Yea, what the fuck hahahaha.

I WANT TO WATCH WWL EPISODE 5 NOW NOW NOW! But I have to wait till it shows in Taiwan during the weekends, and then for someone to upload it next week ): I just have to make do with Nodame Cantabile for now though. Ain't too bad actually. Anyhow, playing Mario on Gab's Nintendo was super entertaining. Very exciting and super duper cute :D

If I'm rich, I'm gonna go get one for myself too. If I'm rich, I'm gonna get everything, including front row tickets for Show's concert in October straightaway, no hesitation! :D If if if if if if if if! Rwarrrrrrrahahaha. Madness :O)

You're Only Young Once
Cheers to the day I'm on my way
I'm living inside with the words you say
It's killing me
How you're always bringing me now
So put to rest this breath that I can't forget
These marks just left on the side of his neck
It's killing me now
You're always bringing me down

You never learn to expect the worst
It always takes just the slightest little turn
To open up your eyes
And though it seems like we're all you changed
You'll never learn cause you'll always be the same
Predictable inside

The way you are
It's not your fault you knew that
The way we were
So young and caught up in it
Too far to see how fakes can be
I thought I knew who you were

You never learn to expect the worst
[You're Only Young Once Lyrics on http://www.lyricsmania.com]
You're falling short of every line that you've rehearsed
It's opened up my eyes
And now you'll see that we've grown to change
A contradiction to the lives that we have made
Still I miss you deep inside

The way you are
It's not your fault you knew that
The way we were
So young and caught up in it
Too far to see how fakes can be
I thought I knew who you were

Just close your eyes and dream of how you want your life to be
A better way, don't run away from all that you can see
Just trust that yours is long

The way you are
It's not your fault you knew that
The way we were
So young and caught up in it
Too far to see how fakes can be
I thought I knew who you were

The way you are
It's not your fault you knew that
The way we were
We're just so caught up in it
Too far to see how fakes can be
I thought I knew who you were
I thought I knew who you were
I thought I knew who you were

Today's only Tuesday, but I've already got my energy sucked out. Don't know why. Thank goodness school ended wayyyyyy early today thanks to our Econs tutor! :D I was nodding off at CSA lecture and APEL class and it was crap. Wanted to go home and sleep after school actually, but I wanted to check out Pull and Bear's sales, so me and min went down to town by taking bus 23, then 65 :D Met Sihui and Sam at Wisma, had icecream crepes at Cineleisure, home.

Was supposed to meet Joshua, but I couldn't cos I couldn't take the train to DG and all (bus concession!). Shall meet him someday soon! And we'll be meeting up with Fatson soon too! [: Shopping makes me happy, but I'm really effing tired. Just finished watching my episode 4, can't wait for 5 :D Shall check out whatever homework there is, look fucking forward to school tomorrow and sleep my ass off. Hell, tomorrow's another long day ): 9am! They should just cancel all morning classes actually ): ):

By the way, Yuenchen and K were really sweet. They got me a whole block of Honeycomb chocolate :D Ohwells, even though the Nestle one tasted better, thanks for being so sweet! [:[: Made my day, totally. I think I've got really nice friends. Doesn't matter if I don't have like, a gigantic social circle or whatsoever, cos the love from the ones around me are enough :D At least, I know their 'love you!' ain't said to just anyone :D



Bestfriend:D and swollen, tired eyes):

To everything in life that has an end
I hope you've made the best of your time with
The ones who matter most, the ones who cared
You're in a world that's hard to just fit in
You're searching for your place amongst your friends
Though it seems that everyone will hide behind their skin
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I can't wait to watch Why Why Love episode 4. Somebody upload it fast please please! Luckily for me, the VCD's not out yet, otherwise I think I might just go ahead and buy it home, like what I did for Hana Kimi. Sucha waste of money :}

Rainie's the best :D Ou xiang ou xiang! Fwahah. Watched Spiderlilies on crunchyroll already anyway. Not really great, but still, she acted in it. Teehees. Now I sound like some sicko.

Anyway today was a long long day. Instead of 2pm, Yiyang texted me at 12am to inform me to reach at 8.30am instead to finish up the CSA project and hand it up >:( So now I'm lacking of sleep, and I still gotta finish up my Microeconomics newspaper article shitzx later. It's half done. I couldn't overcome the temptation of coming online to see if Episode 4 has been uploaded yet. Heh.

Ohhh, and that Fang Da Tong guy is coming to our school for a campus concert! Woohoo! Kinda want to go, but it's on Friday evening and we're supposed to meet the UVPHS people (I think only the grads or something?) at Singapore Indoor Stadium for some Spore Youth Festival thing? Actually I really dunno what is it that we are supposed to attend. It'd better be interesting. Heh.

Then there's the HPT key appointment holders for batch 2007 selection thing on Sat. Think the mom's wondering why I'm still going back for choir and for HPT stuffs when I've already graduated. Memories! Will continue making them I guess... [: And deadlines are nearing for projects. Kay, life's gonna be busy. Time flies too fast la.

Btw, Gabriel stalks my blog! He's always repeating stuffs I wrote on my blog. Feels so awkward whenever he mentions this or that la. Stalker! Fwahaha. I bet he stalks everybody's blogs :} :} Kay I'm kidding. Heh. It's 9 already. Amber Pacific's new album is good! Bye!

I've still got many photos dating wayyyyyy back which I want to upload, but not now, maybe next time. Anyway, fyi, we don't smoke. Just fooling around with jy's fags and trying to show that smoking makes one look retarded hahaha. No offence meant anyhow. I don't really mind people smoking personally, but I believe it burns one's brain out. Too many examples around fwahah. And doncha think we look so happy in the last picture? :D Well, even though the poopoohead was squeezing our heads together at the back.

So much memories... Sigh. Let's all go back to the past, shall we? :D Anyway, I'm hoping the parents will come back with a new oven :D :D School starts again tomorrow ): At least it starts at 2pm if I ain't wrong. Kay, I'm off to watch teeveeeeee. Eyecandies! :D Bye.

I look effing spastic in the picture. LowShimin laaaaa. Hah. I'm happy today. Even poopoohead could tell I'm rather high over MSN :D

I hate taking crowded buses. Ugh. Took 851 to Bugis with min. Bus ride was bloody 1 hour long, really uncomfortable and warm. Shopped, afterwhich we met up with Victor, took 851 down to YCK, decided that there were more food choices at Khatib, saw Yuenchen my love!, laopop whom I haven't seen for a bloody long time and I miss him much!, and Yiling [: All at the same place, but at a time difference of a few minutes. Heh. PHS people are still the best.

Took bus to Khatib, met up with ahmah at the basketball court, bought our dinner and all. Planned to eat at the Bottle Trees Park actually, but no outside food was allowed, so we went over to the reservoir. The place was flooding with insects and what-nots, damn scary I tell you. Saw Jocelyn, who surprisingly, recognised me. Trueblue hi/bye friends. Fwhah.

Sadly, Yuxuan and Anet didn't join us in the end, but it was still okay with just the five of us [:[: Chatted quite a bit, talked about all the shitzx that happened last time, until Victor pissed ahmah off. So in the end we left, Victor went home and we went to Mcdonald to continue our chat. Uhhuh. Like, today was really... eventful. Hahaha.

I want a YZR! He better appear in my life soon. Heh heh. Right, I'm really tired now. Being high burns quite a lot of energy. And I've got yet another broken nail! Rahs. Maybe I'll sleep earlier today, and eat more yoghurt from tomorrow onwards hahaha. I'm really lazy to upload pictures now. So like, bye :D

I swear today's the most draining day ever. I could have just sat down and cried my heart out. Things weren't that bad actually, it's just... I don't know. I'm quite overwhelmed by my emotions lately >:(

Had the CDS selection in the morning. It seemed like everyone was online waiting for 10am to arrive. I was like, one of them, duh. 10am came, tried to get into the subject selection logging in page, to no avail. Too many people, page was jammed. I only managed to finish my selection at around 11.20am. Damn frustrating I tell you.

Bathed, rushed, got out of the house, went to school, found Yiyang and Shaofeng, realised they did everything already without telling us, me and min got pissed. Me being the one with the nasty temper, refused to do anything, showed attitude, and in the end, we left when YY and SF went for their 'break'. Texted them, told them what we felt, SF replied quite a few msges at a go speaking up for themselves, I replied him a sms 10pages long, got even more pissed, called him up with min, cleared the air, the misunderstandings, apologies were made, all's fine again.

Miscommunications really kill. Being really angry feels really bad too, gave me a headache, and I felt like smashing things and crying. Yepp, I was that pissed off. Feels kinda embarrassed about my behavior now. Vulgarities were hurled, middle fingers pointed. Shall never do that again. Unruly, obscene behaviour ): Thankfully they ignored me.

Next time I get angry, I shall take in a deep breath, count to 10, clear the anger clouding my head, my senses, talk it out. We've all agreed on the last one. Talk everything out. One project's down much thanks to YY and SF, four more projects to go and they shall be done peacefully and harmoniously. May our clique still be a clique. Afterall, we've got SF the peacemaker. Hah.

Karma. Perhaps I complained too much yesterday that I didn't want to do project and that I didn't want today to come, that's why it turned out to be so horrible, but at least everything turned out okay in the end.

Speaking of yesterday, it was great, awesome, rad. Went to kBox at AMK with min, Yuxuan, Victor and ahmah. Had alfresco dinner after that. Kay it was just eating out in the open at S11. Haha. Bought bubbletea and the cheena woman was really nice. So nice that her smile actually made her glow :D The world should have more of nice people like her, then it'll be a better place.

Anyway, Yuxuan got us each a nice HelloKitty handphone accessory from Japan [: And ahmah was complaining to us that he got her a male HelloKitty instead of a female one. Hah. Will most prolly be meeting them again tomorrow [: Btw, I miss AnetChean! Cya soon alright, and I love your new haircut [:

A happy ending to an unhappy beginning. That's how all endings should be like, but I know that's not really possible la. *Shakes head* I wanna take nice photos! [:[:

My hair's black now, or rather, blackish red from some angle, blackish purple from another angle. And now that I finally dyed it, I'm glad I did. I must be the only one in this world who takes so long to just decide on whether to dye or not to dye my hair back to black. Heh.

So anyway, got to see some of the HPT people, got to talk quite a bit with Pinwen. Feels sad for him. Kinda. I think he's one of the very few guys in the world who's willing to give sooooo much in a r/s. Or maybe only I think so cos I'm a... as Phebe called it, RV. Doesn't sound too bad, but it's quite embarrassing actually :} Unrequited love, very very sad. But then again, that's life for you.

Anyhow, I really suck at comforting. Is there like, any course which I can attend to improve on it or something? I'd really like to be better at it. Hurhurhur. I suck at words, I suck at everything ): Rwars.

So anyway, there's like, the sec2 adventure camp, training camp and stuffs coming. I'm hoping that I'll be able to go, at least for parts of the camps, if there's school and all. Ahhh, shall see when the time arrives. It's really difficult to make time for everything, especially for disorganised people like me, but I'm trying my best, really am. For now, it's friends, family, and a lil of school works. Am trying not to neglect anything at all. Uhhuh.

Let's all be patient, cos you have to wait for good things to happen! But then again, we can't just sit and wait huh. Like, so contridicting actually. Fwahah. Gotta cut fat already! I wanna go shop shop shop [:

We didn't manage to complete our CSA project today. Made us so tired! Gonna finish up on Friday. And Friday's the CDS selection. Am gonna go with the flow, yo. Prolly choosing Psychology since min, Yiyang, Shaofeng and even Yuenchen's putting that. Most probably la. I'm quite interested in that anyway, I'm just worried that the stuffs we gotta study might kill, like how CSA and POM almost killed me.

Whatever it is, we ain't even sure if we can get the module we want. Shall see, shall see!

HPT meeting tomorrow evening at AMK. Been so long since I last attended one, so I'm going [: Some of the girls are going swimming in the morning at Yishun Safra, but I'm still thinking if I should go. Like, I don't really like swimming and Yishun Safra don't allow bikini which means I can't go to tan instead, unless I do it in my swimsuit which is like hahaha. Plus swimming's gonna fry my hair very much and I'm thinking of dyeing it tomorrow too.

Anyhow, I kind of can't wait for Thurday. kBox! Teeheehees. Heart the picture above by the way. I really admire those people who have like, a knack for drawing and stuffs. Talented people. Hmm so like, I'll end here. I'm off. Bye.

BIMBO
NOUN: pl. bim·bos
Slang; A woman regarded as vacuous or as having an exaggerated interest in her sexual appeal.

"you sounded like a bimbo. you're so bimbotic"

LOL.

I hate anons, I really do. But Anet's right. They make life so interesting, but then again, what's so interesting about flaming each other on a teeny weeny tagboard huh?! And do you really know me that well? What right have you got to label me? Why don't you just say who you are? Afraid of getting talked about huh? Or is it that you want to be talked about?

Puhlease (kay you're gonna say this word sounds bimbotic too), don't like, misuse the anonymity you're given on the Internet. And uh. I'm not really bothered by you, pathetic piece of crap. You're even less than a strand of my leg hair. Kay that's like, hahaha.

And nopes, as you can see, I'm not gonna stop sounding like a bimbo if you think of it that way. I don't see any wrong in writing this fucking way. And like, read the side column, LEAVE IF YOU DON"T LIKE WHAT YOU SEE.

Can't stand me uh, over-doing my trying-to-be-a-bimbo act? Scoot then. Get lost and don't waste the space on my tagboard. Stop being sucha nuisance.

I'm really really not looking forward to school reopening. Just 6 more days, dreadful. One week's gone, quite a lot of meeting up was done. This week's for project, homework, kBox, and hopefully more of suntanning and shopping. Nopes, I'm not afraid I'll get mutated now. Maybe in future :}

Speaking of projects reminded me - I haven't send my stuffs to Hakim. Like, I wonder how workaholics can even exist. I guess they really find the joy in their works. Which I don't. Very much. I mean, for most stuffs. Shall do it tomorrow or something.

I'm fine with ahmah again. Afterall, she's one of the good girlfriends, and yupp, treasure the friendship. True friends are so hard to come by. Four years(going to five) of good times and bad shouldn't be wasted, should be continued. Sounds really cliché, but whatever.

Went to J8 today with min and ahmah. Lunched at Cafe Cartel. Ate some salad shitzx which consist of 2/3 or even more of lettuce and 1/3 or even less of peach, apples, nuts and potatoes. Felt quite like a goat, but it's really healthy. Hurhur. Went to the library next, before shopping around. Haven't been there for sooo long. Took neoprints again! Sadly the really nice machine was down, like, #$&*()!

Ate a lot of chocolate today. Fat fat fat >:( Will be doing CSA project tomorrow, anger vented, shall not think about the should-go-suck-balls text already. I love my girlfriends :D Everyone has got their goods and their bads. Like, duh. [:

It feels like I haven't got much laughter and madness this year. Maybe I'll get back to how I was once things change for the better. I hope so cos I feel so grumpy and it's really bad. And I hope the change for the better will come soon.

Not that it ain't good now, it just isn't enough.

Happy Papa's Day! Think my dad's quite happy with the prezzies we got him - a pair of Muji bedroom slippers and a Nalgene bottle for drivers [:

Went to town with the sister, and then dinner at the Thai restaurant in ChongPang with the whole big family [: I like having so many cousins and all. It's good having a big family. Plus going out with the sister was good today. I get so impatient with her sometimes, and she, with me, but whatever, it's normal [:[:

Got a lil pissed off just now, like, I don't wanna be like, in charge, for the project stuffs. Planned to meet tomorrow to do CSA and Yiyang was telling me that JieSheng can't make it tomorrow cos he's like, celebrating some birthday, and I replied him saying retarded and asking if they still want it tomorrow. And Yiyang replied something about not everyone can fit into my available time sometimes and that made me kinda pissed. Like, hello. I didn't mean it that way at all. Like, what the fuck. I dunno, maybe he meant it some other way, but it feels kinda like, he's saying that I'm making everyone fit into MY time regardless of whether they can make it at all if you get what I mean, when I didn't really do anything at all. Like, fuck.

Kay I dunno why I'm pissed off about this but still, makes me feel like I'm the bad guy and it's like, #$%^&*()_! Not blaming Yiyang or whatsoever, but it really sucks if people think of you that way when you haven't done anything wrong. Just that I wasn't able to make it on last Friday cos of my grandma's death anni or something and that we had to postpone it to Monday and blah blah, ugh. Forget it. Maybe I'm just being fucked up, oversensitive or something. And maybe I shouldn't have said the word retarded. But like, everything's retarded to me what! It's just a... word to me. Like, retarded without the retarded meaning?

I feel sad now. Okay I don't know wassup with me. Hell, can I stop feeling so insecured, sensitive and all? Like, ugh x 10000000000000. And what, I gotta act like nothing's fucking wrong and it really sucks. I'm really thinking too much now huh. Oh man. As Aik said, emo emo. Hurhur. I shouldn't be so weak, shouldn't get affected so easily.

Kay on a brighter note, today's still quite great, minus that 'making everyone fit into my bloody time' incident which can go suck balls. I'm a happy girl, yay.

You Are An INFP

The Idealist You are creative with a great imagination, living in your own inner world. Open minded and accepting, you strive for harmony in your important relationships. It takes a long time for people to get to know you. You are hesitant to let people get close. But once you care for someone, you do everything you can to help them grow and develop. In love, you tend to have high (and often unrealistic) standards. You are very sensitive. You tend to have intense feelings. At work, you need to do something that expresses your personal values. You would make an excellent writer, psychologist, or artist. How you see yourself: Unselfish, empathetic, and spiritual When other people don't get you, they see you as: Unrealistic, naive, and weak

Quite true huh.

I WAS GONNA BLOG.
But Kailing just called and demanded me to go down my blk now cos she's like, downstairs with Winnie. So like, bye.

I've so rotted enough at home today. But a rest like this is good once in a while? Whatever.

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It was as if I went down for some camwhoring session, and Winnie was trying to kiss me. Like, I seem to be the raping target recently huh. Scary. Fwahah. Anyway, I haven't seen Winnie for like half a year already? Near that. Miss ya dude! See I'm so nice :D And uh, I needa apologise to Joshuaaaaa! ): I forgot his birthday (like, 10 days ago since it's 17June, 12.01 a.m. now) and I didn't wish him. I'm so sorry!

Uhm. LOL.
Like, help? LOL.