flashbacks ;sweetmisery

Sunday, July 31, 2005

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new template uploaded (: its kinda depressing.
but noone can expect anything cheery
from a supposedly-depressed-charbor.
ahahs. im okae larhs. actually (:
IM JUST BORED :/ cant go out today.
sighs. and my frigging sista's still nagging.
and my bro's still being dumb.
i wanna get back to school.
but i absolutely hate studying. ERPS.
life's a bore right now. and im screwed :/
comment on my blog. thankew.

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7/31/2005 05:42:00 PM

Saturday, July 30, 2005

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umms.
second blogging today la.
new layout will be up tomorrow.
sighs, its depressing. and plain as usual.
not much of a diff larhs.
blame it on the stupid photoshop cd tt didnt work :/
i hate the way my brother is pushing the blames to me.
that sucks can ):
he can sucks so much sometimes.
erps. now my sista's e one kbing.
fuck. im off.

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7/30/2005 10:36:00 PM

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kinda a boring day today. umms. woke up and found two strangers at hme :l my mum's gonna take care of their baby. ohwell. i walked out without my specs and i squinted at em and addressed the two blur shadows uncle aunty. i got no reply but who cares larhs. i cant see anything. ahahs. met min at khatib mrt station. ling couldnt come out then cos it was raining heavily. i was late :l we went to sembawang library and we went through the whole shelf for the photoshop cds. borrowed three. fraud. i cant get em to work. sighs. pity. ling finally came, and we went down to macs for lunch. after that ling left for her organ class and we went to j8. saw those sua gu people la. so sua gu. -roll eyes- and those angmohs... -shake head- i cant stand em la. took neos with min, and we waited for ling at the kfc. she came after her organ class. took somemore neos. and i was so broke, i made em both broke :/
ahh. i so feel like changing my blogskin :D i'll try. im so sick of those sweet stuffs. SIGHS. whats my problem la. im bored too. rahrahs ): thinking of doing chem ltr on. erps. i dunch feel like it. sighs. whatever.

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7/30/2005 07:34:00 PM

Friday, July 29, 2005

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today was okay, i guess. witnessed a public caning in the morning after reading period, and i betcha it hurts. that guy was shivering :l can see lurhs, since we were like, right beside larhs. umms. pe was fun :D didnt play with 3H today cos they had to run their 2.4. so ramesh splited us girls up into two grps to play netball. its fun singing like craps and playing netball at the same time (: slacked arnd during that 3periods of english and the way mrs soh said the three fellas hanging outside our class were disgusting was hilarious can (: she can be so nice larhs. ahahs. assembly was kinda a bore. had choir after school. it was so not fun kaes, cos i was tired like hell. and i tnk im being ridiculed by some puahbeh kias now because of aiiaii. so paiiseh can. haiis. but its still thanks to him la, that i can somehow make myself let go now. then he was like, singing alex du's jia gei wo after choir and it almost made me cry can ): but naw way am i gonna cry for the jerk la. its just a silly crush lurhs. so not worth (: even if i cry, it MUST be due to overactive hormones and not because of the jerk horrs. LOL. anyway i lurfe my aiiaii larhs, thanks for being there yiyuan :D and yah larhs. twinaiiaii phebe also larhs (: and min and ling and everyone else. xiexiexiexie. ai si ni men le (:
ahh. am i so looking forward to a trip to the library. keep me preoccupied, girls :D imma hoping to get to the beach, but i guess its impossible cos exams are coming and i wanna get that bikini before going, but im so broke can :/ nvm. i shall try once again to concentrate on my studies. i HAD been so distracted previously. i want better results. for the sake of going hongkong next yr, and TWOGRACE CHALET (((: ahahs. yes. i shall try larhs (:
lurfe's wierd. theres owaes this case about you liking a guy and him not liking you back, with another guy liking you and you not liking that guy back. pathetic :l

7/29/2005 08:09:00 PM

Thursday, July 28, 2005

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fine. i know im blogging more than once every day.
but who cares larhs. im bored.
i just read the msg sarah sent me.
she sent it to make me cheer up.
im very touched larhs (:
not only touched by sarah, all the twograce de osho :D
thanks for being there.
thanks for all those advices (:
i wonder what im to do if im all alone.
sighs. i'll try my best to get back to that siao char bor larhs.
ahahs :D sorry for all my fucks in the previous entry.
sorry bian tai de for scolding you fuck. didnt mean it.
apologies (:

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7/28/2005 08:52:00 PM

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i think i failed my PAC test. well. i did tried my fucking best but nth goes fucking right for me. life aint exactly great right now with that bloody fucking jerk confusing me. or mayb im just thinking fucking too much. but i cant help it la. i'll try not to give a damn about it anymore. theres like, loads test coming up and it sure feels as if ive learnt absolutely nth at all. this sucks can. MY LIFE IS PATHETIC RIGHT NOW. fuck. mayb i can just go prancing arnd and laughing like nth's happening, but my life is like, in a total mess right now, and i guess doing crazy dumb things can improve my mood :l erps. whatever. went causeway pnt after school today. it seemed like a long time since the bunch of us twograceo4 girls last did that. i missed the ol times. SIGHS. fuck. im tired. mentally. physically. just fuck off. i tnk im breaking down soon ))):

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7/28/2005 07:32:00 PM

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

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good charlotte -predictable
"Something isn't right
I can feel it again feel it again
This isn't the first time
That you left me waiting
Sad excuses and false hopes high
I saw this coming still I don't know why
I let you in
I knew it all along
You're so predictable
I knew something would go wrong (something's always wrong)
So you don't have to call
Or say anything at all
You're so predictable (so predictable)
So take your empty words your broken promises
And all the time you stole cause I am done with this "
exact description :(

7/27/2005 09:55:00 PM

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had kinda a fucking un-nice day today. erps. spend the whole 2 chinese period sleeping. lao soon today very nice, never wake us up. eugene ng was the one who kept taking the stoopid paper and tickling my ear, and datou kept using the pen to tap my head. so UNGENTLEMAN, waking some girl up frm her sleep. LOL. anw, i got 43/100 for that stoopid chinese test. kaos. if lao soon never see the handbook under my table and took it away, i might have gotten more. ahahs. spent 5mins on ytd's ying yong wen. tzai right. 5mins to complete one letter (: theres PAC test tmr on bank reconciliation. its kinda what the fuck for me cos i still dunno how to do. SIGHS. im slow at PAC can. but i guess ms cheong's a great teacher cos i understand what shes teaching if im listening (:
had choir after school. wanted to pon lurhs, cos felt like i was gonna fall aslp any moment. but i didnt in the end. learnt that new french song. so difficult to prononce the words la. erps. singaporean french - bad :l wadever. i guess everyone's bored out cos people are smsing me to chat. ahahs. im not even sure what im supposed to talk abt. sighs. i need ling's wittiness (: btw. ive decided im not going to msg the jerk though its kinda like, everyone says i should to clarify things. but the more i think the more i dunch see the point. mayb im gonna regret that sometime this week, but i shall talk about that only when it happens larhs :l lets just hope my moodswing aint gonna come soon.
ahahs. shall end here liaos. toot those puahbehkias la.
(:

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7/27/2005 08:38:00 PM

Tuesday, July 26, 2005

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umms. second blogging today. im darn bored can. aint gonna do POA now. erps. eugene goh wants his nametag back. yuenchen took it frm my bag lurhs. and now i tnk she lost it. tsk tsk. ahahs. she better find it. or else eugenegoh gonna scold fuck at me again. dumboo. HES MEAN LURHS. still say what hes a lurfe psychatrist or what crap de. erps. its hilarious thinking of it now (: sighs. school tomorrow. theres chapel. boring :l
tried to change the pict of my blog. but photobucket's like, darn lag larhs. wahahs. was chatting with kokheng. surprisingly hes got a blog too. ive linked him. lol. everyone seem to have a blog now. ah. yah. i tnk xiuanpin abandoned his blog. what a pig. hahs.

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7/26/2005 10:02:00 PM

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im so angry at myself cos i got duped. RWAHS. im pissed can. fuck those dickheads if they think they were funny. OH. they've got dicks for heads, i guess that means that theyve got bloody atom brains. ERPS. fucking dickheads. but, come to tnk of it, youve got played at too. HAHA. so who gives a damn larhs :l umms.
lao soon turned totally pathetic again during chinese lesson. no. i should say he has always been pathetic. he said we were rubbishes that no one wants. he got gunned down by someone replying, "if we are rubbishes, then you must be the rubbish bin." wahahs. damn tzai can.
joel spilled a whole lot of glitter on my bloody table. erps. then my hand kena also lurhs. and duh, of cos my face oso larhs. kns. lucky joel de face had even more glitter than me. ahahs. i was helping him scrape em off, and i tnk sinhui saw :l no needa be jealous can. i was just helping him scrape the bloody glitter off. ahahs. eugene ng also had his face full of glitter. POT CALLING THE KETTLE BLACK. hmph. hes a da ben dan (: and he called me NOOB before i left the school. stupid asshole. ahahs.
went buddy hoagies after min's eng remedial. was late for lunch time by like, half an hour. but knowing ling larhs. the aunty lurfes her lurhs. HAHA. sat down and chat. and min was like, pouring salt on our head. DUMB ASS.
umms. i shall end here. sighs. toot those dickheads, someone (:

7/26/2005 07:25:00 PM

Monday, July 25, 2005

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went towning today. seemed as if i had to handle a lot of shocks today. fuck larhs. bleahs. anw. ive bought my new wallet :D find damn long then found it de lurhs. so town aint that great actually. HAHA. we did some unglam things today, like running across the road. and we were wearing skirts. hurh. and we were walking in the rain. and guess what. i had a BRIGHT RED fila umbrella in my bag cos my mum didnt want me to get drenched. hilarious. had my triple fudge brownie :D and that eeky guy approached us. according to ling, hes that guy who made marklee walk out of the studio. yes, thats the guy. he was saying some craps to us about eyebrows and he asked us to spread the news about dunno what show tmr at 8.30pm on channel u. lame shit. he stinks too can. HAHA. umms. went hme wib ling and her mum in the end. ahahs. i cant do my pac. sighs. thats real sad. ling broke some news to me. im shocked. wahahs. anw, i told ya liaos. im great lurhs (:

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7/25/2005 09:17:00 PM

Sunday, July 24, 2005

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today's a frigging boring day.
have uploaded some new songs.
(: hillsong, my chemical romance, etc.
towning tomorrow.
i needa buy a new wallet :D
billabong agin hopefully...
:l NO LIGHT COLORS THIS TIME.
hahas. shall end here. imy.
lalalas.

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7/24/2005 05:24:00 PM

Saturday, July 23, 2005

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PHS funfair was greeat. though like, really tiring. one day just passed like that. sighs. its gonna be back to studying again :( anw. today - woke up at arnd 7. met yuenchen and anet at the traffic light at arnd 7.45 :D i was earlier than yuenchen. yayness (: had morning assembly and we went back to class to fold the kachang puteh paper. umms. went down to the canteen next and business started (: wasnt really at the stall. HAHA. was too busy roaming around, and gawd knows how many times ive walked arnd. ERPS. yes. it was TIRING for my legs, but sitting down there and doing nth is worse. played the fishing for pinpong balls game outside the chapel and won 5 tiny koi fishes (: sighs. but i put em at the stall and someone upset em, and the fishes were killed :( that was sadd. went with anet to the amk ntuc to get the peanut thing for our muah chee. alas, we brought the wrong type and anet ended up bringing 3packets out of the 4 we bought home. anw. we took taxi back to school although the distance was like darn short. tried making my own milk tea, fun (: and kept sneaking peeps at *him (x ahahs. watched jamming at the cca block :D niice. esp that two girls de. i like their vocals (: watched the magic show too. that was nice too :D everything was nice larhs. HAHA. after that me and min went to the parade square and we sat down there with ling. took crap photos :D then some of the guys came and join us. ERPS. i tnk datou and xiuanpin saw the picts in my cam :l sighs. nvm, i guess. umms. had kinda a picnic tgt wib pinwen datou fish ling and min xD we were trying to use up all the coupons, and people were giving out free food. we ended throwing packets of icecream to people. HAHA. that was real fun (: funfair ended at 8.30. yeaa. helped to clean up and stuffs. the bbq thing was darn dirty can :l went hme after that. IS DARN TIRED NOW (: but im nice and i shall upload the photos now. check em out at my msn space. yupps.

7/23/2005 10:34:00 PM

Friday, July 22, 2005

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the funfair's tomorrow :D omg. its like, time past just so quickly lurhs. two weeks ago i was still thinking there was two weeks left, and it seemed like yesterday. i reached school uber late today. cant blame me, bad hair day =X the only lessons we had today was chemistry and pe (: after that we started on the decos of the stall (: eh. was finding a plug with yuenchen for the glue gun, so we went up to the hall. we went into the hall and i squatted down beside the plug. all of a sudden a dark brown thing rolled under me, and a sectwo guy was like, thats a rat! ERPS. i screamed and jumped and the rat ran out under my feet. thats like, EWK. a rat in the hall. like, what the fuck?! anw. we decorated the stall and mengzhou got pissed by that retainee raymond guy. who gives a damn about this kinda childish de bengkia larhs. rwahs. anw. three integrity seemed totally unhappy about the mashmellow things. BUT. its like, we did had the idea to sell it right from the start. and yea. we only CONFIRMED to sell the mashmellows ytd cos mrs soh found some CONTACTS at the last minute and we could get em real cheap. and since we had extra funds, mrs soh wanna us to sell em. sighs. i dont understand why are they like, making kinda a big deal outta it. this aint any interclass competition. all of us are like, raising funds for the toot school. im not just talking about other classes larhs =X that day yuenchen also got darn pissed cos of similar stuffs and i just couldnt understand why she got so worked up. i tnk i'll just heed eugene ng e dabendan de warning and dont get in this disgreement (x or else i wld be e one scolding fuck too, knowing my bloody temper. mayb i'll just explain when i see the need to (: umms. when we went back to class for attendance taking, most of us were like, drop dead tired. went macs after school (: and we sat at the playgrnd there after that, obstructing those lil kiddies x) went hme after that. and im darn tired can. sighs. is shall end here. gimme nth more to brood about, thankew :l FUNFAIR TMR. ALL WELCOME :D

7/22/2005 07:05:00 PM

Thursday, July 21, 2005

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today's alright (: tried to chiong maths in the morning. but did not manage to finish =X cos i came to school to late. sighs. LUCKILY mrs ang allow us to pass up tomorrow (: someone pushed a bag of candy to me during recess, and i was supposed to sell em to raise funds for threejoy (: and i realise daniel is seriously crazy about PAC. erps. managed to sell quite a few lollipops. but most complained they were too ex. who cares larhs. HAHA (: anw. i think mrs teo is a really greeeat teacher. lurfe her to bits (: spent chinese lesson pigging and mr soon was saying we were dripping saliver xD as if larhs. lol. the funfair tents and stuffs are up (: am so looking forward to it. im gonna be a befriender of those chaoyang special school kids :D hahas. though i wld rather spend my time roaming arnd.. lalalas. we went buddyhoagies after school. me min qi and anet. couldnt find ling. sighs. IF YOU'RE READING THIS, WELL, I THINK THE AUNTY MISSES YOU. HAHA (x bought the blackhead thingy. argh. aint much use, lols. i guess i'll end here. ciaos.

7/21/2005 07:07:00 PM

Wednesday, July 20, 2005

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HAVE UPLOADED BON JOVI'S I'LL BE THERE FOR YOU (:
"I'll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what a love can do
I'll be there for you "
for full lyrics - CLICK<
this song rocks (: fine. rock on people.

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7/20/2005 10:01:00 PM

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erps. today is one huge gigantic unlucky day for me. ohwells. the day started freezing cold again =X umms. had assembly in the hall and blah blah. mrs tan was wearing the carnival shirt. ohwell. its kinda hilarious looking. blue and red sleeves. hahas. but it does looks like a carnival shirt =X the day went on. wasnt paying attention at all during miss lin's lessons cos it was kinda hard too, with her petite size and her skyhigh voice :l went up to the fourth flr with anet to refill her bottle after school. thats when all the trouble start. omg. that dumb denise made me so paiiseh lurhs x( erps. i shall not talk abt that. nah. went pizzahut after that for lunch. ERPS. and the the next unlucky thing happen. SIGHS. just imagine 2 people walking in on you when you are using the bloody fucking toilet. its damn PAIISEH can. oh my bloody freaking hell. min and ling were still laughing like hell. sighs. whats with my luck today. of cos i dragged em outta the bloody freaking pizzahut. and I WUNCH EVER WANT TO GO BACK THERE. mayb a year ltr bahs (x anw ive decided to redo SOME of my fnn research. sighs. i said some. erps. mayb not larhs. i too sian liaos. lalalas. just hope what HE said was true :l shall end here. ciaos.

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7/20/2005 07:37:00 PM

Tuesday, July 19, 2005

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school was a total bore today. wasnt feeling well at all right from the start, cos i was freezing cold. and i guess i looked kinda pale and worn-out. sighs. tuesday lessons are a drag. the day seems long and yea, school's real depressing. looking quite forward to the funfair (: i guess things would be much more fun there. and of cos our monday hol :D tanning, and i wanna pull those thoughts and heartaches out. sighs. i wanna edit my layout, so yea. it wont be much of a diff frm my present one, i tnk. i dont really have the inspiration now. feeling kinda down. hmm. yea. guess i shall end here.

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7/19/2005 07:40:00 PM

Monday, July 18, 2005

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school was nice today. umms. was a bit bonkers. acting crazy and stuffs, but at least i wasnt suicidal, and that definately kept me awake more. HAHA (: was just feeling a lil bit tired. actually it was a big bit. anyway, hme econs was greeat today cos me and anet finally didnt end up with anything disastrous. both yj and sh tasted nice xD nice names for our shortcrust puffs right. HAHA. choir was exhausting today :l and there's like, loads more new songs for us to learn for our concert on 30thNov (: its at VCH again. yupps. BOOK THE TIX NOW :D im joking. we're gonna be busy this week doing the funfair stuffs. but i guess im not involved much, but still, threejoy jiayouus (: hoping to for lunch at pizzahut somewhere this week :D MONDAY's OFF FOR US :D im like, already planning to go tanning and shopping. yayness (: anw im hoping for a new layout. ideas! i need ideas. someone gimme the inspirations please (: lalalas. off to do my fnn le larhs. kkaes. yea. GOOD CHARLOTTE ROCKS (: CLICK<

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7/18/2005 07:35:00 PM

Saturday, July 16, 2005

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today's a fucking boring day.
and what i do on a fucking boring day is to think fucking lot.
i missed him loads today. erps.
esp since he didnt msged me last night. sighs.
expected. i guess im supposed to bahs :l
spent today reading and reading.
ive finished all the books i borrowed ytd.
i betcha my eyesights gonna go up by a thousand degrees.
nah. im exaggerating, obviously.
umms. ive bought a pair of new schoolshoes,
thats like, finally.
i want school, minus the studying.
i need people arnd with me.
at least theres a phone larhs (:
anyway, i was walking back frm buying dinner with my sista,
when she started talking to me abt physics,
cos i had told her earlier i didnt understand one bit about the velocity and acceleration crap.
and she kept on asking me what i dunno.
shes so hilarious sometimes (:
i havent done my fnn btw. rwahs.
major boredom, cos ive like, redone the research twice.
and im supposed to do it for the third time.
whats real bad is that my printer ran out of ink.
thats reeaaal bad :l
im having trouble with maths too, i tnk.
and for pac, im getting so, ummm, turned off by cai xim.
sighs. just when i got to like her.
chem is getting on quite well.
thanks to mrs teo ((: shes really great.
chinese is baaaaaaaaaad ):
sighs. anw those bengkias are like, dumb.
dumboooos :l
btw ive uploaded the photos in my msn space.
yupp yupps. go view em (:

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7/16/2005 06:24:00 PM

Friday, July 15, 2005

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camwhoring for the whole day today (:
surprisingly, mostly with the guys.
yes. the guys ((:
umms. mrs teo never come today.
which is like, lucky.
cos i couldnt get the chem practical wb yet.
in all, i had 5 free periods today,
and the only lessons on were pe and assembly (:
great huh.
mengzhou and eugenegoh are great camwhoring partners
:D jake too. wahahs. and they are hilarious.
painted the banner for nutty nuts :D
before i scooted off with my cam.
went sunplaza after school.
sighs. speaking of after school,
im so sorry about my impatience.
but seriously, i really dunch like to wait for people.
but yea. sorry sorry sorry.
understand me please. yea.
~~i just feel like im alone sometimes.~~ sighs.
hung out in the library.
sat in kfc and chatted loads after that (:
im tired. yawns.
wondering whether... (:
i hope so. no false hopes though.
i aint gonna get myself down.
naw naw and naw.
sighs. tmr's sat. theres naw sch.
thats real sad :l
shall upload the photos ltr :D
yupps.

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7/15/2005 07:31:00 PM

Thursday, July 14, 2005

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aww. my second blogging for today.
im real bored.
and even going online seems boring now.
im never gonna get satisfied.
sighs.
no one's smsing me.
thats sad.
but even if he did sms, i wldnt know what to say.
so mayb its a good thing :l
uploaded a few LP and good charlotte songs up.
(: they rock yea.
anw. i aint supposed to get down tmr.
remind me (:

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7/14/2005 09:03:00 PM

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today's not bad. naw depression (:
except in the morning, when those bengkias shouted kaobei at us.
but i guess anet was making quite a din larhs
(x umms. no offence.
but yea. if theres any anger in you must vent it out.
anyway i shouted kaobu back.
LOL. but no one hears it larhs (x
theres like, loads of test today.
oh well. they werent really difficult, i guess.
umms. stayed back to watch those napfa test (:
those girls are weak man :l
went to the councillor room and ran some errands for wenjie.
ARGH. and loads of sectwos who shldnt get into the camp got in.
sighs. we're gonna give em hell (x
went buddy hoagies after that for a late lunch.
yuums.
anw, yea. theres pe tmr. greeeat (:

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7/14/2005 07:24:00 PM

Tuesday, July 12, 2005

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my day started fucking badly today.
sighs. im so sure that hes a loser now.
im uber confused.
and im so darn proned to moodswings now.
i snapped at eugenegoh and marcus today.
sorry guys :( at least eugenegoh lifted my spirit.
hes humourous :D
and he sure understand girls (x
i seriously tnk those bengkias are dumb.
childish. a bunch of losers. erps.
naw wonder eugene was like, disappointed in me.
umms. i dunch give a damn abt him le.
so yea. dunch get so disappointed in me.
i know hes a loser.
sat with mengzhou and eugene ng during eng.
mrs soh's gonna be absent for the whole week.
yayness. more time for funfair stuffs (:
anyway, the guys are great.
they made me forget those sad stuffs.
and i was like, laughing like a dumbass with em.
though they are kinda perved at some points.
thanks guys. oh. they found my weak point :l
played bball after school.
at first we played with denise, nazri and aik.
but they left for extra lessons, i tnk.
denise and nazri are nice (:
totally hilarious guys.
had fun playing with em :D
ummms. played somemore bball.
and my mood kinda improved.
we went to the canteen to grab some bites.
and i kinda got pissed again.
sighs. im sorry.
partly was cos of moodswings.
and partly cos i saw HIM. dammit.
and partly cos we were waiting again.
i dunch like to wait, especially when i dunch see the point of waiting for ah mah.
no offence.
after that i started thinking looads again.
sighs. and wenqi snapped me out of all it (x
umms. if i break down one day,
gimme a hug.
its gonna be pathetic.
cos i dunch even know why im gonna cry.
i just feel so tired.
school is really depressing.
sighs.

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7/12/2005 07:51:00 PM

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hello.
im in the school comp lab two.
having geog lesson
are supposed to go to this webby,
the games are fun (: click<
sighs, its been a long day today.
eeryone seems irritated.
im specially irritated by HIM.
dumb loser. erps :(
ive still have another pw lesson,
then school will end.
shall blog ltr. ciao.

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7/12/2005 01:11:00 PM

Monday, July 11, 2005

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its the third time im blogging today.
(: lucky i held no hope.
i knew he would not sms me today.
sighs. still, i feel kinda sad.
umms. uploaded a new skin in (:
my previous red and black skin.
ahahs. making em takes my mind off things,
now im done with skins,
im off to flood the bulletin.
im not gonna let myself tnk.
sighs. im seriously down to dumps again ):

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7/11/2005 10:23:00 PM

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napfa was not great.
particularly the sit and reach.
ERPS. i sucked at it.
sighs. one more cm and i would have gotten gold.
im not so stretchable can?
shuttle ran in 10.1sec (:
went for a lil bit of choir after napfa.
singulempong :D
had anet's party after that.
the cake was uber greeat (:
im still so happy abt my blog skin.
rated 4stars xD wahahs.
im ending here.
down into the dumps again.

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7/11/2005 08:51:00 PM

_ in the end it doesnt even matter ;

im in the school comp lab now.
unable to get in friendster.
sighs. its hme econs lesson again.
and i still cant do my 3days food record :(
our practical was as usual disastrous.
(: i guess me and anet will never make a great dish.
HAHA. both of us put together equals to disaster :D
ummms.
and i checked out that skin i uploaded in blogskins.com
(: its rated 4 stars.
im so darn happy. cos its my first posted skin.
HAHA. shall end here.

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7/11/2005 01:28:00 PM

Sunday, July 10, 2005

_ in the end it doesnt even matter ;

im done with uploading the photos.
theres still somemore though.
next time, i guess.
cos my com p is darn lag today.
umms. and my sista is kbing again.
i just cant stand her when shes on her domineering mood.
erps.
shall blog again tomorrow.
uh lalas
(:

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7/10/2005 05:51:00 PM

_ in the end it doesnt even matter ;

yayness (:
ive finished selling my coupons,
and i even helped anet with it.
sorry to waihong and jake - didnt managed to sell any of urs =X
umms. found it quite a hassle to wake up early in the morning cos its a SUNDAY.
party was on until arnd 10 ytd.
and speaking of ytd, it was GREAT FUN (:
min and me went north point to shop for the bdae presents first.
then we took 965 to jolene's hse.
the bus took a long time can. hmph.
and yea. was kinda tired and sian at first.
cos there were only a few of us there.
i tnk jolene came back suddenly.
so they couldnt surprise her with the streamer thing.
was kinda failure. but yea. jolene was surprised that we were at her hse.
we played dai di (:
ten cent per card left. and i losed my money :(
but my mood started to lighten out,
and everything turned hilarious :D
umms. hung arnd. and watched tv.
laughed at every single dumb things and we were totally..rocking high (:
anet came. with her sista. her mum didnt come in.
after that kailing melly and fishy came.
great party after that.
rooocks. especially the donation thingy that anet was acting out.
that was like, uber lame, but totally amusing.
yeaa. we left at arnd 10.
and my dad and mum came to pick min and me up on his SPACESHIP.
hilarious.
slept like a log. was darn tired.
didnt want to wake up so early today.
but i did. and i wasnt late. COS YUENCHEN WAS.
blame it on her dad. hahs.
we got lost at douby ghaut.
but we finally reached princeb presbyterian church (:
by that time we were already late for 30mins.
we waited outside the ntuc in the 101plaza (:
sat there and ate chips and slacked arnd.
then we decided not to wait for weileong and marcus.
HAHA. we stood up. and saw lao soon outside the church.
they were selling the coupons.
we walked there and started selling (:
the people there are very nice.
uber friendly. and seriously, they are kind.
:D cheers for em.
and the 3 kuochuanpresbyterianhigh boys.
sighh. such a pity. HAHA.
didnt regret going there to sell in the end.
we went back to the school.
bustling with avtivities.
finally took the train hme with fish yuenchen and ah fu.
(: great day. HAHA.
school tomorrow again.
sighs. i wonder to or not to.
shall upload photos later. yea.

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7/10/2005 04:02:00 PM

Friday, July 08, 2005

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hello.
today was not as great as ytd.
rwahs. i expected it.
and im really unlucky today :l
sighs. i dunch wanna get into any serious trouble.
i will die. erps.
anyway, friendster changed its look again.
its much beta now :D satisfied.
they were filming i not stupid too in the sch hall today.
and that joshua guy is damn zhuai lurhs.
hes not even a good looker. zhuai pi larhs.
went to the gallery to watch the filming,
cos there was no teacher in class.
and it was like, darn lame.
they were filming a shot of joshua being public caned.
and they crapped alot before they screamed action.
crapped loads abt eating chicken rice everyday :D
and his brisk walking thing and stuffs. uber crap.
i dunno what to say. but my luck aint great with him today too.
tmr's the party! wahahs.
hope it wld turn out great (:

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7/08/2005 07:47:00 PM

Thursday, July 07, 2005

_ in the end it doesnt even matter ;

today was great, finally.
(: guess im like, pretty optimistic about things.
yea. and you guys must be so sick of having to listen to all my craps and him talks.
thanks for being there :D
esp min ling and anet. yupp yupps.
anyway, had surprise spotcheck for girls only today.
erps. the principal gave us some kinda sex lecture today.
talking about being virgins and stuffs like that.
and that mamamia.
it was like, hilarious?!
but yea. we are beautiful. HAHA.
and fishy was going arnd saying 'i am beautiful' (:
saw him like, many times today :D
yayness. but i aint really going crazy like how i was a few days ago.
umms. im trying to control. hahs.
chinese lesson was amusing today too.
the whole class couldnt hand in the chinese compo, excluding kahwee.
and mr soon sent us down to the parade square.
mr tan was called out to lecture us and we had to hand in the compos to him by 9pm. HAHAS.
and mr soon continues his lesson in the parade square :l
it was like, kinda crap. and yes. it was hot.
another class came down and joined us.
i tnk it was 1integrity.
and we were like, clapping and cheering.
erps. we were darn high today (:
pac lesson was unfortunately, hilarious too. HAHA.
me anet and kailing.
three of us shouldnt be sitting together :D
anet felt like falling aslp. and i dunno who started it.
i tnk was me, or anet. we started singing.
and ms chong couldnt stand it. so she called us to see her after the lesson.
and i was saying, since we already gonna get a scolding, why not sing somemore?
ahahs. and ms chong was like, saying her patience was drawing thin.
and so we shut up. like, finally.
she didnt scold us.
instead, she was saying something about not understanding us.
HAHA. and we were the first ones, who are like, under her nose and yet, still misbehaving.
(: told ya we roock. but ms chong's real nice. i tnk i like her. hahs.
had dialogue session after school for the whole secthree.
and yeaa. i guess our class is the worst in express.
or is it 3 integrity.
erps. but i still tnk we rock larhs (:
after the dialogue session, we went to pass up the compo to mr tan.
and it just so happen that he was happily chatting on the phone.
and i guess he kinda dilly dallied in getting out.
erps. im sure he didnt mean it. right! HAHA.
and we went buddyhoagies again. the three of us (:
had my liquid paper chicken and great chocolate cake.
and i accidentally sprayed water on kailing and shimin (x
apologies. HAHA.
laughed looads. am real happy today. yayness.
me and kailing were totally spastic on the way home.
and serious, i think people in the cars on the roads must have thought we were crazy.
i was imitating how he always brisk walk past me.
i tripped, then scream and kailing started laughing,
and there were a whole lot of laughing issues after that.
rwahs. being with those two charbors are fun larhs :D
pe tomorrow. and theres choir.
(:
~~i wanna dug a hole and hide myself when i see him.~~
im sososo bend on watching CHARLIE AND THE CHOCOLATE FACTORY (:
click<
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7/07/2005 07:21:00 PM

_ in the end it doesnt even matter ;

im in the it lab now.
its crap.
cos mr chin's collecting the funfair money,
and everyone is fooling arnd (:
so far, todays a greeeat day :D
shall say more ltr.
yupps.
right now, i shall do whatever im supposed to do.
for i am a good girl.
AS IF WORHS.
hoping for PARTY TIME LTR (:

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7/07/2005 01:33:00 PM

Wednesday, July 06, 2005

_ in the end it doesnt even matter ;

hi again.
im uber nice today (:
cos i was talking to elgin and limhan.
erps. told ya i was going bonkers.
but they can be really nice to talk to.
minus their craps :D
limhan might be helping me with the coupons.
sigh. i dunno what am i gonna do if i cant sell em.
so yea. ask me to take care.
cos i dunno how much longer am i gonna remain sane.
im bend on a zen neeon.
betcha i cant geddit.
sighhs.

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7/06/2005 09:24:00 PM

_ in the end it doesnt even matter ;

im not so suicidal today.
nor am i so depressed.
HAHA. but yea. im still looking out for him.
though im trying not to.
wahahs. am supposed to collect 150 names for the HPT sec2 recruits.
150. thats like, alot for this yr sectwo batch.
if you wanna 150 from the sec ones,
its confirmed done.
fine. im being mean. but im not really e only one who think this way, i guess.
i tnk being in the councillor rm is nice.
eating in the rm is nice too.
HAHA.
im getting bonkers.
went buddy hoagies with shimin after hpt briefing.
chatted loads.
kailing joined us after that. chatted more.
(: left at arnd 1830.
sighs.
i dunno what to do with the funfair coupons.
elgin is dumb. cos he bought one booklet with his own money.
and he still said 50bucks only.
fine lurhs. he rich guy mahs. erps.
but his brain not really that rich. HAHA (x
umms. schools tmr.
im getting cranky.
ciaos.

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7/06/2005 07:37:00 PM

Tuesday, July 05, 2005

_ in the end it doesnt even matter ;

today's screwed.
sighs. whats wrong with me.
i hate the way i am now. i dunch even understand myself anymore.
im like, thinking way too much.
today's supposed to be a great day.
i dunch wanna care.
IM SICK OF MYSELF.
erps. im very tired.
i guess its plain obsession.
mayb with a tinge of crush. hurh.
im always on the look out for him.
and im just glad to know hes near.
and heck. some guys are seriously irritating me.
argh. dt and mk. bahs. as if i care what they are doing.
i wanna things to move on.
mayb i should just follow what yuenchen says-
be patient. wait. see what happens then.
i think im going bonkers.
cos i dunch tnk i can wait.
and the reason partly is cos hes not smsing me anymore.
and he seems like hes avoiding me.
i wanna let go.
but there just seems to be some invisible asshole in me who dunch wanna let go.
im confused. pathetic.
thinking too damn much.
im getting vulgared. yeaa. yuenchen noticed that.
i tnk i needa loosen up.
be back to myself.
and NOT get so assholic when i see him.
i shall try, i guess. and i shall NOT wait one whole period in the bloody toilet for him again.
i even had to pretend i had dirrahoa.
freakily lame lurhs. i guess i can help out people with their relationship stuffs.
but im a total failure at my own.
im like, liking some bum. loser. follower. pathetic.
im mean. but i just like him :l
contradicting. told ya im confused.
i guess all this will pass someday.
hopefully it will some real soon.
sorry peeps.
im real broke. imma going on a hunger strike.
sighs.
hopefully, i can return you the money or presents which i owe to ya soon.
sorry again. this term is pathetic, to me.
rwahs. i cant even get what i want -
contact lenses. zen neeon.
:D i shall try to work hard to get these stuffs.
adults just dunch understand. bahs.
oh. thanks jy, for the book.
it's great. (: and yea. peeps. dunch worry so much abt me.
umms. thanks though :D
"I felt like a 12yr old with her first crush - watching for him around every corner, blushing when he came over to say hi, hoping he'd accidentally brush my arm - it was awful. i want to crawl into bed and hide. im sure everyone noticed and is talking abot it." - ceiling stars.

7/05/2005 07:34:00 PM

Monday, July 04, 2005

i dont give a damn;

parts of the lyrics of "fuck it, i dont want you back"
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"See, I dont know why I liked you so much
I gave you all, of my trust"
[Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now]
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses, they didn't mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back"
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its nice song, abit too vulgared though. HAHA.
get the full lyrics here. click<
school's tomorrow. can i minus the studying part?
(:

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7/04/2005 09:38:00 PM

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im back already (:
went town with min and ling.
and i finally bought my pencil case.
ahahhs. the three monkeys are like, uber cute lurhs.
but it kinda remind me of him. sigh. thats so not worth it,
erps. anyway, we went to cineleisure to have our lunch first.
and i was talking to shimin when i turned and saw this guy who like, smiled at me?!
ummms. and he looked kinda like a monkey.
i dunch mean a cute one. IM MEAN xD
went heeren, shopped arnd and we saw this pair of angmoh couple.
they were looking at the billabong wallets.
and i guess that guy was standing too near the sensor thing,
and the thing kept beeping.
and finally the guy was so frustrated that he walked off and said,
"its not my fault now."
or something like that. we were laughing. hahs.
we took neos, twice, there. yupps.
and we went looking at the bikinis which mostly have like, crap prices.
and i tnk we were totally hilarious, spastic, thru our window shopping.
saw the pencil case at 37degrees and was convinced to buy it.
cos it was totally ke aii lurhs (:
we went outta heeren. had mrs field's brownies.
the new banana rocky road is like, yums :D
and we went into e marriot (dunno how to spell larhs) hotel's toilet to wash our hand.
walked over to far east.
tried on some of the sunglasses (spastic!).
took somemore neos. ahahhs.
and we went hme. loads fun. girls' outing. nice.
and tmr's back to school :D
yayness. i guess.
(:

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7/04/2005 07:36:00 PM

Sunday, July 03, 2005

_ in the end it doesnt even matter ;

erps.
i dunno whats im thinking about.
guess im confused. and i dunno what i shld do next.
sighs. who cares.
my sista spoilt her phone. hooray. im being sarcastic.
went grp studying with min and ling.
managed to complete physics assignment.
didnt do my chem cos i didnt bring the textbook.
and i just realise almost all guys watch porn.
:D so its not like, gross or what.
unless the guy's thinking about those r-rated stuffs all day long,
which i think jake does.
heck.
im still confused. argh. lemme try not to tnk abt that.
towning tmr with min and ling (:
too bad im kinda broke.
sighs.

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7/03/2005 08:32:00 PM

Saturday, July 02, 2005

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ERPS.
im so angry with him.
and suddenly im so grateful to nelson for telling me whats going on.
arghh!!!!!!!
what the fuck fuck fuck.
what have i gotten myself into?
rwahhs!!!
:l

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7/02/2005 09:43:00 PM

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ive got a new bag (:
went shopping at j8 with kailing.
i didnt went for the hpt mthly meeting cos i didnt noe the details.
ohwell. heard that only a few went.
guess shannon sir was angry :l sigh.
anyway, met andy there at j8.
and naw. his sista is not uglier than him. HAHA :D
didnt manage to convince him to take neos with us.
guyys.. erps.
i wonder whats wrong with sweekoon.
im gonna check him out first thing on tue's recess.
anyway, i saw this guy at the train station when i was goin hme.
he was rushing down the escalator, then he kinda ran out of the station.
then when i got out of the station, i saw him with this girl strolling slowly.
i dunno why, but he gave me the feeling that he lurfe her very much.
(: how sweet is that.
i cant sell the funfair coupons.
rwahs. who would want to buy em?
got minkai to help.
i feel kinda bad, cos i somehow just re-know him.
hahas. budden who cares larhs. hes just another dumb guy.
erps. im mean (x
hmmms. hoping to go tanning on mon.
and it better NOT rain then.
(:

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7/02/2005 07:27:00 PM

Friday, July 01, 2005

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rwaps. im very tired. yawns.
ive changed the red colours on my blog. bah.
i dunno why, but i dont have the feeling to edit the skin today.
thats why i tnk my skin kinda sucks now.
argh. never mind. i shall make a new one when im free.
im blogging twice a day now. cos im lamed.
i tnk friendster kinda sucks now. can it goes back to how it was?
bahs. i dont feel like going tmr.
i wanna buy a new pencil case (:

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7/01/2005 08:49:00 PM

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today's like, the most not-depressing day since school reopens.
(: im gonna change my blog's color scheme.
its gonna be my trademark hme econs prj colors.
:D bright and nice. especially orange and hotpink.
had bball today, finally. ahh (:
but really, i totally suck at it today.
mayb its cos i havent been playing for a long long time.
more bball session, please :D
umms. not with the guys, i mean.
i hate it when they wanna give in to me.
but never mind. guess they're trying to make me feel better.
but yea. at least i managed to get in a few tc shots in the end.
angers vented. worries forgotten. let go(:
yeaa. bball really rocks. chem was fun today too.
or rather, mrs teo is a fun teacher (: like ms cheong.
ahh.. we've got some nice new teachers.
(:

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7/01/2005 07:18:00 PM