i think im gonna look for a new job while im still working at the present one, cos FUCK LA. the schedule's damn screwed. i just need to work the most 4 days a week, and the most 6 hours a day, except one full shift. so in total, the amount im gonna earn in dec is only gonna be fucking 300plus cos theres too many people to share the shifts with.

my sister offered me her shifts. shall see, cos i dont want to be too busy either. hah.

aint in a good mood. i guess, everything ends. talking to zgx doesnt make me any happier now. sheesh. yesterday night, i seriously felt like i should go knock my head into the walls. at least i didnt cry. hurh. fuckshit. theres this feeling that refuses to go away. pttf. im to stop moping around, cos im supposed to be happy. hello its the bloody holidays. happy holidays.

one thing to be glad about: im seeing the girls later on [:

here, photos as promised. blogger sucks, seriously, cos i took quite some time before i can upload the photos properly. pttf. i couldnt sleep last night and i read till 3. woke up feeling like shit. but still, its too late to regret. and lowshimin's right. at least... rahs. actually i think its partly due to pms that im feeling so emo. rwars. theres still work later. sadfbwfbui. i dont feel like going. ):

grad night was yesterday.

the rain just kept on coming in the afternoon, so i took a bus over to min's house. i straightened her hair, she straightened mine. but duhh. mine went back to its normal crazy messy pattern after a while. rahs. put on the makeup and ahmah phebe and anet came. helped them to put on makeup, and then we changed into our dresses. took taxi over. had to take 2 taxis cos the #$%^&(*)! uncle didnt want to take 5 people. stupid idiot.

the hall was beautiful [: and for once, i thought it wasnt that bad to have our prom in the school hall [: everyone looked, different. some looked really great, while some looked kinda weird. hahaha. but whatever. had fun even though it was kinda boring. well, our table even won the best dressed table :D yay table 12 rock the house man. hahahaha. the prom queen and king finalists were kinda, unexpected though. rofl. whatever. went home with laopop. sat at the station for a while till 12 before taking the train home. laopop's the best [:

work again today morning. had lunch with ahmah, and it was really %$*&!* infuriating. cos i decided to go for lunch even though gabrial was away and there wasnt many people to look after our counters except for fauzi and wendy. so when we got to kfc and had ordered our food, and i just had my first bite, the phone rang and it was fauzi telling me to go back cos there was some angmoh woman who had reserved something. and it was really really stupid cos before that, she had already came by once and it so happened that i was accompanying jason for a fag at the basement. so i effing ran back to give the thing to dear mrs bailey.

i briskwalked back to kfc and vivien called and i realised that she had just reached the counter and that she had brought stocks along with her, and that i was supposed to be there. i was going to run back in again when she told me she'll just leave the stocks with the cashiers. hahaha. so at least i could continue my lunch in peace. rofl. ohhh. so anyway, the topic we talked about today was on gay and ehem, gay sex. cos aaronoregon's gay and he's really effing open about it. i was rather mortified actually. and he was talking about gay sex cos gabriel kept on asking him about it, and he was so mean to oregon cos he kept holding things up and asking oregon, "you want me to stick this into your ass?"

ewwww.

apparently oregon has got gay porn in his phone too. double ewww. roflmao. ive got great colleagues and we've got healthy topics to talk about. how nice. hahaha. ah. and today, i just realised that gabriel's younger than me and it's so embarrasing cos im always soooo damn blurcock and he has to keep on helping me. rahhhs. i bet he must be laughing at me in his heart everyday at work. pttf.

kays so work ended at 4.30 today, and i went over to marina square to look for sihao and eugene ng. in the end we did nothing at all except to first, sit around at the foodcourt, and after that, stand around. then sihao called his parents to tell them about the job they found and blah and he became very unhappy cos i think his dad didnt want him to take up that job or something. so he didnt want to go home and in the end, me and eugene went home first, leaving a suicidal sihao by himself cos both us had to be home at 7. lols.

okays i dunno why, but this entry seems to be especially long for whatsoever reason. ohwells. im happy we're okay now, not that we werent okay before ): but i guess, everything's over. my fault. but at least we're still friends and talking like before. i was stupid to be so fickle and all ): but i guess its too late to regret, eh? ): ): ): pttf.

the photos cant be uploaded cos blogger sucks. shall do it later. but i dunno when. see my mood. rofl. goodbye for now.

im only down for work on three days this week! tomorrow, wednesday, and saturday. and for half days only too! rwars. so little working hours for me! how am i gonna earn money like this?! pttf. shall talk to vivien about it. i want more hours during december cos everyone will be working by then, and i wont have anyone to go out with me on my off-days.

eh LOWSHIMIN, can go watch movie already. or better yet, go sing k :D see, i shall look at the bright side of life. teehees.

it's grad night later on. and what the toot cos some motherfucker's gonna be there. rahhhhhs. whatever. theres gonna be hundreds of people there. obviously i'll be able to hide :D oh, and my cough's still here. ): ugh. haiyos whatever.

yay. going over to min's house later on :D photos will be uploaded most prolly tomorrow evening, cos im on the morning shift tomorrow. *&^#$%^!&!

true, true.

im back from the library. and i just remembered, my dad gave my bro some hundreds buck. or is it one? whatever the amount is, it's still sooooooo unfair. hey dad, i wish you can read this post. youre so biased and I WANT A NEW PHONE.

yay. im coughing and coughing and i really want red streaks in my hair soon. kays no link. im going bonky. i shall hurry up with jack's blogskin and play audition before my bro comes up from his basketball game and start bugging me for the comp.

rwars. so what if he's a guy and he's the youngest? pttf. im not jealous, cos i get more freedom than he does from the parents :D

im sucha selfish girl i know. the person down for work today realised that she cant finish revision for her exams tomorrow or something and asked if i could go down like, at 5 to take over her till the end, and i was like, nooooooooooooooooo. hello. she was out shopping yesterday can. and she herself told the boss she can work on sunday. today's my off day. im tired and im sick laaaaa. stupid throat. #^&*(!

but work was fun yesterday, even though rebecca and andy had to leave early cos theyve got stuffs on, and yijie and weiling only had their shifts till like 4 or 5. there were still people to entertain me :D ohhh and gabriel helped me alot again yesterday. seriously, i do wrong things all the time. im so not suited to work. rofl. that nameless travelpac guy kept on commenting whenever i sold something. he'll be like, oh you just earned 22cents when i sold something costing 22bucks. cos ive got like 1% commission and its really stupid.

and i realised, i get made fun of all the time. rwars.

okays. whatever. grad night's tomorrow. suddenly im not really looking forward to it. pttf. im going to the library later on with min. like, finally. ohhh, and i have to put in codes for jack's blogskin later on, play audition, watch teeveeeeeee and read my books :D yay how nice it is when you have your offday :D

i have to buy so many things when i get my pay, that i think i'll have to eliminate things from the list. im wondering if i should get permanent contact lenses, and do i really need a mp3. yeaa. i definately need the latter. hmmms. haiyos. shall see when i get my pay. ohhh and ive to go highlight my hair. lol.

kay whatever. till laterrrr.

basketball with the most most most favourite group of people of mine is like, the nicest nicest thing ever. just that there were fewer people than before today. but still, had fun [: i thought the rain was gonna ruin everything just now, but at last the sun came out [: i have to work again tomorrow! rahhhhs. but at least, pedicure manicure on sunday with the girls :D

cut my hair already, or rather, i just kinda trimmed it a bit here and there. so there aint much difference actually. but whatever. im afraid i cant grow out my layered hair already. cos everytime i vist the hairdresser, she'd tell me that my hair is too layered, but i'd still layer it somemore cos it's really hideous when it's kinda like, overgrown. okays whatever. i think this time round, she didnt spike it enough. pttf. shall borrow the scissors from cheyenne.

hmm. i think im so not prepared for gradnight cos i only bought a dress and a pair of earrings hahaha. but whatever. it's only like in the effing school hall. roflmao. school hall. well. i guess it's better than nothing [:

sheesh. sometimes i think im really $&!*(!)(*(^*!% 'owe beating'. kays thats the direct translation which i used on fauzi hahaha :/ i always told myself that i wont regret anything i do, hmm, unless it has got something to do with the way i studied or whatsoever la. but this time round, i guess i really regretted what i did ): im sorry i didnt know what the f i was thinking. hello. can i have a chance again?

ahhh. screw myself. maybe it's all for the better. rwars.

school's so much than work, seriously. and i miss the girls soooo much. i dont know why either. hahaha [: i guess you people really matter a lot to me [: ohwells.

so, first day of work was alright initially. ahmah and kh kept coming over :D xiuanpin and boulder came over too, followed by kelvin the poohead. and then kh came up again when i was measuring the thingy that vivian asked me to measure and he was like, i saw your friends... and i turned and saw phebe anet min they all and i was so happy :D hahaha.

made quite a lot of new friends on the first day, and rebecca was a great help cos i was so effing blur and i dunno most things and she helped me the most on the first day [: well, by the end of the day, i was whining to ahmah all the way home that i hated the job and that if i didnt have to return my debts, i would just quit the job and slack at home. rofl.

today was much better. i dunno why. maybe because i was more familiar with the people already, and gabriel, that guy tending to the counter beside mine was a greeeeeat help to me today. hahaha [: but i think he's really vain. cos he kept going over to the mirror beside my counter to look at his hair or something, whereas i dont even bother looking. LOL. okays whatever. chatted alot with fauzi and andy [: theyre like, damn funny people la. cos fauzi was asking me, what would i do if somebody punch me. then i replied, 'siam la, duh'. but i think i said it too fast and fauzi started calling me siamladuh before giving that maniac laughter whenever he sees me.

in all, today was great la. except for one si bei xia lan angmoh customer, whom i was just able to manage with the help of gabriel. rofl. yay. im off tomorrow :D it's haircutting time and im meeting the people to play basketball. yayyyyyyy [: i cant dye my hair cos im broke and mom doesnt want t give me money for it :/ but at least ive decided on the colour and once i have the money, im going to highlight my hair :D

anyway, i did what i can. maybe it's not the most, but it's already what i would not do normally. uhhhhhhhhh whatever ]: ohhkays. im off. buhhh byee [:

my phone went dead by itself in the middle of the night. so my alarm didnt ring and i only woke up at around 8.30 am when im supposed to be in school by 9. didnt really care though. just took my own sweet time as usual, and managed to reach school before 9.30. the rest werent even up in the hall. had the talk about the jc thingy and blahh. got our prelims result slips and testimonials. crapshit. waste of time.

i have really bad hair. cant wait to snip them off or something. ughhhh. and im gonna highlight em, i think. but mom keeps on saying its bad for the hair or something. rahs. dont really care. i just want to cut my hair. shall decide on whether to highlight or not when i finally can go cut the hair or something [:

min and phebe came over to my house after school [: too bad baby faith was throwing a tantrum after just waking up, and so they couldnt play with her. lololols. went town after that. went dg first, and then the this fashion there. phebe tried on a few dresses. went to fareast after that. been going there everyday for the past few days. lol. shop around and phebe tried on more dresses. hahaaa. went isetan after that, and finally down to taka for the interview.

well. my sister is a bloody bad direction-giver. cos there were like other 'big red plates' around too. like, how stupid. rofl. in the end, managed to find the department and then filled in the form and sorta had the interview and im to start work tomorrow. ohhhkays. now im really starting to think it's kinda too fast. but whatever.

bought drinks at cold storage after the interview and i screamed cos i almost bang into a, ehem, bangala. pttf. goodness knows why i screamed too. and goodness knows why min and phebe were like, laughing their ass off. crazy people. tsk tsk. HAH. went to the toyfair to find kh after that and we were like, playing with the toys. lololols. and the spongebob thing was so cute la. okays whatever. home after that. hah.

ohhkays. work tomorrow. kinda sian half. rahs. hmms. right. i think it's time for me to stop waiting for things to happen. but then again............. ughh. goodbyeeee.

Da Da Da Da
The smell of your skin lingers on me now
Your probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection baby
To be with myself and center, clarity Peace, Serenity

[CHORUS]
I hope you know,
I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But Ive got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry

The path that I'm walking I must go alone
I must take the baby steps until I'm full grown
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay

[CHORUS]
I hope you know,
I hope you know
That this has nothing to with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry

Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
Ill be your best friend and you'll be mine
Valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if u want to
Cause I want to hold yours too
We'll be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But its time for me to go home
Its getting late, dark outside I
need to be with myself and center,
clarity Peace, Serenity

[CHORUS]
I hope you know,
I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry

La Da Da Da Da Da

science paper was crap. for me, that is. rwars. well, at least exams are over. today's what we've been waiting for, for one whole year. isnt it? hahs. now it's time to start worrying about the results. pttf.

went marinasquare with the girls after that. shops werent opened yet, so we went to the foodcourt to eat. walked around and went over to suntec city. walked somemore. saw some effing lala person working there. and she was soooooo shy! aww. yucks. hahaaa. whatever. kays so anyway kailing bought her shades and ahmah bought her clutch and heels. and then cheyenne left for her dnt paper and we went back to marina square.

after that we headed down to fareast. bought pretty earrings :D min also managed to buy a clutch bag there. hmm. walked around somemore and went over to taka intending to look for ahmah. but couldnt find her. and so in the end we were so effing tired and everybody looked so shagged that the sight was rather hilarious la. rofl.

ohhhkays. so anyway im supposed to go down for the interview tomorrow and if everything's alright, think i'll be starting work damn fast, like, on wednesday. lol. and and, sentosa tomorrow morning. lols. so, yupps. everything's seem to be like, in a rush now. ohwells.

kays. shall be playing audition with min and poopoohead later on [: goodbye.

i didnt do any science at all today :/

got up really early today cos dad brought us to some place which i think's near cityhall for whatsoever reason and we ended up having some famous lor mee for breakfast before going to some random temples and then home. my dad didnt even get whatever he went there for cos it's sunday and the place's closed or something.

so. didnt met up with laopop cos i decided last night that i should stay at home and do my mcqs. so much for that. hurhhurh. oh, and my bill came. unsurprisingly, the number of smses i sent was 1011. i think my dad didnt notice it. the bill was over 50bucks, and it was actually supposed to be only around 20. pttf. well, at least the amount of incoming calls i get is steadily decreasing ): fuck. i think at this rate, we'll become strangers...

whatever. so anyways i might be able to get a job over at where my sister was and will be working at. i still have to go for the job interview and blah, but my sis says i'll get it most prolly cos she thinks her boss's looking for people who can work till february. and the job will be at takashimaya cos they dont have the pushcart at cityhall already. furthermore ive decided not to work fulltime anymore and this job isnt like, fixed. so, yea. hmm. hopefully i'll get the job [:

okays. tomorrow's the last paper and all. shall see what happens. hmm. i feel like going sentosa. reallllllly :D but then again, i think sentosa will be packed tomorrow. rwars. christmas's coming. cant wait [:

i think ive got my life back, finally, even though theres still one more paper on monday :D

was on the phone last night, 2 hours with ahmah and min, and another 2 hours including phebe :D we had like, so much things to talk about cos we hadnt really seen each other last week. rofl. and yeaaa, it was like, great. i love em sooo much [:

went bugis to shop just now. saw meiearn and her boyfriend again. hahaaaa. cos we saw her at fareast plaza yesterday too. hmm. ahmah bought her makeup from sasa, and we went to meet fishy. went down to fareast plaza after a while cos there wasnt much stuffs at bugis. the weather was bloody hot, so we took a taxi and we managed to get a mercedes taxi :D rofl. shoooop (: tried on some dresses and it was so bloody irritating cos i was wearing that annoying pair of sandals which was like effing difficult to take off. so, bought this black dress in the end :D min bought a white dress from Series which look uber good (:

went wisma next. we jaywalked and it was sooo scary cos there were so many cars coming. but polly neo ahmah the great insisted on crossing the road cos she didnt want to go up and down escalators. lololol. after that we went to heeren. ohhh. and the christmas decos are really beautiful [: ohwells. took the train home after that. met up with the family and had dinner.

yayyyyyy. so im done with shopping for a dress. now the most important thing is to get a job. yeaaaa. it seriously is the most important thing on my to-do list. rahs. everyone has got a job except for me ): i hafta pray hard that i can get a job, hopefully with the hushpuppies too, like the others [:

ohhhkays. do inform me if youve got some good job opportunities somewhere. teehees [: right. im done. goodbye (:

[edited]

You Don't Need a Man, but You Want One!

You like having a guy in your life, and overall, you prefer not to be single. You won't go out with a guy out of desperation.. you rather be alone. However, when you're single, you do tend to obsess a little over dating. Because no matter how good your single life is, it's better with a great guy around.

hahaha xD

hello im baaaaack [:

i was too busy mugging hard for fnn yesterday. rahs. but it ended up that the whole of section C, none of it was something i had studies. rahhhhs. so i had to rely on what i remembered from prelims. eggs, cereals and convenience food. i didnt know eggs could bring me touble one day. hah. but accounts was greeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeat :DDDDDDDD cos there were like, some questions taken out from the 5year series (: and and and, thanks alot to the losaaaaar for the answers :D

today was great. saw people whom i havent seen for a loooong time. we didnt have to sit for history paper, so me anet brenda and yuenchen went down to town. headed to fareast and brenda left after a while. the three of us then spent 20minutes looking for the bloody chicken rice stall. ohhkays. it was stupid. cos i was saying that there was this stupid frankenstein outside the shop and yuenchen thought it was those kinda poster type of frankenstein. well. end up that she know both the shop owners.

we had our lunch and we went shopping for anet's blazer. she bought a damn cute cap too. she look damn cool :D had to stop myself from buying a belt. hahaaaa. then me and yuenchen bought necklaces with damn cute skull pendants. did something we shouldnt =X heh. at least the shop didnt have videocams or something. lololol. and at least we managed to get through. eheh. after that we went down to takashimaya to look for the idiot. and he was like, telling us not to go di siao him. lol. okays he's one whom i havent seen for quite a long time [:

shuai ehs? HAH
after that we met jiayan [: like omg sooooooo long never see her. walked around, talked and blahhhh. after that anet had to leave, so we left and cos i could stay out later today, i accompanied jiayan home to put her laptop and then we taaaaaalk [: was sitting at the mrt station with her, and m walked past with her bf or something. and damn surprisingly she smiled at me. like, omg la. a year ago we were still lala-ing over some lala matters. what was really really surprising was that she smiled at me first. i didnt even see her initially. LOL. so it's kinda good. afterall, we've graduated and we dont exactly have anything against each other. directly, i mean. hmms.

i need a fucking haircut!!!! should be on going on tuesday. dammit cant wait. my hair looks like a bush when untied and i look like im balding when i tie it up. hahaaaa. im meeting laopop on sunday, and shopping with the girls tomorrow (: one last paper on monday and all will be over. ohhhh. and suddenly *poof*, there aint job vacancies left ): pttf. i hafta find a job, seriously. hahaaaa.

okays so now, im even more confused than before. but i guess, whatever will be, will be :/ ohhkays we'll see. okays. i have to think of some new blogskin for yuenchen. lolololols. kay buhhhhbye.

Sometimes I feel like I'm a bird with broken wings
At times I dread my now
and envy where I've been
But that's when quiet wisdom takes control
At
least I've got a story no one's told

[Chorus] I finally learned to say
Whatever will be will be I've learned to take
The good, the bad and
breathe
'Cause although we like To know what life's got planned
No one
knows if shooting stars will land

These days it feels naive to put your
faith in hope
To imitate a child, fall backwards on the snow
'Cause
that's when fears will usually lead you blind
But now I try to under-analyse

[Chorus] Is the rope I walk wearing thin?
Is the life I love caving
in?
Is the weight on your mind
A heavy black bird caged inside?

Say
Whatever will be will be
Take
The good, the bad
Just
breathe
'Cause although we like
To know what life's got planned
No
one knows if shooting stars will land

Whatever will be will be
I
learned to take
The good, the bad and breathe
'Cause although we like
To know what life's got planned
Thing like that are never in your hands
No one knows if shooting stars will land

for the first fucking time ever, i managed to balance a balance sheet all by myself. like, oh my gawd. it's seriously the first time ever, without help from anyone or anything. anything's referring to the answer sheet. duhh. SO. i think i'll pass :D YAYYAYYAY. that's a first too, to think that i'll pass accounts. well... UNLESS paper one's damn difficult :/

so obviously, the paper today was okay. it must be damn easy to the losaaar anet chean, cos seriously, even me the accounts noob think it's an easy paper. but to get a high grade's another story altogether for me. hahaaaaa. but im satisfied with a pass (: but obviously i'll be happier with a good grade :D

hmm. im starting to hate myself for my own ficklemindedness. pttf ): or perhaps it's not ficklemindedness. im just too scared or something. ugh scaredy cat. whatever. i have to start doing fnn already. or else i doubt i'll have time to finish memorising all the stuffs. BRAIN, PLS WORK WELL. [:

for now, a lil while of audition first (: haaaaah.

tomorrow's accounts paper. i dont even want to care. it's just that im prolly gonna flunk my science, so i have to try to do better in accounts. >:/ pttf. but i doubt i can do any better than just passing. i hate the theories.

oh. im also so afraid that i wont have time for fnn. i havent started on it yet! *screams* im counting on fnn laaaaaa. i mean, I HAVE TO. it's one of my better subjects. pttf. so hopefully my brain can cooperate with me tomorrow, the day after tomorrow, and the day after tomorrow's tomorrow.

okay whatever. im effing tired today, but im happy that i made the assest(HAHA) feel better. i understand, it's always good to have a friend around when youre down. so, yupps :D

let's just see what happen after all the papers. eve's a happy girl. nothing can bring her down la. well, except for exams, maybe. (x

i shall stop saying that i wont blog already cos seriously, its very seldom that i wont want to blog.

well, it ended up that no one could come for the group study, except for fish. so decided to join sihao. but in the end fish decided not to go and so i ended up going alone. so was going up to the library when i saw jinshi coming out and she asked if i had the school skirt or something. i was in my shorts and slippers, so obviously i didnt have. and she told me that i wasnt allowed to go into the library like that.

so yea. i called sihao and we ended up doing accounts in the canteen. like, thanks alot alot (: oh, and i saw joan and we chatted and we started talking about some, ehem, slutperson who wanted to order 200 chicken wings for 30 people. okay whatever. hahahaaaa.

we were in the canteen and the sec5s started coming down from their lessons and pinwen joined us. so me pinwen and martin were in the canteen doing accounts while sihao and that jianwei guy were doing history or something. so we were like, talking quite a lot and trying to get pinwen to understand. its alright actually, cos while trying to get pinwen to understand, i learnt quite a lot too. hahaa [: we left when the school was closing. will be going back again tomorrow to study with em. it's fun, actually [:

and, to that certain someone. i wonder why you were acting like the way you were acting just now. it felt soooo bad, and i dont know what to do. i dont want things to ever become like that ): and i really dont know why youre acting this way ): i just hope im thinking wayyy to much. and phebe, thanks for being there again, though not in person. hahaaaa. i just felt like texting someone. i was feeling kinda bad. kinda hurt, actually ): i dont even know why i was feeling like that. i dont know whats happening at all ):

ohhkays. im having quite a lot of people's help in getting jobs, and it's great. i need all the help i can get [: hmm. kays. i'll print the accounts paper now. then it's accounts time. ugh.

guess who. im no lesbo. hahaaaaa [:

i said im not gonna blog 'for the next few days'. but i still am. rofl. so, that picture. obviously its me and yuenchen. yuenchen calls that, bobo. and i wonder why her lips look so bloodless while mine look so red. HAHA. so anyway. i was caught in the effing rain even though i had an umbrella and i was walking in the shelter. like, what the hell can. the rain was fucking biiiig. but i guess it was worth it. cleared my doubts about doubtful debts. group studying at yishun bk tomorrow. yupp.

and, poopoohead just called and tell me they pushed the time of the fnn paper to 9am, and the poa paper 1 to 11.30am. wonders if it's true. he's such an ass that im afraid to trust him HAHA. okays so im off to play audition, and then it's accounts. damn cos i ended up watching the tv till 1.30am yesterday night. theres been some good movies recently. castaway was on yesterday, and the way home's damn nice too. touchiiiiiing [: so yupp.

seriously. i wont be blogging anymore... swear. till maybe after the fnn paper. hafta control :D hahaaa. i sweared. lol.

/EDITED at 2234;;
omfg hahaha. kelvin tan the poopoohead was speaking the truth. our papers will be delayed cos apparently, George Bush is coming to Singapore. HAHAHA. sounds like a joke, doesnt it? lol. ahmao also didnt believe it at first when i called her and told her about it too. lololol. like, uber hilarious. okays. whatever. audition's over. accounts now. gah.

okays im sorry. quick blog before i goes off to school. petcheong's not coming down, so i decided to go over laterr :D rofl.

so, it's set. im going thailand on 22nd dec night and will only be back on the night of 25th, which means that i'll fucking hell not be in spore on xmas eve and will only be back on xmas night. okays. its not a big deal... but it is to me laaaaa ): esfgblwbaibi!#$%^&*!. rawrrrrs. so much for wanting to join in the countdown at town this year. RAHS. seriously. i dont feel like going at all. this bloody trip's gonna ruin the xmas plans and stuffs. i dont like holidays with the family. friends are much better companions. pttf. but on a brighter note, ive never been to thailand before... but actually i wld rather go taipei again.. LOL. hmm. and perhaps i can get to shooop [: well, provided that my parents give me an allowance there, but which prolly will be very little if there is. sheesh. what a wetblanket. argh.

whatever. i'll just pray hard that i can get a job before that. and and, i can always go to town to look at the lights with the girls anytime. i dont have to do that on xmas eve. yeaaa. i can always do that >:/ pttf. okays. one great thing is, LOWSHIMIN (: i think i'll be allowed to stay over at your hse after grad night. i mean, if theres a sleepover la :D yayyayyay. ask pollyneo and phebeeeeeeee :D cant wait for grad night, uh, or rather, night after grad dinner ends. hahahaaa. cos i think even if theres no sleepover, we'll be having fun somewhere w the 2904girls prolly :D

... okay fine. now back to the exams. nuff of daydreaming about postexams stuffs. hurh hurh.

omfg been playing audition! waste of time. but the new mode's damn fun.

okays. i have to go off and do accounts now. shant be blogging for the next few days, i think. heh heh. oh anyway. the 2904people!, do tell me whether you all prefer the chalet to be on a weekend or what kays. think it's gonna be held in jan if theres one. so, yupps (:

haaaas. been slacking alot alot yesterday and today. did nothing at all. met anet and ahmao at j8 mos burger. so yea. talked instead of doing account. so after that ahmao went off. walked around j8 with anet. i want w850i :D hahaaa. whatever. then home. gonna do accounts later on. so, yea. still deciding whether to go to school to join em for the accounts q&a thingy. shall see. goodbye all (:

watch!

AINT FAITH CUTE?! haha. and so, another week has passed. well, almost. AND IM BLOODY HELL LEFT WITH FOUR FUCKING PAPERS NIA :D yayyyyyyyyyyyyy.

im so happy im finally able to come online. this week has been fucking boring with all that studying. but at least it wasnt a loooooooooooong drag. so besides the daily papers and all, we had lowshimin's birthday celebration yesterday. wanted to give her a surprise. but audrey ruined it. AHS. hahaaaa. but nevermind. lol. and the papers, 'nuff said. i aint very confident. there goes my leisure and resort management course )))))): but im still praying for a miracle. yeaa. been praying alot these days. haaaahs. >:(

well. at least, i think at last i can say i tried my best. cos i think i really did. so, yea. but i'll be damn bloody fucking disappointed in myself if my grades turn out to be really bad. there's still accounts and fnn. oh, and im very thankful for all the encouragements via smses that i got. especially phebe, anet, sihao, and surprisingly the beansprout. hahaaa. well the idiot aint included this time round. but i dont really care actually :D but he still owes me the fondue and thats that. i must get that treat. roflmao (x

okays. so there. im off till the next time already [:

okays. quick update while im waiting for the compo format thingy to print. math paper 1 was surprisingly alright. i wouldnt dare say easy cos i suck at math, but yea. it's okay. im only afraid my marks would get dragged down by paper 2. social studies was kinda alright too. but i think my chem's dead. yea. its damn easy i know. but still ): ugh. im seriously hoping i'll get As for humanes and english. but the probability is like, zero? oh. whatever. im getting so demoralised, partly due to chemistry. rawrs.

so okays. i need all the luck i can get. and duhh. im trying my very very best to try my best la [: hmms. everything's going wrong. rahs. okays till the next time.

RAHS.

): im at home all alone with social studies and cup noodles for dinner while everyone in the family's out attending some lim association thingy where a grand dinner's provided. ughh.

well/ i started getting kinda freaked out last night. texted anet and felt sooo much better :D seriously, im freaking myself out. didnt know i'd get so stress out because of o'level. i was almost like, hyperventilating already. i went to bed at 2.30, still couldnt sleep, texted anet, got out of bed at 3 and did math till 4. and i woke up at fricking 10.30am.

im having a bloody cold now, and i ate lots and lots of chocolates to keep myself awake. well, it works for me. and im so sure im gonna have some kinda internal bleeding cos im so heaty, im gonna have internal explosion. haha okays not funny. have to get back to social studies and my cupnoodle in a while ):

what a fucking drag. tomorrow's here soon. i wonder what am i gonna do if i cant get to sleep tonight. and im so afraid. like, really really scared. things arent alright now ):
pttf. shall see when's the next time i can come online. rwars.

06Nov
math paper 1
social studies

07Nov
science chemistry

08Nov
english
science physics

09Nov
geography

10Nov
math paper 2

15Nov
poa paper 2

17Nov
fnn
poa paper 1

20Nov
science paper 1

Nightmare over.

i miss everyone/

yesterday night was damn bad. couldnt sleep at all, and till 5++ in the morning, i was still semiawake. i think it was until after anet replied at 5+++ when i finally really slept. it was damn bad cos i woke up at 9+ ): been doing ss for the whole damn day. it feels like nothing went into my brain cos im really tired. rahs.

i doubt i'll be blogging for the next few days. im still so not prepared. after next week, the worst will more or less be over. so yea, till then i guess. im sure it'll pass fast. right now im heaving an effing headache, and the cramps are coming. pttf. just when i wanted to be really really hardworking, for once.

ugh. i feel like crying.

:D random photos from the past, esp the picture taken at the court. <3!

couldnt sleep again yesterday night. my gawd. two days more and exams will start. on a brighter note, it's 16 more days to the end of all that shit, not counting today and the actual day :D

was uber tired today. went cafe for group study again. both me and min were so effing tired. lol. didnt feel like doing much. the feeling sucks, to know that ive still got so much things i havent done yet, for ss ): ughhh. im like, starting to feel the pressure. rahs. i seriously wouldnt want to get what i got for prelims. i might as well go and die. sheesh.

twinaiiaii and the faggot kelvin joined us. havent been seeing the rest of the girls for kinda long already. hey i miss the losaaar (:

so anyway. will be stucked at home tomorrow and sunday. needa chiong ss. and my physics still aint done yet. im still thinking if i should just give up accounts. but ive paid for the paper already :/ rahs whatever.

life's a fucking drag now. i want christmas soon! :D the o's better be over quick.

Invisible - Ashlee Simpson
Like a grain on the beach
Like a star in the sky
Far too many to count with the naked eye
They won't see you

Go ahead
Walk on by
You don't know
I'm alive
Maybe one day you'll find
You should open your eyes
You don't know me

[Chorus]
You're the one who looked right through me
Now you're saying that you knew me
When I was invisible
And you're the one who walked right through me
Now you're saying that you knew me
When I was invisible

Little things adding up
Try so hard not to rush
Giving in, letting go of the world we know
They won't see you

Force it down
Lose the taste
They all think it's a waste
We don't need to believe every word they say, no
They don't know me

[Chorus]
You're the one who looked right through me
Now you're saying that you knew me
When I was invisible
And you're the one who walked right through me
Now you're saying that you knew me
When I was invisible

It's so easy to be lost
But maybe you're not lost at all

Do you recognize me?
Do you know who I am?
Do you see me now?
Do you see me now?

[Chorus]
You're the one who looked right through me
Now you're saying that you knew me
When I was invisible
And you're the one who walked right through me
Now you're saying that you knew me
When I was invisible
I'm invisible
I'm invisible

i miss you. i miss you not. pttf. ):

well today was not good. i meant, didnt do much. actually, i havent exactly been doing much since like, last week? sighs. its aint easy to go on studying and studying everyday. it's sickening. so anyway poohead joined us today again and twinaiiaii's coming down too tomorrow :D yay. did more chatting than work just now, i think. pttf. but we did try some freaking math problems. lols.

so. I NEED A FRICKING HAIRCUT. it's so overgrown, it's seriously a second version of paul twohill's hair. OH i mean the HAIR and i mean THE FRONT only. like, eww. immediate haircut after exams, i think :D

hmm. besides apples, i think i need more sleep ): it's getting from bad to worse, this insomnia. and i dont even talk on the phone anymore now! so can i have my sleep back? like, whatever. im like, ranting to nobody in particular. ugh. whatever.

goodbye and may i have a good sleep tonight. :D

buddy hoagies again today :D seriously, i think theres some funky thing in my brain today. like, i banged my head on the table cos i was like, laughing too hard at something? yea. i forgot what. so anyway, kelvin suddenly appeared just now with his friends. poohead. he's one bloody faggot. but he's quite entertaining after all. rofl.

okays. funky.

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hey
sweetmisery;; an apple a day [: says:
hello
sweetmisery;; an apple a day [: says:
uh who ae you?
sweetmisery;; an apple a day [: says:
*are
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a;ex from sajc rem haha
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alex
sweetmisery;; an apple a day [: says:
ohhhh
sweetmisery;; an apple a day [: says:
you changed your nick
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hahaaa
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haha no i got a new email addy haha
sweetmisery;; an apple a day [: says:
oh
sweetmisery;; an apple a day [: says:
yah
sweetmisery;; an apple a day [: says:
sorry stm
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haha
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haha no lah
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i didnt tell u
sweetmisery;; an apple a day [: says:
oh. yah
sweetmisery;; an apple a day [: says:
heh

like, wth. so embarrasing. hahaa. i didnt even know what i was talking about. and why did i even say ive got stm when he told me that it's his new email, and that it's not that he changed his msn nick. oh, and qiaolin texted me in the morning, and i was like, asking her how she got my number and then she was like, saying i gave it to her myself. sheesh. im like, so dumb cos i dont even remember giving her the number. OHKAYS nevermind. i seriously have something ijdiewaeiur in my brain.

wahliaos. some retard wants my photo. how funny la. rofl. and only faggots play dota! [: pttf. yadayayada wadadadadada. ohkways. donchwannabrogalweaady. gwooodbwye. [: