HELLO ITS NEW YEAR EVE and this is my post no.1000 hahaha [:

well, tomorrow's gonna be the first day of 2007, and the end of 2006. it has been a great year, eventful. hah. we've graduated, finally, but hopefully, 2904 will still remain in contact, even if we might have drift apart and all. i miss going to j8 or causeway point for lunch in big groups ): new year resolution! stop procrastinating, manage time well, work hard and get good results in school. hahahaa [:

ohwells. my dad bought my bro his psp yesterday night. rwarrrrs. so i demanded him to get me my phone asap too hahaha. if he keeps his words, i'll have a new phone next sunday. teeheeeeees [: ive decided to get w850i cos i think n73 doesnt have a good battary life, even though the music edition one looks sooo much nicer than any other phone.

will be out tonight with the people [: sometimes, it feels as if nothing much has changed when in fact, so many things happened. but at least, we still have get togethers and all [: yayness. friends are still the best [: hahs. have been going down to Robinsons 3 days in a row including today =/ cos i cant leave the house too late! so i'll have to find some place to go. rwars. goodbyee, and happy new year, all [:

hello, this is post #999 [: teehees. theres most probably gonna be a stay-over at lowshimin's house tomorrow :D

met up with her and lowjiayan today. ljy was laaaaaate by half an hour. i say, min always have to wait for me, and i always have to wait for ljy. hahaa. coincidentally, we met victor aaron and yuxuan at BugisStreet, and me and min became yuxuan's image consultant. actually, i felt more like a nanny than an image consultant, cos i had to help him bargain for the price of his bag, and also had to help him check whether the zips are faulty or not. lololol.

after that us girls went over to centrepoint to look for anetcheaaaaan the losaaaaar and accompany her for her break again :D phebe and sherjie came and find us from their class outing at Sentosa, too, but they had to leave after anet finished eating. lololol. jiayan too, had to go to work. me and min then went over to FOC. bought a pair of Adidas trainers in a shop on the way there. cheap stuffs over at FOC. tried on jeans and all [: both of us bought a pair each. teehees [:

okays. i think tmr night's gonna be fun [: goodbyee.

...it's saddening ): oh, the computer is lagging like shit. ughh.

so anyways, hightea with the boss plus vivian plus rose plus all the promoters including my sister, marlin, and her sister. okays it wasnt that bad. we ate at the Lounge Cafe of the good-dunno-what-shit hotel, sorry i forgot the name. teehees. it's beside FarEast and it's 5-stars. teeheeeeeee [:

the high tea was buffet styled. the chocolate cakes were super good. 2 different types. i ate 3 and 1 durian cake. super good, i tell you. too bad i wasnt too hungry. hahaha. but its effing expensive. if i aint wrong, it's 28+++ per adult, so actually, we should have made the most outta it since for once, the ngiao-ji boss was treating, and so they say. lol.

after that i walked all the way to CentrePoint to look for anetchean. omgggg. i missed everyone sooooo much. guanghe the bian tai silver river was there. and when i saw him, i realised how much i missed everyone and how much i missed school ): bought Merci chocolates for everyone [:

actually i dunno why i showed so much dislike for _. it doesnt feel good to dislike, and it feels so uncomfortable. especially when he was a good friend once. things wont ever be the same again, but i guess, here's when i should stop hating. forgive and forget, and hate is too strong a word for me to use, as ive always said. im only 16! what do i know about hating, eh? hah. he didnt know, didnt understand. he's a guy afterall. and i do miss all the times in school ): alot alot. guy friends should always remain friends. otherwise, when things go wrong, its almost impossible to be back to how it was. i should have known. afterall, it wasnt the first time this kinda thing happened to me, or to people arnd me. i guess he dislike me too. i mean, after all that happened :/ and *'s right. there are some things _ will take a long time to understand, or even maybe not at all in the end. he's a guy, he's got a big ego like any other guy, he believes in whatever he thinks is right, he believes his own side of story, he'll never understand the way i thought and all. i was damn curious to know what he told sihao about the whole thing, but it happened, it ended, there aint any use probing anymore. now im beginning to think i was right to tell sihao i dont care already, even if things aint really the way i thought it was. ive got my share of blame to take for whatever happened. i probed too much, and i think the way it is now is bad enough for all of us. we lost a friend in each other.

so thats it. im neutral. he can loathe me or what, but thats what i should know will happen. it will be worse if both parties are hating. i wont do all that ranting like what i did to anetchean just now, about the chocolates, already haha. i was being really childish xP heh. okays i feel better now [:

i saw willy just now at Takashimaya and he's so cute. haha [: too bad he only started working there on the last day i was working, so i only got to talk to him for a day. at least he still remembers me, haha! (x its gonna be a new year soon, and i bought my 2007 organiser already, and im gonna say again, i shant procrastinate anymore, and i shall learn how to organise my time properly. even if i aint gonna do it, i'll continue making that resolution again and again, cos i'll learn in time to come. slowly does it! haha.

this has somewhat been an emo post, haha. but well, life's made more interesting this way, isnt it? hahaa. the sun has been out, finally :D day out tomrrow with lowshimin and dunno who else. goodbye [:

it has been raining like fuck. im cold, and ive been hibernating at home for the past two days. BLOGGER IS REALLY IRRITATING cos i cant upload pictures from the Bangkok trip. rwars.

i miss the sun, and i miss going out without having to bring the stupid umbrella and to not worry about clothes getting wet and all. i wonder when this stupid weather is gonna take a turn for the better.

boss, or maybe i should say, ex-boss, is treating us to high tea at some hotel near fareast tomorrow, just the 4 of us promoters and vivian, minus my sister. have i ever said i like none of them? well, except for vivian and andrea. i dont even feel like going, but they'll be giving out our paycheck, so there aint any choice. hah.

ohwells, rain rain go away. with the damp weather and the boredom, im rotting. at least i'll be out tomorrow. but im still bored bored bored bored bored bored bored. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

LOSHIMIN you better be able to stop working by sat. let's go and watch Curse of the Golden Flower with lowjiayan :D hahaha. and theres still Death Note: The Last Name, Night at the Museum, and i think Confession of Pain looks rather nice. i also needa shop for new trainers, and i want to get a new bag to prepare for school too, but that can wait.

ANET CHEAN YOU LOSAAAAAR IMY2 :D see you tomorrow even if its only gonna be a while. teehees [: i think im gonna play Audition. havent been playing for decades, but im too bored already. goodbyee.

teehees [: back from our xmas dinner. it was good. anywhere's good with them [:

there's this very very weird girl who added me on msn. she claimed she got my address from msn directory, and she's 23, jap chinese, and was from RJC. whoaa. yea. but shes weird. i said i had to go, and she said i was leaving her alone =/ well, and it was the first time i talked to her. major weirdo. she said theres only me on her contact list. even more weird. i asked her to add some other people, and she said i was chasing her off =/ =/ then she said she dont anyhow trust people online, and when i asked why she added me then, she said she wanted to make friends with me O.O and now she say she will be waiting for me, cos i told her i'll be online maybe tomorrow night.

oh my. like, freaking scary. somehow, ive got the image of a female ghost sitting behind a computer. HAH. i think i watch too much horror already. sheesh.

HELLO IM BACK. HAPPY BOXING DAY! Bangkok's the best place of all :D

yea. great shopping, great eyecandies. like seriously. cheap stuffs, and theyve got damn hot guys around. omggg. but some of them are kinda scary. like, you wouldnt believe it. we were walking outside Siam Paragon when these bunch of guys ran past us, and i was still looking at their bare feets dumbly, thinking if they were playing a game or what.

after they ran past, some police ran past and my sister was there omg-ing cos apparently, one guy had a knife in his hand and he just ran past my sister with the knife just a few mm away from her. hah. we walked a few somemore, and there were these few policemen with slippers in their hands. lol.

well, other than that shocking incident, the trip was really good. dad bought me a pair of Rock&Republic jeans with skulls at the back pocket :DDD even though, well, its rather expensive compared to all the other stuffs we bought in Bangkok. teehees. bought my longsleeve top too and a few teeshirts and all. only regret was not getting a jacket. rwars. ohh, and dad treated all of us to 90minutes of Thail massage too. fucking pain during some parts, i tell you, but otherwise, it was damn shiok to have someone helping you to massage. teehees [:

everyone expected the weather in Bangkok to be hot, so everyone, except me, didnt bring a jacket. and HAHA them cos it turned out to be damn cold, in the morning till like, 1 or 2 pm. so, i didnt have to freeze or what (x anyways, going with the family is SO NOT GOOD, cos there's the father and there's the brother who hates shopping, and that made shopping sooo uncomfortable for us also. so so so, lowshimin, nextime we should go Bangkok instead of Taipei together. it's sooo much better. hahaaa [:

we got to take their sky train, subway, taxi, boat, experience their stupid traffic jams and all. except for a few of their scary people, and their king's posters everywhere, Bangkok's the best shopping and eating place. yepp. theyve got great pig trotter rice, great fried rice everywhere, great sharksfin, great everything la [: i wouldnt mind going back there again, and again, and again [:

ohh. the Chatuchak Weekend Market was the best shopping place. too bad we didnt get to finish shopping there cos of the father and the brother, due to the fucking big crowd there. rwars. it's like, Bugis Street, except that it's so damn much bigger, and the stuffs are so damn much cheaper, plus all that bargaining, shiok. must go there again. hah [:

SO. meeting min phebe and ahmah later on for our xmas gift exchange :D
right. goodbye [:[:

end of hpt training camp 'o4[:

HI[:

i decided to hide that gay long post abt the fucktard thing, since i guess, everything's over. im just so upset that some idiot didnt call or what. doubt he even know im leaving today. ohhh forget it. actually it doesnt matter anymore. i saw it coming. i can live with it. ive still got so many other people wishing me bon voyage. teehees [: they make up for the absence of his wishing or whatever shit la. heh.

9 hours later i'll be on the flight to Bangkok. stupid ulcers, theyre making me so uncomfortable. rwarrrs. okay. pray for my safety, and do miss me. teehees (x retail therepy :D i'll need to get sooo many things. i'll be back on xmas night. and and and, theres soooo many movies to watch when i get back. hah.

okays. goodbye [:

new template [:

im really really happy cos yay! everything's cleared up [:

went town with yuenchen just now. library [: after that we went to centrepoint to look for anet. yuenchen called up _ and talked to her. there was some misunderstanding cos the fucktard somehow made the facts all distorted. something like that. all's well already. im glad, _'s glad, yuenchen's glad. teehees. at least _ understood, i think [: and about that fucktard... why still bother about some mofo when we girls cleared the misunderstanding up among ourselves already? so, yupp.

so okays. the end of all the shit. im going off tomorrow! ohwells, have to go and pack soon. goodbye.
[:

Things you did in the past threedays.
1. Sleepover: nope
2. taken a picture: yes [:
3. got highlights: nawww.
4. watched movies: nahhh.
5. had sex: noooo.
6. bought sneakers: i need!
7. taped something: nope

Six People you can tell pretty muchanything to.
1. lowshimin
2. phebelim
3. anetchean
4. limyuenchen
5. my diary[:
6. meeeee. teehees.

Three, Favorite colors.
1. HOTPINK
2. black
3. green orange white. heh.

BELIEFS
1. Sex before marriage?: half half (x
2. Gay Marriage: yeaa. why not.
3. Lowering the drinking age?: YES.
4. Abortion: no fricking way.
5. Recycling?: hahahaa.

SO FAR THIS YEAR
Gotten shitty grades: never never. get what i mean. lol
Fallen out of love: nope
Done something you swore never to do: hmm doubt so.
Laughed until you cried: YEA [:
Went behind your parents back: hmm. kinda?
Lost a friend: SAD TO SAY, YES.
Kept your new years resolution: hahaaa. in the very end, i did [:
Forgot your new years resolution: uhh. yea. i only remembered i said to stop procrastinating. rofl.
Met someone who changed your life: nope.
Changed your outlook on life: nope.
Gotten close to someone: think so.
Given up something important to you: kinda.
Found out who your true friends were: hahaa, it has always been them [:

my favorite picture :D
yea. they can sing well [:


last day of work. got to know a new guy, willy. he's nice. well, wont be seeing em anymore already. i'll miss vanessa and the rest of the people :[ rwars.

goodnight.

hello [:

yesterday was great, even though it was raining like some fuckshit. met lowshimin. was late again. eheh. after that went down to taka to ___ but * wasnt there ): rofl. so we went over to heeren. went to Chicago Steakhouse for lunch :D walked around Cineleisure, and then went over to Heeren.

bought a hotpink Ripcurl wallet [: wanted to buy running shoes too, so we went to Adidas and Nike. rwarrrs. didnt know what to get. also, didnt see one which i really really like. lol. went back to taka again and confirmed * wasnt there. rofl. so too bad, we left.

took the train to marina bay. met up with yuxuan ahmah xiuanpin kelvin victor. went over to the steamboat place. cold like shit cos it was still raining. for the first time, we had steamboat and we didnt sweat. lol. phebe came after work to join us [: sang the birthday song and all, went over to the arcade to play a round of Daytona. waited for the bloody bus which took super long. xiuanpin and phebe left, cos of prior engagement and work the next day for each person respectively.

so the rest of us decided to go over to Cineleisure before deciding what to do. it was still raining then ): went up and decided to go kBox [:[: had fun there. left at around 2am. we could have stayed longer. rwars. there were many people waiting for taxis outside cineleisure, cos they didnt have umbrella. but me and kelvin walked out and got a taxi the moment we reached the traffic light. somemore we got a Mercedes taxi la. hahaha :D reached home at around 3am. if only we could stay out longer la. the next time we shall sing to the dawn. rofl [:

okays. im going to work later on. last day! feeling kinda sad now. lol. ironic. so i'll post the pictures up when im back [:

hello! its raining cats and dogs now. hopefully it wont tomorrow.

so, yea. some RETARD went to prank me. texted me and said he was the eyecandy. shant mention his name here already. i meant the eyecandy's name. obviously the retard is yuenchen's retard. and about the embarrassing thing. long story. sooo embarrassing (x i knew there was something wrong, and true enough. luckily i didnt fall for it (x almost, though. hah. horr, kenneth? sheesh. lololol.

so anyway, morning was spent swatting flies. rwars. chatted with christy and andy. last second day! will miss the people. sighs. afternoon break with christy. chatted with oregon, eyecandy. weird names, i know. hahaha. vivien came, kept me busy. kokheng called after getting results to say Harvest's very pretty :/ eyecandy left. ohhhhh and i saw daryl! gawd. he seems even taller than before, and eugene GOH claimed that it was because i shrinked :/ nonsense! hahaha. busy busy. dinner break alone ): 3 sushi, greentea, and 4 kitkat bars :D

yuenchen and kenneth came suddenly. gave me a surprise :D and yuenchen told me about the bloody MOFO that makes me think he's even more of a bloody mofo. thanks for standing up for me, even if you shldnt have said that i ___ >:( that was baaad. lol. well, i was afraid it will be like that. i thought abt it. told myself to have faith. and in the end, IT TURNED OUT LIKE SHIT, similarly. well, im not sad. cos at least i didnt ___ and ive got friends like yuenchen and anet chean hahahaa. and ive got the eyecandy! though i doubt i'll be seeing the candy already. but nevermind. spore's a small red dot and he's only a bus away. hahaha :D

omfg. if he knows he's the eyecandy, i'll be so OMG shitty embarrassed. what happened yesterday night and today morning was embarrassing enough. rofl. so im saying, for the sake of blockheads and all, im just kidding about the eyecandy stuff. lololol. i mean, just joking around :/

kay whatever. tomorrow's the day! yay [: the Big Money-Spending Day plus the PooPooHead Birthday Steamboat Day. heart starting to ache for the money im gonna spend tomorrow ): HAHA. goodbye [:

as expected, i couldnt get my phone today ):

yesterday night i killed a bloody effing stupid cockroach which i suspect was the one which crawled all over me, with my bro :DDD like, great. cos everytime theres an insect of any sort, it was my sister and my brother who makes a big hoolabaloo trying to kill it while i hid in one of the rooms. but yesterday my sister didnt get home until 3am, so me and bro were left to fend for ourselves. hahaha, and we mangaged to kill it :D

breakfast in the morning with the family. after that, we went over to granddad's house. my sister then took over the wheels and drove us to my uncle's house in sembawang. it was like, scary cos its the first time she's actually driving on the main road after she has got her license (x but we managed to reach safely. teehees.

it's little jovan's birthday party :D havent seen him for a long time already, as with all of my other cousins :/ and well, he's all grown up. hahaha. and seriously, he looks like a much cuter version of my fucktard brother. roflmao.

had to leave after a while cos i had to go to work ): rwars. was damn effing busy in the afternoon. had to have my break alone ): like shit la. when i went back, it was back to swatting flies ): or actually, popping the bubbles on the bubble wrap with oregon. finger exercise! (x anyway, i had to serve a si bei guai lan customer today. while i was trying to be polite on the outside, i was hurling all the vulgarities at him in my mind. mofo la, him and his wife. gah.

full shift tomorrow! LIKE SHIT LA. but nevermind, cos im off on tuesday, afternoon shift on wednesday, then im like, off permanently already HAHAHA :D i quit! lololol. unless they really need me desperately or something, which i dont think so. eheh. im kinda sad though. the people i got to know these past few weeks will only become memories already. sighs. i'll miss them, i think [:[:

okays. i think i'll only get my new phone earliest Dec 31. rwarrrrrs. right, till the next time, which is i-dont-know-when. byeee.

im back from work!

teehees (x so, break with vanessa and jason. vanessa made jason hold her hellokitty bottle. hahaha. halfway through, i was called up again cos of some customer. rwars. after that they went for a fag at b3. oh, and vanessa got so worried cos her bf was stalking her, but actually i thought he was just being rather sweet. lol. she leads an unhealthy life, i bet. cos she's the same age as me, and she smoked like, 3 sticks within half an hour :/

kays today's damn busy >:( too busy already, in fact. all the customers came to the counter together at the same time, otherwise, there doesnt seem to be anyone in sight. so i was either chatting away with andy, jason or vanessa or busy trying to get what all the different customers want at the same time. sheesh. ohhh and i kept on doing stupid things infront of jason. like, what the hell. apparently, i turn red when im embarrased or when im laughing hard. do i really? rofl.

im so not looking forward to work tomorrow cos its sunday! and vanessa's off tomorrow, and jason's not gonna work at Taka already. today's his last day. so tomorrow's gonna be oh, so boring la ): rwarrrs. moreever, ive to settle some angmoh buying lamp thingy and its like shit cos he didnt reply my sms on whether he can come down on monday instead of tomorrow. damn la whatever. talking about this make my head spins.

hmm okay. may tomorrow be a good day after all. sigh. two more days to tuesday :D

conference with the girls last night [:
i wanna go shoppinggggggg!
i aint gonna care about the depleting amount of money in the bank already.
hahahaaa.
tuesday! three days away [:
work later on.
may the eyecandy be there! :D
im high today [:
mood's improving.
biiiiiiig difference from the last few weeks [:
goodbyeee.

hello im just back from work and im a happy girl [:

so i went to work, and was kept busy by Vivien for an hour or so. and she told me about shopping in Bangkok and all [: and Jason was there :D he's just gonna work at tivoli until this weekend, and he's officially going over to the other company, and he's posted to tangs ): no one to talk to anymore.

got to know Vanessa, and she's actually quite nice despite that kinda im-an-ah-lian-so-stay-away those kinda LJB. rofl. ohhhh. and thanks to oregon and my clorets, i lalala (edited). ahahah. anyway yuenchen was effing shocked when i told her about some bloody mofo and __. =/ so, imagine what i felt yesterday night.

had my break with angelyn and kailing :D jap food again. waste of money and all the fat! but whatever. today's the day i should let myself enjoy more. and well, im happier [: it's just that I CANT CHANGE MY BLOODY PHONE THIS SUNDAY ALREADY COS my uncle's having a bloody buffet. lol. and i havent seen my cousins for quite some time already. hah. well nevermind. im not that desperate to change my phone, YET.

okays im off to bath. and im hoping that (edited)___________. hahaha (x
goodbye.

sorry. my page's back. was screwedup yesterday. head hurts chest hurts room spinning. wonder what's up with the big reaction. i felt stupid. well, i was stupid. 'nuff said. thanks anet, losaaar always. love you.

i cant wait for the 19th. hell, phebe and lowshimin. miss them both sooo much. i needa talk. feels like banging my head on the wall. stupid fool. me.

thats really the end of it. im over it. im just still so pissed off with myself cos i was so stupid. hah.

anyways, one thing good that came out of this. i was sooo pissed with myself and so screwed and whatever yesterday that i was pissed off with every single thing and i started screaming at my dad about getting a new phone cos my phone is screwed. so yay. i might be able to get my new phone like finally this sunday. im wondering. n73 or w850i, or k800i. and actually, i still prefer n70 to n73.

so, yea. whatever. cant wait for the 19th. cant wait for the xmas dinner with the three favorite girls [: cant wait for bangkok trip. cant wait to get away. life's a drag now.

bye.

screw the weather. we got to sentosa, tanned for only a while and it started raining. rahhhs. so it was like, a wasted trip ): ): after that brenda and her elvis with the hot trunks left while me yuenchen and kenneth went for lunch at harbourfront mall. had beef noodles and i was soooo touched cos yuenchen helped me to order one without beansprouts cos she knew i hated them, and i didnt even tell her to :D kenneth left after that and we went to town.

shopped for her black top and pants for work at fareast plaza and went to takashimaya to look for kailing. after that the three of us went to paragon, and then to wisma. home after that. there's work tomorrow ): ): i dont have anymore off days till the 19th, unless my sister doesnt need me to take over her shift on the 16th.

pttf. december holidays just flew past like that. and well, what i got to know today made me feel even worse. im supposed to have been over it, but somehow, i still feel like... i should be doing something ): im still unhappy and i wonder when will i be back to normal again. right now, im so abnormal and i dont like it.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh smile be happy yay wttoot. bye.

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hello. im bored ): and im happy okays. chocolates made me happy. i think im getting fat with all the sweet treats ive been eating. ohhh. i ate my favorite tiramisu and run&raisin icecream just now (: wonders why was i so emo just now.

im fine already. well, i shall try looking forward to work tomorrow. till the next time.
actually i feel like crap. i wonder why im still putting myself through all these shit. mofo. im stopping it.

i had lowshimin, ahmah, kailing and jack to accompany me for break yesterday :D anyways, break's cut to half an hour already due to bad sales. rahs.

was off today, so went to school to help petcheong paint her homeroom, together with cheyenne, yuenchen, her boyfriend kenneth, hengyong, liying, and yiyuan who was like, waaaay late. and when cheyenne saw me, she flew over and hugged me and our heads were like knocking. hahaah :D and both of us miss schooooooool. rwars.

hmm so anyway, the wall was supposed to be of different colours, so i took the limegreen one :D went for lunch behind the school. petcheong's treat :D she bought more brushes and rollers and we went back. helped to pain the door black :DD damn cool la. i also helped to repaint the wall red :D im good at that. hahaha. so we were like saying, we will develop muscles tomorrow cos we had to use a lot of strength in pushing the brush for painting red, otherwise the tones will be all uneven and fugly.

had alot, alot of fun. its good to be busy (: me and cheyenne both shares the same sentiments that kenneth has that gerald feel. hahahaaa. and omg la, his jokes are so effing lame you feel like shoving the brushes in his face whenever he cracks a joke. rofl. so anyway, the classroom's beautiful :D like, duhhh. hahaha. oh by the way, I MISS SCHOOL!! ):










so anyway, sentosa tomorrow [: im keeping my fingers cross, still. lol. and im like, going with two pairs of couples ): yea everyone has a boyfriend except me. hahaha. but im still alive without one. lol. guys are whatever! fine, im beginning to sound stupid.

goodbye.

Irreplaceable - Beyonce
To the left To the left
To the left To the left
Mmmm to the left

Everything you own in the box to the left
In the closet, thats my stuff
Yes, if I bought it, then please don't touch [don't touch]

And keep talking that mess, thats fine
Could you walk and talk, at the same time?
And its my name thats on that jag
So go move your bags, let me call you a cab

Standing in the front yard, telling me
How I'm such a fool, talking 'bout
How I'll never ever find a man like you
You got me twisted

You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I could have another you in a minute
Matter fact, he'll be here in a minute [baby]

You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I can have another you by tomorrow
So don't you ever for a second get to thinkin'
You're irreplaceable

So go ahead and get grown
Call up that chick, and see if shes home
Oops I bet you thought, that I didn't know
What did you think I was putting you out for?
Because you was untrue
Rolling her around in the car that I bought you
Baby, drop them keys
Hurry up, before your taxi leaves

Standing in the front yard, telling me
How I'm such a fool, talking 'bout
How I'll never ever find a man like you
You got me twisted

You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I could have another you in a minute
Matter fact, he'll be here in a minute [baby]

You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I'll have another you by tomorrow
So don't you ever for a second get to thinkin'
You're irreplaceable

So since I'm not your everything
How about I'll be nothing?
nothing at all to you [nothing, nothing]
Baby i won't shed a tear for you [I won't shed a tear for you]
I won't lose a wink of sleep [a wink of sleep]
Cause the truth of the matter is [truth is]
Replacing you is so easy

To the left to the left
To the left to the left
Mmmmm
To the left to the left
Everything you own in the box to left
To the left to the left
Don't you ever for a second get to thinking
You're irreplaceable

You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I could have another you in a minute
Matter fact, he'll be here in a minute [baby]

You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I can have another you by tomorrow
So don't you ever for a second get to thinkin'
[baby! hey yea]
You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I could have another you in a minute
Matter fact, he'll be here in a minute [baby]

You can pack all your bags we're finished
Cause you made your bed now lay in it
I could have another you by tomorrow
Don't you ever for a second get to thinkin'
You're irreplaceable

reuploaded that redandblack skin on sweetmisery, cos the previous one was on blogger archive mode. wanted to make new skins but i dont have the time now. im off to work in an hour or so ): so, tomorrow, perhaps.

i had a good sleep yesterday cos i was damn tired from the previous totally sleepless night. but i didnt like waking up. today's gonna be a drag. rwars. i feel so empty ):

sheesh buhbye.

omfg i hate cockroaches and im scared of them like shit too ):

there was this bloody cockroach crawling on my legs when i was in bed yesterday night. ewwwww, i know ): i didnt even know it was a cockroach. i dismissed the cause of the tickling on my legs as some unknown object, and went down the bed to continue reading my book cos i couldnt sleep. and when i decided to go back to sleep, i saw the brown yucky thing right there and i realised that it was the thing that was running around on my legs.

so i woke my sister up and she moved to my bro's room. too bad we only had one extra mattress. so i offered to sleep on the sofa. i decided to go to the kitchen to see if theres still any insectpoison left and when i bent, i saw another fucking brown roach. ugh. so in the end, i didnt dare to sleep in the living room in case the stupid thing flew out of the kitchen. i had to lay the sleeping bag in my bro's room, but was unable to sleep at all because, well, i was too afraid that another cockroach would pop out. ): ugh.

seriously. this neighbourhood is infested with cockroaches, thanks to the shops downstairs ):

so im like, bloody hell tired now. sentosa trip was canceled. went down to join the guys for a lil while of basketball, and it soon started raining. was drenched. went to mcdonalds, ate, and decided to go over to yck grassroot for bowling. but the bloody place was closed, so we spent our time there wasting money on the arcade games. haha.

yay yay, shopping trip and steamboat gathering for poopoohead's birthday's all on the 19th. cant wait la :D okays im back to downloading brushes and fonts cos ive got nothing better to do. pray hard for me, that the roaches wont come to me tonight ):): afternoon shift tomorrow! ): pttf. sa sad! cos jason jumped to boynq already and he's working in Tangs instead of Taka. sighs. now theres no one to talk to me already ): and speaking of that, xiuanpin didnt get the job cos his hair's too golden. hahaha. alright. im off!

and all the words you once said, those that keeps running around in my head, im giving them back to you.
[:

[edit 2240]
actually, i still feel like crap.
smile, evelim, smile!!! roflmao.

new template. temporary. or maybe not. lazyyyy [:

so, work sucked today. no customers even though its sunday, and those whom i usually talked to werent there. lucky its aint full day. went up to find kailing. i dont like her colleague, and i'd like to dig her bloody eyes out. okay thats gross, but, still. you should have seen her face when she turned away after asking me to get out of the storeroom uh effing politely. and yay cos apparently, shes on very good terms with that teethlikeshit's friend and i dont like her. okay non of my business. but i seriously would like to dig her eyes out. mumietooterfemalepuppy.

so, maybe no sentosa tomorrow. like, wth laaaaa >:( why is everyone busy???????????!!!! pttf. alright. going for a movie with zhenting sometime or another. whatever. sian half now. rwars.

ohhkays. im over and done with it. and yes. its all for the better. everyone's right. he's a sore loser. the end. smile, and the world smiles with you. everyone's commenting on it. haha. very right [:[:

CLICK

" Is it that you are working - or even playing - too hard? Because it would seem that you are experiencing a great deal of pent-up emotion at this time which could possibly take effect and lead to irrational behaviour.

You are a fighter and always on the defensive. You always need to be sure that your
position is safe and established. When you finally make a decision you will pursue it to the bitter end in spite of all opposition.

Being a very proud individual, you tend to hold yourself aloof pretending that you are stoical - indifferent to pain and pleasure. This is not so, for in truth you are an extremely emotional individual, one that may make a hasty decision and perhaps regret it at leisure. It is time now to break the bond of detachment and be the 'you' that you would like to be - give vent to your emotions and enjoy yourself.

Your stress and anxiety are a result of an emotional disappointment. It could well be that the emotional relationship is no longer running smoothly and you have come to the end of your tether. On the one hand you would like to free yourself from this relationship altogether, yet on the other hand, you don't want to lose anything nor risk the uncertainty of throwing away something - something that's precious, something that could be the 'Real Thing'. Perhaps for the first time in your life you really don't know which way to go and it is these contradictory emotions that are causing you the untold stress. You are pretending to the world that you don't care but even this air of pretence is causing you much heartache.

At this time you don't particularly like yourself. Everything that you have tried to do seems to have gone wrong. This makes you feel that there is no point in trying to start again. Apart from being stressed and tense, you are angry with yourself and have unadmitted self-contempt. Your refusal to admit that you and you alone is the
basic cause of your problems leads to you adopting a headstrong and defiant attitude. If you take stock of yourself, smile a little and let go, everything will turn out OK. Have you not heard of the cliche 'smile and the world smiles with you - cry and you cry alone!'? "

true.

i decided not to go out today. cant believe it. i spent a lil over a hundred bucks in like, 3 days? hah. ): so i shall just stay at home and just see what dvds are there in the cupboard. just watched mr and mrs smith. i didnt even know i had that at home :/ hah.

yay. 19th's out with lowshimin! finally finally (:
and yayyyyyy. monday's out to sentosa, most prolly.
cant wait [:

rwar. morning shift tomorrow. its gonna be over soon.

my friendster's screwed. cant upload photos. it's as if everything's going wrong for me ):
rwars ): ):

to ju-on now.

HELLO IM PISSED OFF.

seriously, im fricking unhappy, doing this job. my sister loves making a mountain out of a molehill. and her friend too. im just bloody hell unhappy with the meagre pay and the stupid schedule. stop making a mountain out of a molehill, you freaks. i dont mind getting scolded if i really did something wrong, like yesterday, when i didnt do the bubble wrapping for the ahmoh's stuffs. hey, im new. i didnt know. and now im scolded cos i was complaining to andrea that we get less pay than my sister. like, what the fuck.

i dont see what the hell's wrong with that. im quitting, right after this month. i still have only like, 12 days of work to go. might be even lesser. but still, it seems like a fucking long time. now im happy abt that darn schedule. dammit. im seriously pissed. and more ever, im off today and i still have to hear about what i did wrong and all. fuck. im just a bloody promoter, and i stand there, promote, get my pay and thats what im supposed to do. im ONLY paid to do that.

fuckers. im new. i get lesser pay. expect fucking lesser things from me.

im sorry. its difficult to abstain from vulgarities when you feel that pissed off ): and its really bad, cos i dont have anyone to hear me ramble on about it. i miss phebe and shimin ):):

went out with jiayan today. caught the movie Deja Vu. aint bad. we bought 12bucks worth of Famous Amos cookies. talk about a waste of money. rofl. wanted to find kailing, but she was out on break with jack. saw angelyn. then jiayan had to leave for work. didnt want to go home, but had to, cos there wasnt anyone else i could go and find ):

ohhh. and i helped xiuanpin to get a job. he's gonna replace jason, cos jason's moving on to another company with higher pay. he says if theres vacancy, he'll try get me over too [: and he's lending me some idol drama serials. think his aunt has got loads of them [: im just gonna read my book later on. theres a horror movie on at 2330 also. i'll just go freak myself a little, and perhaps my mood will improve. yiyong's wrong. life doesnt rock at all ):

okay random. this guy viewed my friendster profile, and he's really freaky cos he's got holes all over his face, and he looks really smallsized. doesnt suit all the piercings and tatoos at all. and theres a picture of his bottom lip being pierced, and blood running down his chin. eww. kay whatever.

may my life gets better. goodbye.

i realise i love raw salad with lots and lots of thousandislanddressing, plus a bit of lemon. cant get enough of em. yums. okays that was random :D

multi-tasking right now. im eating chocolates, reading, and obviously blogging, all at once. chocolates. yums. food is good... umm. i dont know where that come from. whatever. im like, blogging crap for whatsoever reason.

i think gabriel and that ahbeng guy aint working there anymore ): there wasnt even any goodbye. like, so sad. hmm fine not really, but still. ohwells, the passerbys in my life. perhaps i'll see them again one day [:

i saw phyllis quek during work just now. she was wearing this huge shades which covered up like, threequarter of her face. she was just right infront of me, looking at this and that with a LJB. lmao. she's tall and she looked really... malnutrition. well, kinda.

had jap food for lunch with jason. yay i love jap food. oh and we were talking about crazy schoolmates. accompanied him for a cig at b3 after that. the other guy came down too. stupid. he offered me a fag. said was harmless. i declined. they were talking about girls and boobs. what the toot.

sister was late for her shift. rwars. to my sister, me being her sister means she can take advantage of me. idiot. fauzi and j commented that i look like the older one instead :D i told my sister already. she shld do something about it. tsk tsk. kidding! love us for the way we are [:[:

kailing fish gerald and jack were waiting for me at the counter, while ahmah xiuanpin and victor were at kfc. joined them instead of kailing and company. went to library at orchard :D sorry im noob, first time there. love it. rows and rows and rows of shelves of books :D fish joined us.

went to lucky plaza arcade. almost got lost. theyve got really scary staircases :/ tried to catch the round pooh bear. soooooooo cute la. like, imagine a circular shape pooh soft toy. victor contributed $1, ahmah contributed $1, changed $2 coins with xiuanpin, and in all, blew $6 away. to no avail ): sad. the pooh's really cute la. but too bad. stupid machine.

went over to cineleisure arcade. nothing much. sat and crap with the stupid cockroach. went home first. saw eugene and jiahui. called em smiled at em but kinda like, didnt get any response. i hate that. feels so weird. like im smiling at a wall or something ): ): rushed home.

i dont know why i used so many paragraphs today. but somehow it looks better. hahaha. but whatever. im getting over it. i wanna get out tomorrow, for a movie or something. i spent like, a hundred bucks in two days. and i'll tell you 3/4 of it goes to The Sister Fund. rwars. im a nice sister, aint i? hahaha.

goodbye ):

sometimes, its aint good to have good dreams.
cos when you do, you'll wake up feeling even more empty than before.
and thats really bad.
):

rwars.

[edited 2018]

back. didnt shop for long cos the sister came back only at 3 from trip to the bank with mom. rahs. but nevermind. got a white with a bit of gold design clutch bag and hotpink nail polish :D and i bought my sister black pumps for work. @#$%^&*! oh nevermind. i think i spent quite a bit of her money already anyway (x

i think im gonna have sore eye soon. ugh. tomorrow's morning shift ): have to wake up earlier. rahs.

im online while waiting for my hair to dry, so that i can go and sleep. and speaking of that always remind me of yanjie and the haha hairdryer running joke he made the other time. (i did blog it down. go find it in the 10 August, 2006 archive if you want. lol) hahaaa. oh wells. time flies really fast, cos that was like, 4 months, and that means almost half a year, ago.

so, my mood's improving :D yayness. work was good. everyone i know was here [: wongkailing came. cherylnn came past. had dinner with jason, kh, yinkiat and another i-dont-know-who guy. once again, i had to run back up to my counter halfway through dinner to attend to a customer. rwars. ohhhhh. and like, omf super embarrasing. i laughed with food in my mouth and hahaha. what usually happen, happened. not once, but twice. and i after that i just kept on laughing nonstop cos jason's reaction was funny xD lucky by then only jason was there cos the rest had to leave already, and he seemed rather amused. hahaha.

okays then supper with ahmah, anet and ahmah's supposedly-crazy friend, yvonne. so ive decided i should fast cos yea. im gonna get damn fat with mcdonald everyday. no, i had kfc today. lol. whatever. so yes. i'll start fasting, for lunch maybe. lol.

oh anyways, andy's counter has got new stuffs and theres this readlly cute thing which i want!!!!! :D i'll buy if i earn a thousand per month. rofl. it has this round magnetic base, and little metal pieces in the shapes of animals for you to place on the round thing and you can stack the metal pieces on top of each other and theyre really cute. andy let me play with the sample. it costs $64.90 in taka, but i'll be able to get a 30-40% discount if andy help me get from his boss. but still, i shant buy cos its a waste of money. but its really cute. especially the one with cows and bears ):


ohwells. im off tomorrow uh, today :D shopping with the sister, and maybe to the library too. teehees(: okays bitching with the idiot now, for a while. and then im off to sleep. its stupid, how fast my mood swings from low to high :/ ohwells. goodbye [:

faith's a copycat, and yes. i just woke up (x
i was acting like a total weirdo just now. dont even know what hit me. sheesh.

all i can seem to do is grumble about this and that and blahhh, when i was with anet. i think thats because i havent been seeing her for quite some time already and it's a habit to grumble to her everytime i see her (x hey shes the only one who can bear with it laaa, i guess. hahaha.

anyway. oregon wants to marry fauzi and he's gonna support him and buy him houses, countryclub membership and cars and fauzi wont have to work anymore. hahaha. ohhh and oregon wants to take a diploma in the subject, sex. i think he really believed fauzi, and the existance of the sex diploma. those two cracked me up, seriously. but oregon's wayyyy weird. he giggles to himself in a corner, because he thought of some indecent stuffs. and he goes all smiley when you mention the word 'sex' to him. kuku in the brain.

when i was about to leave with fishy just now, mrs tan as in yes the phs principal with her daughter came to my counter to look at the wineholders. hahaaa. so talked to her a bit and then left to look for anet. after that waited for ahmah at the station and took the train home.

afternoon shift tomorrow again. rahhhs. i should have texted either ahmah or kh just now. i didnt know why i didnt in the end, even i wanted to at first. i ended up having dinner alone at mcdonald. so sad la ): hahaha. if i did text her/him, i'd have had dinner with them and yinkiat. actually i dont really mind having dinner alone. aint a very big deal. lol. but it gets really boring, especially since i didnt have a book with me today. rwars.

okays i feel so unhappy and i dont really know why. im kuku in the brain. i dont even feel like joking around and all my replies are short cos i dont feel like talking at all and blahhhhhh. ): imma gonna get to the library when im free. immerse myself in a good book and cry my heart out if its really touching. okays. thats very bad. eve doesnt cry when reading anything. the closest was that mingfo ho book three years ago, and it was only a teeny weeny bit of tears welling up.

oh man. now i dont know what im talking about. its 12.29am. perhaps im too tired already. pttf. okays. some idiot's calling :D take my mind off things a bit for a while. goodbyeee.

[edited 12.40am]
eeyer. its truly a while. guys and their games. rahs. well at least i dont have to be alone for dinner tomorrow [: and i think i'll get my fondue treat soon. lololol. ohhh and ive got anet to go home with me tomorrow, and jason's working full tomorrow too. i'll have people to talk to [: okays. tmr's gonna be not so lonely. just what i need, all my anti-depressant [:

i couldnt sleep again last night.
i dont feel like going to work later on.
i want a change of job.

i'll go for another round of job-hunting as soon as i come back from thailand[:

i doubt steamboat gathering on wed's gonna happen ):
perhaps i'll get people to go sentosa with me instead [:
sighs. life sucks now.

somehow, i still continue to believe in you.
somehow, im still hoping.
but yet, i know nothing's gonna change already.
pttf.

i'll get over it soon enough.

havent been uploading skins onto sweetmisery. im lazyyyyy. but i guess, being emo gives me inspiration for skins. not that theyre really proper inspirations anyway. rofl. thats for jack and the brain, respectively [: actually, i stole the codes from others cos im effing lazy hahaha. i think imma change my skin soon too. sighs ):