it was raining in the morning and the weather was damn cool. thats prolly the reason why so many people missed school today. sighs. it's a waste of time in school anyways. had napfa test for pe. i kept bursting out in laughter halfway, and to say the truth, i dont even know what i was laughing at xD im so great at doing that. rofls.

did a bit of maths during my birdface's lessons. chinese lessons were crap. me and sihao were drawing on each other and fighting to write each other suck on the newspaper with jake poking me at the other side. rahs. everybody's acting like 6 years olds today. hahaha. then english lesson was spent sleeping, then sitting up and not knowing what i should do, and before i know it, the bell rang for school ends.

went to the school kitchen and got ready the stuffs for practical. kays. as expected, it turned out quite disastrous. but only the main dish tasted weird. the side dish, dessert and drink tasted nice :D kays. but after that felt so drained. cooking makes one tired. rofls. ohhh. and i finally decided on what to wear for fine dining :D yayness. no bomber. hahaha.

ohwells. wasnt in a very good mood when i got home. sheesh. it's weird, how something which you didnt think will affect you so much is able to hit you so hard. oh wells. i dont feel like blogging anymore.

im so pissed off about the mozzarella cheese i bought for my fnn practical tomorrow :/ i wanted to buy the shredded one, but in the end i got the chunk one which i thought cost less. then when i paid for it, i realised it cost 4 bucks more than the shredded one. like, omfg. so in the end, i paid 4bucks more to shred the bloody cheese myself >:( something's wrong with my eyes. come on, now you people can come and tell me how spastic i am. sheesh.

it's so difficult to shop for groceries without my mom. ahhhhs. i really am a blur cock, a big scatterbrain, and the most disorganised person around >:( rahs. i think theres a big possibility that the school might explode tomorrow, due to some little mistakes i make, like, maybe switching the flame of the stove to full blast instead of closing it. yes, dont laugh. i effing did that before at home >:( ohwells.

went town with my sister. today, it's the other way round from last week. i was the pissed off, irritated and grumbling one last week and today, she's the one. all because the colour of my pants run and stained onto her effing white converse tee which wasnt selling anymore. @#$%^&! kays. so anyway, i might not have to wear a bomber after all :D rofls. shall see. oh, and i bought that straightening hair brush already :D

right. hmm. im so nervous about the practical tomorrow although it's just the trial. ahhhs. sheesh. i gotta rush and get ready the stuffs already. that includes shredding of the bloodyhell mozzarella cheese. uhms.

come on people, click (THIS). uber cool :D

was out shopping with the girls again today (: went to marina square to meet them. had my rum&raisin icecream. yums :D saw joel, boyfriend, yennfen and dunno who else at topman. then went bugis next. met phebe then went bugis street. was darn crowded there today. bought a black off-shoulder top. but phebe! i think i cant really wear it. rofls. so you can try it on. hahs. met alot of phs people there. anyways, i managed to stop myself from buying somemore dangly earrings :D hahaha.

i think im not gonna care about wearing the same stuffs as people already ): bomber it is. sighs. i cant find anything else already. oh, and ahmah bought a white dress which looks uber nice on her. it may be brandless and it is cheap for a dress, but why care about those redundant things if it looks nice? i'd rather not pay 100 bucks for something nice selling in a branded shop if i can find something equally nice for 10bucks at a rather lowclass, and probaby brandless shop. brands and prices are not everything. sheesh. i shant say more than what i should say. ive learnt, blogs are crap. rofls. lmaos. ooo. ah :D thats the twinaiai language. hahaha.

and about __. it's i-cant-describe-the-feeling to see how synthetic our friendship has become. ive been feeling that way since i-cant-remember-when, but i always thought that im thinking too much and becoming paranoid about people, like how everyone else is becoming. i mean, it seems like everyone reads too much into each other's action and words kept getting misinterpreted. so anyway, others pointed it out to me today, and i realised i wasnt the only one thinking that everything feels so phony.

hello bestfriends (: we wont become like that in the future, yes? rofls lmaos ooo ah :D

im wayyyy retarded today, yesterday and perhaps tomorrow too. i dunno why. ohhh. my sister just won a plasma tv. hahaha. ohkays im tired. i shant wait up for the idiot's call tonight cos ive got a feeling he'll be having too much fun to call. i dont really care. really (:

i shall continue my fnn tomorrow :D

rwoars.

my shoulders are hurting like mad, especially the left one, the one i used to carry my bag >:( this is the result of the pumpings we did yesterday. sheesh. anyways, correction. we did 45 pumpings instead of 35. something like that. and ah mao said that they said i was lying splat on the floor when we were supposed to be in pumping position. hahaha. my back hurts, thats why! ROFLs. oh, and i forgot to blog about stephie and tricia yesterday. they were rolling around the parade square, as in literally. hahaha (:

kays, then today school was uber tiring, cos my shoulders were hurting and all i felt like doing was to just put my head on the table and sleep. ohhhh, and i was so mortified in the morning. we were in the computer lab for physics, and i was just randomly clicking on the past links. then there was this link, something like definition of freedom, and i clicked it cos it sounded like some website with meaningful quotes or something, but it turned out to be a porn website la! =.=" like, so oh my gawd can. i screamed. hahaha. then eugene goh and ahgong turned around and started calling me perved. sheesh. so horrible okays. someone's in our school is so sick that he/she visits porno websites using the school comp. omg >:/

i was rather high in school today, though i was like so tired and all. then after school went town with the girls. me and phebe started trying to pronounce rofls and lmaos. hahaha. cos we're like, using lol even when we're speaking, and i started going "ro-fles" and phebe said i was retarded and started trying to pronounce lmao. hahahaaaaa.

bought purple nail polish :D anyways, i so dont want to wear a bomber for the fine dining >:( i dont want to dress like everyone else. so maybe i'll go find some new top tomorrow. sighs. i'll see how :( oh, and ive gotta go shopping for the fnn practical on sunday :D hahaha.

alright. im so tired and so bored and my shoulders still effing hurt. im bloody loud today. i dunno why. ohwells. (:

xoxo, ahmao (:

hello.
new template.
anet chean, you losaaaar.
im getting your blogskins out as soon as i can.
im going rusty.
it took me fricking hell long to make this one :/
stupid anon.
im darn proud of myself :D
HAHS.
iLOVEmyfriends.
(: (: (: (:
im tired.
zzz.

i was late for school today, all because of the stupid cars jamming up the road infront of the bus >:( i should have taken the 853 instead of the 851, then i wouldnt be late. rahs. i think buses should have one lane for themselves. hmmfs. it's already my fourth time this year. luckily ahmah and phebe were also late today, so had company. but ive got DC, while they dont have, cos its only their second time >:/ so i ended up not going for DC. am kinda afraid that they'd go and check to see who never attend DC. then i'll be dead. rofls. i didnt go for the previous ones too, but i think since now mr nara aint here anymore, theyve become stricter. ahhhhs. im so effing paranoid. TSK. cant stand myself.

today's rather busy too. spent the whole morning today FNN coursework b. sarcrificed recess. then had HPT straight after school (part of the reason why i never go for DC. hahaha), so couldnt have lunch. taught the teachers the aces day workout. you should have seen birdface! so enthusiastic. my best friend xD

teachers often scold us when we make a lot of noise while they're teaching some new stuffs. however, they're actually not much different from us. dammit. theyre so noisy that it's hard to hear kezia talking. rofls. but it's so funny to see how excited they are. hahaha.

kays. so after that, went out to the parade square. mr lim was damn nice, cos he treated us to drinks :D then did 35 pumpings, and ran 11 rounds around the parade square (: major workout. rofls. after that we just kept on practising the aces day workout. then me phebe and anet left earlier.

oh sheesh. i dunno whats with me today. see, im blogging weirdly. shuacks. it's irritating. ahhs. whatever. i shall stop blogging. im irritated with my english today.

im back! (: so, theres nothing much to talk about the birdface today. i shall change my target to JC. ewwwwws. i dont like her. she whines my name and she flirts with the guy students. sheesh. i bet she whined my name cos there were guys all around her. YUCKS.

i think i have a thing against teachers. rofls.

it's been an uber tiring day. it's a wednesday, so school's out only at 1440, and our chem practical lesson dragged on a little while, and we still had to rush to fnn at 1500. see, busy busy! after fnn, i still had the NDP rehersal. though it was only for a while, still had to wait for ah mah and ahmao. even our recess wasnt spared. went for HPT, learnt the new aces day workout which wasnt exactly new. haha. had fun, though at the end we were sweating buckets (: ohhh. anyways, we spent fnn bitching about birdface with afrose. haha :D

fnn trial practical exam on saturday is postponed! yayness (: there's aces day practice tomorrow. it's been bloody hell long since i last attended some hpt thing. ehem. lol. ohwells. i needa rush out my fnn timeplan now :D

thats some kinda salt with some kinda carbon thingy. i suck at chem :D

... not.

hahaha. that will never ever happen. rofllllls.
it's his lessons now ):
we're doing vectors in the school comp lab.
my mood is good today :D
but some effing puahbehkias are @#$%^& this morning.
rahs.
one of em kp us at the staircase just now.
think was the big huge ogre.
then when we were in the toilet,
they switched off the light >>:/
screwers la!
rofls.
the idiot is a #$%^&*! with his group of friends.
i dont like that side of him at all.
ahhs. shall do vectors now :DDD

there's like, those days which you get all moody and irritated by the slightest things. ohmygawd. the idiot just shocked me by using sigh instead of hais. ROFL. kays. as i was saying, i think im having one of those days. or maybe it's because i spent most of the day with my nose in the book, and when i get disturbed when reading, i go kind of crazy. anyways, i was okay after my haircut. so everything was fine. hahs.

we were late for pac lessons again. me kailing cheyenne anet, and the usual, eugene goh. then she sent us to the library. bitched about a certain person. hahs. >:/ had to remind boyfriend to get me rose for fine dining. hahs. cos he has never given flowers to girls before. man, after hearing what eugene said, it kinda made us think about how ungentlemanly and immature some of the twograce guys are. oh never mind. they'll learn someday. lol.

after school went to have our haircut. didnt get to go library after all. sometimes i get so sick of things, i dont even know why. dont feel like blogging anymore. ahhhs. bye.

hello, birdface suck! ahahaha.

he gave yusong a 2 bucks voucher for popcorn at some cinema cos he got 30+++ for maths, and i just shouted over, "eh gor, you want somemore? i have! free one!" ROFLs. and sinhui was like saying she has it too, and mr hui started laughing and said it's all for fun and that i neednt take it so seriously. then i was like, "im a very serious person." IMAO! (new word from phebe. hahaha.) but serious, the voucher was given when we buy tickets for movies at Cathey cinema. see, birdface = bloody effing cheapskate. no wonder he's a birdface. he ges, "im cheep, im cheep!" :D

i just downloaded a whole new set of brushes. it's been ages since i last looked for those stuffs. but it's not as if ive got any use for em, at least for now. i finished the book Tuesdays with Morrie. it's a great book. though the book is thin, i took like, 3 days to finish it cos i read every single thing. it's that meaningful.

"if you hold back the emotions - if you dont allow yourself to go all the way through them - you can never get to being detached, you're too busy being afraid. you're afraid of pain. you're afraid of grief. you're afraid of the vulnerability that loving entails." .

"how we feel lonely, sometimes to the point of tears, but we don't let those tears come beacause we are not supposed to cry. or how we feel a surge of love for a partner but we don't say anything because we're frozen with the fear of what those words might do to the relationship... ... turn on the faucet. wash yourself with the emotion. it won't hurt you. it will only help. if you let the fear inside, if you pull it on like a familiar shirt, then you can say to yourself, "alright, it's just fear, i dont have to let it control me. i see it for what it is. same for loneliness: you let go, let the tears flow, feel it completely - but eventually be able to say, "alright, that was my moment with loneliness. im not afraid of feeling lonely, but now im going to put that loneliness aside and know that there are other emotions in the world and im gonna experience em as well."

but i still think The Five People You Meet In Heaven is nicer. now im going on to some book about feet binding and stuffs. hahs. tomorrow's going to the salon with the girls for a haircut. lols. then i wanna go get some lace from Spotlight, but not tomorrow, i guess. maybe i'll go to the library after the haircut. im gonna do more for my FNN. ive been slacking like shit. hahahs. suddenly, i miss jiayan (: hahs.

right. i want a new friendster profile. buhhhbye.

hello im back! yesterday was back too late to blog. hahhs :D

coursework b practical yesterday morning was okay, thanks to bian tai. he helped me to get my spinach and my broccoli :D hahahs. now i owe him chocolates again. anet chean overslept. lololols. i had to redo my stuffs cos i did everything wrongly, but things ended up okay (:

went shopping with the girls after that :DDD damn great. went Bugis junction first, with phebe, lowshimin, and fiona. bought my skirt for fine dining :D black with a strip of purple lace. then went Bugis Street and bought a pair of girl boxers with phebe (: after that met jolene and then went Cityhall. met cheyenne and polly neo xD then went Suntec City and met anet and wenqi. hahhhs. so in the end most of the girls went (:

after that took the bus to go PS. ohwells. the bus driver has got serious attitude problem. he insisted that we show him our bus card when we used coins to pay instead. @!%^&! its not as if we look so old can. sheesh. went to the This Fashion there. uber big, nice to shop, especially when all the stuffs are so effing cheap :D saw one damn cute checkered skirt, but i guess it would be stupid to buy it since i dont think i'll wear it. bought what we wanted, then had dinner at LJS. then home :D

oh, and the poopoo head was being real irritating yesterday. rofls. phebe! keep him in check la! hahaha.

the today, went shopping with my sister. anyways, people, heels at FarEast are much cheaper. yupps. rofls. but i couldnt find any that suit what i wanted. i needed to buy a black pair of heels, but those nice ones i saw were all light colored ): saw sarah, zhiwei and elenor. hahs. then after that went Isetan. bought a pair of black wedges from the U.R.S there. im wondering if it's the same one as what wenqi bought. lols. then continued to walk around. had dinner at Mcdonald. liting was working there. rofls. she was like asking if im from phs. think she recognised me. lols.

i love retail therepy ♥

like, omfg.
afrose suddenly msged us to tell us that we've gotta get ingredients ourselves tomorrow :/
and the bad thing is,
i dunno how to buy!
and i dunno how a spinach looks like.
SHEESH.
i wonder where my apron went.
gah.

my ulcers at my left cheek are hurting effing much, and now my tongue seem about to grow another one. rahs.

i dunno why, but i was effing irritable today. prolly due to the lack of sleep. i snapped at birdface. i mean, he's so irritating. he pushes all the class matters to xinying, and all the money matters to me. so what if im the treasurer? it suck to have to help him.

had some kind of disagreement with eugene ng today ): he asked anet to be his partner if he wasnt able to find a partner by monday. i rebutted kinda jokingly that he's taking anet as a spare tyre, and he started getting all worked up and stuffs. then yuenchen somehow got involved too, and all of a sudden there was kind of a heated argument going on, and eugene started getting real pissed off and saying that it was fine by him and that he's gonna skip fine dining and all. felt really bad, and wanted to apologise. but really, what do guys treat girls as? yuenchen stopped me, but in the end i did apologised. turned out that he wasnt as pissed with me as he was with yuenchen. but he losed anet as a partner, cos she agreed to go with biantai in the end. rofls.

had choir after school. the sun was effing hot and we still had to stand in the parade square. sheesh. so stupid. today's fucked up, really. ohwells. shopping tomorrow! retail therepy :D but i still have to endure fnn first >:/ ohwells. i shall go continue with my new template. (:

(:

theres fnn at 8 on saturday ): cant sleep in already. sighs. ive been sleeping real late every night and the effects are showing. black eyebags! >:/ gah.

anyways, just spotted zt's friendster's profile. he just got tattoos i think. damn cool, but kinda scary looking. rofls. it's surprising how much he has changed. i remember like, one or two years ago he was still telling me over msn about those primary school friends who had joined gangs, and that it was bad and all, and now he's became c.a.b. as well. and he was still saying i look like a c.a.l! #$%^&*(! sheesh. I DONT. lowshimin and phebe lim, i dont i dont i dont. rofls. now looking back at those times in primary school and at tuition, everything and everyone seem so stupid and silly and so effing innocent. and maybe thats when being stupid and silly is great.

birdface sucked today. though it's not that he doesnt on any other days... i was having pains in my stomach (charmaine claims that they are cramps) and i was like, lying over the table cos it was hurting effing much. then he came over and started lecturing me and telling me that if i wanted to sleep, i could go over to the next part of the room (we were in the seminar room) and lie down of the effing floor. wtf can. then they were like, saying that i was having cramps, and he still insisted that if i wanted to lie down, i must go to the other part of the room and lie on the floor. FUCK YOU. i take that as an insult. then i was like, fine, may you be reborned as a woman in your next life and experience this kinda pain. stupid effing birdbrain. after a long while my stomach finally stopped cramping. lols.

school was quite interesting today, with all that excitement about fine dining. the guys without partners are starting to fret, but the girls without partners seem to not mind at all. girls are, after all, a much better company than guys (: unless the guy's really sweet and knows what a girl wants (: some certain guys seem to only have himself in his eyes, and no one else but himself. this kind of guy is selfish and stupid and is an effing scumbug, and it would be totally horrible to even spend a minute with him. lalala.

after school decided to go marina square with the girls. and anet is a LOSAARRRRR. i mean, ehem, loser. haha. you have to slang it, LOSAR. hahaha. camwhored in the train and there was these two malay ladies who kept looking at us and laughing. -roll eyes and roll and roll.- (this time round my eyeballs are NOT loose yet. :D) went topshop zara mango blah. couldnt find anything nice. didnt see any nice heels too. ohwells. proper shopping on sat after fnn (:

anet and cheyenne says im weird today. they says it's prolly due to pms. fine. suddenly everyone's telling me im having pms today. weeeeeird la. i want new template (: buhhhhbye.

yay yay yay! i got my phone back already! :D

birdface gave me effing attitude today morning. he insisted that me and anet had to sit infront even though we were having the common test instead of his lessons. then he started preaching about my blouse and my skirt, then he asked me to go to the toilet to adjust. i went to the toilet and didnt do anything, but when i went back to class, he was fine with my uniform. faggot.

thanks to organic chem, im more interested in the subject already :D but im still as uninterested in pac. oh my gawd. i didnt know how to do the whole paper! >:( ohhhkays. so anyway, throat was worse today, and anet got the flu too! sorry. haha. you shouldnt have drank from my bottle.

kays, for fine dining, everyone's asking arnd for partners already (: boyfriend asked me, so im going with him. and i was like, "can you try to get the bumps removed by then?" and he was like, "that would be a miracle." rofls. im so mean. hahaha. and he was like, so afraid of us thinking that he's biased. hahaha.

hmm. then halfway through chemistry, mrs andrews let me out to find mr wee to get back my phone :D it wasnt that bad after all and my legs didnt crumble. hahaha. then after school went to watch pirates of the caribbean with shimin phebe and poopoohead. IT'S DAMN NICE :D really really really great movie, and orlando bloom is so so hot! (: saw kelvin (not the poopoohead) and junhao at the mrt station. i think all along junhao thought i was sec2. @#$%^&*(! omfg. whats worse is that he's not the first one. WORST IS HE SAID I LOOK LIKE THE FUCKED UP GIRL
___. OMGGGGG. no way. if i really look like her, im gonna kill myself. lololols.

ohwells. was looking through the pictures in my phone. i miss the past. sheesh. ohhlaalaaaas. im off. buhhhhbye.

HAAA-LOWS!

physics paper was effing screwed! >:( fnn was too. sighs. screwwwwwwwwwwwwwed. this sucks. i want to get good grades and stuffs, i know how to worry, but i just cant bing myself to do it >:/ AHS. and and and, I STILL HAVENT GET BACK MY FRICKING PHONE FROM THE FRICKING WCB LA! >>>>>>>>>>:( i spent last night feeling pissed off about it. rahs! now im so worried that i wont be able to get back my phone forever. >>>>>>:( omfg. noooooo! i might have to ask birdface for help already :(

im agitated. obviously.

somebody add me testimonial puhlease. my friendster has been lifeless for two days already. kays. so anyway, went buddy hoagies after school for group study. did a lil bit of revision on alkanes and alkenes. shall continue later on. im tired since i spent so much time feeling pissed off with WCB. i want to watch pirates of the caribbean. hahahas :D

blogs are unsafe. it seems to be always the cause of quarrels. kays. and something random: i was thinking. whats the difference between fuck and screw? i mean, i used to go, "fuck you." and now im abstaining from vulgarities (hahaha) and i go, "screw you." like theres any difference like that. -roll eyes. and roll and roll and roll- my eyeballs are loose already and about to drop out of the socket. i think i'll never become a proper lady, i think. screw it! im always talking about stopping my unsightly, non-lady-like actions. but it's so troublesome to not put my legs up when i sit, and now eat with big mouthfuls, and not talk loudly, and not laugh hysterically with my mouth opened. oohhh. who ever laugh hysterically with the mouth closed?! SHEESH! AHS. and its natural for me to shake my legs sometimes. HAHAHA. ah mao, my hot lesbo, does it too. you people can just love me for who i am. i shall decide on how unladylike i can be. ooooo, i so want to go shopping. (:

p/s, dear mr wee, if you are reading this, CAN I PLEASE HAVE MY PHONE BAAAAAAAAAAACK?!!!!!

thats what you get from being sick.

came down with fever all of a sudden yesterday night. it was sore throat one moment, sneezes another moment, and then it read 38.2 degrees celcius on the thermometer the next moment. i couldnt sleep at all, so was on the phone till 2am. by then, my temperature dropped to 38.1 degrees and the idiot was like saying cos i was talking to him thats why it helped. rofls. kinda drifted in and out of sleep for the next few hours and i woke up feeling like i was about to puke. temperature rised to 38.4 degrees celcius, and again the idiot says its because talking to him give me warmth. LOL. decided to go to school in the end. ahhhs. my face was damn flushed la. was late for the meeting, so didnt really get to hear what they were talking about.

the weather was effing humid. throughout the whole assembly, i was like, dripping sweat. hahaha. and then my temperature dropped too. lols. geog paper was difficult :( maths = fail. >:( sighs. at least the o'level listening comprehension was easy :D i guess thats the only great thing today. oh, and everyone was high today. hahaha :D if only we can stay so happy everyday. ohwells. at least ive been happy for two, three weeks already, minus the common test la! lols.

kays. i sent more than 60 messages in less than half an hour just now. thanks to eugene goh. rofls. i want common tests to be over quickkkkkkkkkkkkkkk! oh and im praying hard that my dad dont get back his car so fast. cos my mom says once his car gets repaired, he's gonna settle the computer. omfg. >:( oh oh oh, and a lizard crawled all over my legs in the morning. YUCKS! kays. i wasnt wearing my specs, and was therefore, partially blind, but it felt like a lizard. whatever the case is, it was effing gross. sheesh.

i dont think im gonna do fnn. i'll just read up on physics. im still a lil whoozy.

i dunno why, i dont want to be like that, but im so restless. i just cant sit down properly to study >:/ rahs. i really really want to study. but i just cant. @!#$%^&* perhaps theres something wrong with me. my brain is really so screwed. it's like, i'll be staring at my book and i'll just think of some other things. otherwise, i'll be moving around, as i already said. ahhhs. >:(

anyways, i cant wait to go shopping.

sheesh. IM SORRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i just cant concentrate on studying for common test. im gonna try again later. i promise promise promise. sighs. and im saying sorry again. if only you read this and understand this. i dont want you to think that you love me. and neither do i want you to think i reciprocate your "love". screw it. im abstaining from vulgarities. i get so pissed with myself. cos i know the way i handle things suck. and it kind of repulse me to see how easily people uses the word love nowadays.

... emo picture. hahahah :D im having sorethroat. it's horrible. i think the idiot passed it to me over the phone. ROFLLLLLs. my gawd. im really going bonkers. tsk. common test LAR >:(

rahhhhs.

i dont know why, but i am so effing restless today. hmmf. i wanted to finish revising Geography today and do Physics too, but i ended up not even completing Geog yet cos i kept leaving my book to do something else, like, opening the fridge for food or just opening the cupboard and wishing that ive got more clothes. ooohh. i also kept staring into the mirror and telling my hair not to grow out of its present state so fast. rofls. im bonkers, really.

imma gonna get back to my books soon. anyways. i want a new template :D i like those scroll ones better, i realise. heh. im fricking fickle minded. ohwells. im gonna study, or else some idiot says he's not gonna talk to me already. nice kind of encouragement. -roll eyes- :D

hahs! i got this from joshua (:
and he boosted my ego with his answers. rofls (:

Name 20 people of the opposite sex
1. eugene goh
2. eugene ng
3. jake
4. xiuanpin
5. yuxuan
6. zongyang
7. victor the moley
8. yusong
9. joshua long :D
10. chunfu
11. jack
12. datou
13. wilson the roly poly
14. xiao ren
15. the idiot
16. kelvin the poo poo head
17. xiangyi the ahgong
18. yiyuan
19. yusoon
20. joel

QUESTIONS ABOUT THEM
Have you kissed number 5?: no!
Would you ever consider going out with 2?: maybe! hahaha
Do you find number 12 attractive?: still okay
What is number 6's best feature?: his eyes? his nice personality! :D
What do you like about number 10?: he's a great guy (:
Do you miss number 20?: not really. lols.
Has 9 ever hurt you?: no! rofls.
Do you think that number 1 is a good friend?: yepp. 10 years already leh!
Do you wish you could get to know number 5 better?: yepp sure
Is number 4 funny?: yes. haha
Is number 7 cruel?: YES! he's cruel enough to sing the xmas tree/goldfish song to me everytime he sees me :/
Do you think that number 11 fancies you?: no way! my kor! haha
Do you consider numbers 2, 9, 14 and 19 as good friends?: 2 and 9 are quite (: 14 used to be quite a good friend :/ 19 is just schoolmates. haha
Do you think that you and number 5 are soulmates?: dont think so

GIVE THEIR NUMBER AS YOUR ANSWER
Which numbers have you dated?: 3 and 18. HAHAHA. one is boyfriend, one is hpt ai ai. madeup dates. rofls
Which numbers the funniest?: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 15, 16, 18, 19
Which numbers the cruelest?: eh. dunno. haha
Which numbers are you the closest to?: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 15, 16, 18
Which number would you love to kill?: presently, it's 7
Which number makes you the most happy?: im sorry to say it's 15
Which number is the most sarcastic?: 1, 2, 20, i think
Which number(s) do you think you will be friends with forever?: hopefully is all! (:
Which number(s) would you consider marrying?: hahaha.
Which number has the best facial features?: 1 to 6, 9 to 11, 14 is cute, 15 looks just like an idiot, and 20 looks better from a far :D
Which number has the nicest voice?: i'll have to say 18
Which number has made you cry?: hmmmmmmmmmm.
Which number was the last you spoke to?: 18

SOME QUESTIONS
Does number 5 make you laugh?: sometimes
Does number 12 talk dirty?: nopes. lol
Does number 11 scare you?: nah. haha
Does number 16 find you funny?: perhaps?
Does number 19 insult you?: not really. lols
Does number 20 have a crush on you?: no way. haha

SOME QUESTIONS YOU HAVE TO ANSWER ABOUT THEM
who is number 1's crush?: i dunno
How old is number 5?: 15 going on 16
Is number 11 sexy?: yes! hahaha
What county does number 2 live in?: spore
What programmes does number 13 like?: how to not become a roly poly? rofls
What habits does number 5 have?: sleeping, i guess. hahaha
What is 17's favourite number?: every number on earth? hahaha. he loves maths, it seems. lols.

my mom said mr wee took off with my phone. hahaha! but really, it looks like it :/ he wasnt here again today. rahs.

so today. had common test, english and social studies paper. both was alright. yayness. (: although i cant say that i knew how to answer the social studies question, i tried my best! i wrote everything that i memorised. hahaha. kays. during recess anet took my social studies notes and saw all the Ks on the paper. i forgot all about it. then i was like, oh my gawd. and the girls started teasing me. sheesh. and now they call the idiot 8thousand. hahaha. cos there were 8 Ks in all. 8k = 8000. stupid name. lols. but hello. im not obsessed with him! noooo. i was like, drawing his birthday card and i kinda suck at drawing K. so i was doodling on my SS notes. ahs. and kelvin (NOT the poopoo head) was like so cute. cos he seemed so excited when he saw us :D

rahs. then there wasnt much lessons and stuffs. had assembly. performance by the Vietnam students here for some english summer camp. them and their bouncing dance. hahas. after school went behind school for lunch. then went back for choir. ahhhs. surprisingly, i miss choir, quite a lot. learnt the dance for the NDP. ater that, we were free to go while the rest had choir practice. yiyuan was being totally spastic. cos he was like, trying to act out his role in the drama serial showing at the end of the year. and he was trying to do the beatbox, and singing One Night in Beijing :/

after that went causeway point. was shopping for heels. hahs! our dining etiqutte's on 4th August, 4Joy together with 4Humility and 4Integrity. cant wait! (: then shimin bought an outfit at the M shop. lols. kays. shopping next Saturday for clothes! (: and hopefully we'll find some nice heels too, then.

i dunno what the hell i want. im gonna find things to do. BUHHHH BYE.

yes yes. im willing it to last :D helloooo.

im tired of school and tests and thinking about the coming o'levels! rahs. not that ive been having tests. i meant the common test that is like, starting tomorrow, and theres like, effing Social Studies! ewwww. i hate memorising stuffs. i used to like, get average to high marks for these kinda subjects. geography and social studies and blah blah. now my brain is dead and it's so difficult to get it to come alive again. i shouldnt have start slacking in sec two ): and i regret not making an effort to pull myself up in sec three. and now im doomed in sec four >:(

sometimes i get so pissed with myself. i know what i should do, and what i shouldnt do. but i always let my laziness take control ): HELLO! IM SORRY. SOMEBODY TURN BACK THE TIME, PLS?! oh shuacks. perhaps even if somebody turned back the time, i would let my laziness gain control of me all over again. i so dont have self discipline. rahs.

sombody get mr wee to return my phone to me pls. i want to start on the events leading to separation of the Federation of Malaysia already. AHHHS. )):

i think i screwed up fnn too :/

time is passing so fast. i clean forgot that common test starts this friday, which is like the day after tomorrow. social studies is on friday too! ): ahhhs. i hate memorising stuffs can. my brain cant take the load of bullshit. sighs. anyways, pac was okay for once today. had test, and old labia was getting so excited over the fact that i almost got the refreshment trading account right. rofls. and she kept coming over, and i didnt want her to come over and make a big fuss, but i couldnt say much and just had to nod at everything she says.

now come to think of it, ive been a really good student today :D i was attentive throughout, until english and chem lesson, which were like, the last 3 periods of the day. and mind you, its difficult for me to be attentive. im fricking tired today cos ive been sleeping late for the past few nights. oohh. i love the weather recently. so cooling :D makes me pay more attention in school. and anyways, finally. im abstaining from vulgarities. be it the middle finger or the vocal ones. i thought about what the idiot said (he got kinda mortified at seeing the picture of me pointing the middle fingers :/ lololols), and perhaps he's right. ruins my image! hahaha. but i needa get use to it first. hahaha. i was talking just now and a string of crude fugly words just came out without me realising it :/ then just now i was like trying to get the guys to abstain from vulgarities too :D

after school had the fnn thing. then waited for the guys and then home. belch. new name for victor: MOLEY! :D he's an asshole for calling me goldfish and xmas tree. rahs. and even though zongyang's taller than me by that mere 1 cm, i still feel im taller :D but whatever. im satisfied with my height now. teehees.

kays. i dont want common test! im exhausted but happy today. (:

i thought today's lessons were gonna get so boring, that i didnt even want to wake up for school :/ it turned out alright, except for pac and chem lessons, i guess. had free periods cos mr tan didnt come. anet was alsp throughout, so i had to look for the guys for entertainment :D omfg. they talked about the grossest stuffs. hahaha. very very gross. then i started plucking eugene goh's white hair, and the rest started plucking too. hahaha. then he kept biting me :/ sheesh. he bit four times, effing pain, and i only managed to bite once, and only managed to catch the sleeve. and he slapped me on my face. rahrahrahs.

pac lesson was started by lecture from the old labia in the parade square. i bet only a few of the people were listening. lols. then went back to class and i started carving myself out of boredom :/ ohwell. i aint self mutilating lar :D after that got sent out of the class for the third time cos we didnt do homework again :D

chinese period was spent reading and buffing nails for my boyfriend whom im about to breakup with haha! english was spent bitching with the girls. -big big grins- hahahaha. chem was spent sleeping. and mr wee was gone after school again as usual. so there goes my chance of getting my phone back again :/ sighs. im so sick of it already can. tsk. went tpy after school. bought a belt with lowshimin :D then had lunch and went library. laughed our asses off (: oh oh. and i borrowed chinese books! shimin says everyone is gonna be so surprise. rofls.

kays. im blogging about super random stuffs. sighs. i get so pissed at myself for getting pissed at nothing always. rahs. anyway im so looking forward to shopping for the dining etiquette stuffs :D and and and, i really want to watch Pirates of the Caribbean soon! (:

ps/ POLLY is the word for PRISCILLA in the olden days. so yes. go ahead. call ahmah polly. oh i didnt just say that :D
buhbye.

idiot.(:

yes yes, happy 16th birthday to my baobeii ANET CHEAN (or perhaps i should say net net xD), the hyperactive one :D

cam whored lots today! loving it, but i look stupid in every single photo, cos today i didnt bother to look nice. seriously. and i love these two the best:

look, thats pose 1,2,3,4,5,5,4,3,2,1 :D
ive got a gigantic mouth, dont i? and bloody hell slanted shoulders. i also have got a beautiful smile and pose in the 2nd picture :D oh, and i love kailing's middle fingers. i love mine too:

kailing has hers up phebe's nose. rofls. we had the nice and friendly water parade, where everyone got drenched in the end, and the canteen got effing wet too. the security guard came to lecture us and we had to stop :/ we had tries pretending to be lesbos:


we love each other alot, you see (: but ahmah shows her love for anet in a very different way:

ahmah = evil grandmama
oh, and i love this photo too:

hahaha. cos everyone in the photo has got a stupid expression on except for me! :DDD oh my gawd. im so gonna get killed for posting this photo up. ROFLLLLLLL (x kays. blogger really sucks. cos they dont allow more than 10 photos per post. so all in all, i'll have to say:

:DDD

ive uploaded the rest of the photos into a CD-R. so if you people want, come and get it from me :D i'll try to upload the videos next. i love the candles which cant be blown up! so hilarious. hahaha.

ohkays. shant talk about my oral cos i screwed it up :/ and yusong is sucha nice gor. he gave me 15bucks to buy the necklace for my present. i didnt call him gor for nothing xP and he's so nice to talk to too. teehees. school tomorrow! i bet the idiot's aslp. i was supposed to send him some song. ahhs pig. i did a bit of maths just now! -clapsclapsclaps!- (: i hope i can get my phone tomorrow (:

i so want to watch Pirates of the Caribbean - Dead Man's Chest. (:

ohkays. im sorry to say i didnt do anything today. i did nothing at all. absolutely zero. i dont even know how i spent the day away :/ omg. i think i need someone to supervise me and everything. sheesh.

chinese oral tomorrow! im screaming inside: i want to get my phone back! -roll eyes a thousand million times- but i cant, unless mr wee is still in school after i have my oral. gah >:( oh. and i think rolling my eyes on blog is so fun. -roll eyes somemore- ROFLs. im going bonkers.

im having some mood swing problem today. i get all smiley and happy, and the next moment im all pissed and about to bite my brother's head off. hmm. i wonder what's wrong. although i dont watch the soccer thing, i hope Italy will win. hahaha (:

Same Script, Different Cast
whitney houston feat. deborah cox

[SPOKEN]

[Whitney:] Um? Hey Deb.
[Deborah Cox:] Mmm hmm?
[WH:] Thank you for being woman enough to come.
[DC:] Whitney, what's this about?

[SUNG]

[WH:] I know he's
leaving me for you.
[DC:] Who said that? Who told you that it's true?

[WH:]
What is he tellin' you?
Could it be the same things that
he told me?

[DC:] He told me that he loved me.
[WH:] I heard that.
[DC:] He told me I was (harmony) beautiful. How did you know? How did you
know?
[WH:] Because I played that scene before.

[CHORUS:]
This
is a retake of my life.
I was his star for many nights.
Now the roles
have changed,
And you're the leading lady in his life.
Lights, camera,
now you're on.
Just remember you've been warned.
Enjoy it now, 'cause it
won't last.
Same script, different cast.

[DC:]
What you're
saying could be true.
But how can I take advice from you?

[WH:]
I'm not hating,
But I wish the one before me
Would have warned me
too babe.

[DC:] Don't say no more. La La La La La La La La La
[WH:]
Uncover your ears, girl.
[DC:] I'm not listening. La La La La La La La La La

[WH:]
But I know you hear me.
Maybe my reasons are wrong,
But I know that you believe me.

[CHORUS]

[DC] It's your
fault you didn't love him enough.

[WH:]
That's the problem.
I
loved him too much.
And when you love him
He becomes unattracted to you.

[DC:] Oh no, he's changed and I'll prove you wrong.
[WH:] No you
won't.
[DC:] So go away. Leave us the hell alone! He loves me.
[WH:]
He'll hurt you.
[DC:] He'll stay with me.
[WH:] He'll leave you.
[WH
and DC:] For sure! For sure!

[CHORUS]

[DC:]
This is a retake
of my life.
You were his star for many nights.
But now the roles have
changed.
I'm the leading lady in his life.
Lights, camera, now you're
on.
Just remember you've been warned.
Enjoy it now, 'cause this will
last.
I'm the future, you're his past.

[WH:]
This is a retake of
my life.
I was his star for many nights.
Now the roles have changed,
And you're the leading lady in his life.

[WH and DC:]
Lights,
camera, now you're on.
Just remember you've been warned.

[WH:] Enjoy
it now.
[DC:] Enjoy just now.
[WH:] It won't last.
[DC:] I know it
will last.
[WH and DC:] Same script, different cast.

my dad got into an accident.
his car is fucking screwed.

sheesh.
im having a headache.
my sister's trying to kill a mosquito.
interesting life.
im so bored.

okays. i so want to rip my sister's head off, cos the moment i stepped into the house, she was like saying that i'd better save my stuffs in my thumbdrive cos the computer's going into the stallroom. WHAT THE FUCK CAN. and she told me that in a very gleeful manner. FUCK! FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK. im so effing pissed off. my brother uses the computer too much and he cant control, but why do i have to be punished too? KNNCCB la. faggots.

they'd better not removed the comp or i wont ever feel like going home again. i cant live without it. my gawd. i think people born from 1987 onwards are irritants >>>:( RAHHHHHHHHS. thanks A LOT. my mood has just been dragged down the hill by my 19-turned-91-years-old sister ):

gah. there's the o'level chinese oral on monday ): and i wonder for the gazillion times when the hell will i be able to finally get my phone back from mr wee. im even missing the ringtone now >:( and, my hair's growing out of the short spikes already ): i like ahmah's new hair! though its a bit too short already. sighs. i wanna go layer it somemore.

AHS. at least i didnt have to rot at home today. went to ahmah's house to do some stuffs. learnt how to make the straw hearts. watched Agent Cody Banks. hahaha. then the poopoo head came, and he's effing gross by the way. then had dinner at BK, then home.

dont feel like blogging anymore. im so pissed off la. @#$%^&*(!!!!!!!!!
knnb fuckers.

for whatsoever reason, i was damn nice to the birdface today. i talked properly to him, and when he spoke to me in mandarin (which i think is so, ugh, act close. rofls), i spoke to him back in mandarin too. -roll eyes a thousand million times- now ive got second thoughts about hiring an assassin to murder him. cos im thinking that perhaps the assassin should murder the old labia first, and then i'll slowly consider whether i'll kill the birdface. hahaha. im evil. im plotting against teachers. LOL. oh, and as expected, mr wee didnt come again today. gah. >:(

a whole bunch of us got sent out of class today cos we didnt do pac homework. thats our second time already xD kailing was initially sent out too, but the OL couldnt stand kailing's happiness at coming out, so she sent her in. luckily i kept my emotions within. HAHAHA. anyway kailing and i really look like lesbos together. ahahs.

i love i love! (:
we were released earlier today cos we didnt hafta attend the councillor investiture (thank goodness), but ended up not going Bugis with phebe and shimin cos i didnt had any money with me at all, and i had to get home for dinner, and therefore, will hafta go home myself first, so i didnt want to, and didnt go in the end. LOL. kays so anyway, mood went down the drain. was feeling weird already in the first place. accompanied cheyenne for lunch in school, then kailing went home for tuition while me and anet went khatib mac. the small guy served me again (: hahaha. but this time round he knew what to get already. duh.

went home and felt alright again. the idiot claims that ive got spies everywhere to spy on him. hahaha. ohwells. im off. till later.

today was okay. had a great sleep yesterday, and so even though i slept late, i wasnt tired at all. (: this week has been happy so far, and i wonder how long it'll actually last. hahs. i guess a teenager's life is plagued by hormones, and so, horrible moodswings are unavoidable.

so anyway,
HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY, JOLENE!
and HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY, BRENDA! ((:

FNN cousework B planning was postpone to next Wed. and mr wee didnt come again today. i doubt i'll be able to get back my phone this week >:( rahs. so anyway, birdface still sucks. cant stand him. gah. i doubt the testimonial from him in my report book will be great at year end ): im like, on bad terms with my form teacher and wanna-be-co-form teacher, the old labia. im so dead.

sprang a surprise on jolene today (: celebrated her birthday with her at cwp pizza hut. lololols. and i managed to pour water on her. LOL. but she poured me back, and i poured her again. ROFL. the pizza hut guys were nice. (: hahas. after that walked arnd the mall. we so dislike the 4 kukus! omg. even shimin calls em bitch. LOL. oh, and i broke my mirror. im gonna feel so lost for the next few days, till i get a new one :/ hahaha. and im gonna have bad luck for 7 years. lololols.

anyway, phebe says our dining etiquette is at the first week of August. am soooo looking forward to it (: another excuse to go shopping! :D school's letting us go early tomorrow. guess we'll be accompanying phebe and poo poo head kelvin to Bugis. see, phebe, youve ot sucha great twinaiiaii and girlfriends :DDD i want money to go shopping! rwars.

ohkays. school tomorrow. hopefully mr wee will come and i can get my phone back, but i seriously doubt so. cheer up, lowshimin. we still love you, xoxo (:

The words are devouring me
The same words that one day consoled me
I feel so all alone,
afraid of everybody
So I down myself in
nightmare

I'm alredy so tired
I dont want to be silent

I desire To escape every night
But my shelter is your empty eyes
So I turn
to the sky and claim to the moon
Because it is the one who keep my secrets

But finally,
With strenght of one thousand suns
I crush my pain
hurt by thorns
I get myself around the light to start over
But the words
just dont stop
Shouting in my ears

I say good bye to the word
I say good bye to the silence
But I count the words
The same ones that
devoured me

yes.
im going retarded doing FNN.
ahhs.
anyways, i almost forgot.
EUGENE GOH, HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY!
and again, i shall say,
like he's gonna read my blog. lols.
coursework B starting tomorrow.
sighs.
im so afraid :/
hahaha.
and the weather's so warm it's driving me bonkers.
but i feel loved now (:
even though i know i shouldnt.
and its aint gonna last, that happy feeling.
lols. ohwells. whatever.
FNN! rwars.

school was alright, just that i was a tad too tired, but i seemed to listen in class more today, maybe except for pac. anyways miss cheong seems to have given up on me and kailing. she put us both at the back together today, with cheyenne and anet infront. then she didnt care about us at all, except when she heard us talking in mandarin. and she assumes again. she thought we were talking about other stuffs, but truth was kailing was explaining the goodwill term to me using mandarin, adidas, and northstar. lololols. but whatever. we dont care. and she called joel to teach us instead :D

i like this arrangement. i rather she not bother herself with us at all. for once, i didnt feel like sleeping during pac, cos we were doing and gossiping at the same time (: birdface made me dislike him even more today. ahhs. if ive got money, the first thing i'll do is to hire an assassin to murder birdface, and maybe followed by old labia. *evil laughters*

was really high before geog lessons today. had piggybacking catfight with lydia on yuenchen and me on anet. hahaha (: then mr lau was being really cute. hahaha. he called yusong 'babyyyy'. LOL. and he refer to cows as moos. so cute can. haha (: hmm after school went buddy hoagies. guess i was kinda really tired. lols. cos didnt feel like talking much though im a really happy girl today. hahaha (: and kelvin the poopoo head is like irritating la. he's the poopoo head and yet he calls me poopoo head. GAH.

had a small nap just now and woke up whoozy. had weird dream :/ perhaps i'll have a nice sleep today. i think the idiot feels bad about me having to stay up till 3. ahahs. but at least there wasnt any silence in the conversation yesterday. lololols. and the comp is stupid lars. the animated testimonial i added for him turn out so small. TSK. nvm, since its the first one ive ever made. lololols.

kays. i dowan to go school tmr. rofls.

today's so boring. i hate school now, and i used to love school so much :/ sighs. mr wee didnt come today, so there goes my chance again to get back my phone ): and miss cheong was being unreasonable again. i shall abstain from vulgarities presently. but really! she was soooo unreasonable. and now, shes moving me to the front, perhaps because im not all meek and obeying when she scolds me. HELLO. I WASNT AT FAULT. why should i lower my head like some fucking loser?

she claimed that i talked back to her. i didnt. i just answered her question. it might not be the answer she wants, but she was the one who demanded an answer from me and i just gave MY answer. if she wants the model answer, why not she just go to the mirror, ask the question, and answer it herself? and i wasnt even talking. i just happened to be telling Zhixuan 'mei you', and she happened to turn around and start assuming that we were the one making noises in class. i dont think im at fault at all. she claims we dont respect her. but ive been taught, that to respect one, they must respect us first. i dont think teachers have the privilege to gain respect without giving respect. not that im saying she doesnt respect us. perhaps she does, but she should stop assuming and scolding us without knowing first the real reason. she assumes too much.

then had chinese lessons. kailing got kicked out of the class, and i was trying to get soon lao lao to kick me out of the class too. he refused. hahaha. then he kept threatening to get mr wee up to scold us or something, then he finally did and he came back telling us that mr wee was in 1 agape, caning some student. HAHAHA. i thought teachers werent supposed to tell lies? mr wee wasnt even in school. ROFL. then mrs andrews didnt come to class for chem today. some mr fatherly or motherly guy came, and i guess joel dislike him so much he decided to give him the attitude, and in the end, he was asked to stay back. lololols. but i dont think he gives a damn. weve got a damn cool chairman hahaha.

kays. after school went town with brenda. had Gelare waffle ice cream ((: then met yuenchen and her hubby. lololols. walked around. i didnt know that one could shop so long in Fareast. hahaha. and theres this new shop which sells Converse Chuck Taylors at damn cheap prices, so might be going back with yuenchen to get the shoes. bought a pair of really cute pink polka dots earrings. didnt know whether is should buy initially, but decided to in the end cos it was the last pair. hahaha. then i was saying i just wasted another 5 bucks. rahs. we kept going into shoes shops cos brenda's obsessed with heels. haha. then i couldnt decide what to buy, cos i didnt want heels, so in the end bought a pair of shorts (:

hahs. im gonna study already. more chemistry! but now, im so turned off by pac. @%^#*^$

hahaha

retard of the day (i dont mean myself):

i guess we get a little too bored sometimes. he got the saint from my nick: saints and liars. DUH. he aint a saint at all. not even close. ROFL.

today sucked, my day to wallow in self misery, to think about why my life gets so pathetic till im mopping the floor at home when im supposed to be out having fun. sec4 life sucks. no one wants to get out and play anymore, and i know, ive gotta settle down too already. ive gotta stop thinking about going out and blah blah blah already.i did somemore Chem today. not alot, but i guess better than nothing. sihao reminded me that there's a PAC test tomorrow, and ive decided not to care about it. no point studying for it when i know im still gonna fail >:(

went Compasspoint with my mom and sis. i think im not getting a hamster after all. >:( sighs. i hate it when adults control my life. AHHHHS. at least i managed to buy a black halter today. oh, and i realise gerald's okay to talk to (: school tomorrow. im dreading it. and im having a effing pimple outbreak. gahhhh. i want my phone back :/

i found this song in my folder. hahs. and i remember i used to love singing it to anet last year. it so remind me of... xiaoren. hahaha. ohwells.

Underneath This Smile, Hilary Duff
What I'm standing on is sinking in
And I don't have a clue how to get off of it
But when I look at you there is hope
It's like you see the sadness in my eyes
You read the blue between the lines
You could be the one to hold me when I wanna cry

Underneath this smile
My world is slowly caving in
All the while I'm hanging on
Cause that is all I know
Could you be the one to save me from every bad habit that has helped me dig
this hole?
I've been hiding out for miles
Underneath this smile

I have walked this earth with broken bones
I've been keeping secrets under all these lights
But when you're around my defenses go
You don't let me run away from you
You don't let me twist and turn the truth
It feels as if I'm naked when you're standing in the room

Underneath this smile
My world is slowly caving in
All the while I'm hanging on instead of letting go
Could you be the one to save me from every bad habit that has helped me dig
this hole?
I've been hiding out too long
Underneath this smile
Underneath this smile
Oh, yeah

Underneath this smile
My world is slowly caving in
All the while I'm hanging on instead of letting go
Could you be the one to save me from every bad habit that has helped me dig
this hole? Underneath this smile
Could you be the one to save me from every bad habit that has helped me dig
this hole?
I've been hiding out for miles
Underneath this
Underneath this
Underneath this smile

What I'm standing on is sinking in

bloody hell blogger. it erased everything i wrote. fortunately, its only a short entry.

today's time wasnt spent wisely, i admit. but i did try. i sat at my table, tried to study, but ended up not really knowing what i should do. but at least i did a teeny weeny bit of notes for Chem :/ anyways, im so effing excited about getting a hamster again. gawd knows why. hahaha (: oh, and im still thinking about the nice Adidas jacket that i'll never get ): my sister says she will get me the red Pony bag if i manage to get A for my next Chem test, which is better off as not said, cos it's so not gonna happen.

will be going town with the girls tomorrow. im still kinda tired of going town, though i used to love it there so much. but weve gotta go there and take photos for our eng assignment, the fashion magazine, for the sake of our dear miss yeo (: then we'll maybe catch a movie or something. prolly. we'll see.

im gonna save up to buy the hamster stuffs. hahaha (: oh, and the weather's so hot, the walls are emitting heat. but i couldnt care less, cos today, im a happy happy girl (: but im still pissed off with the fact that the idiot's the reason im happy. rawrs.

new template up, bright and cheery, loving it (: went Yishun Safra today to meet up with cheyenne shimin and ahmah. i arrived just in time to see them finish one game of pool. then min and cheyenne bowled while me and ahmah watched. then we played pool. my first time! haha. wasnt very good at it. went to the arcade next, and cheyenne left. tried almost all the music stuffs. haha. after that we went down to the lobby and realise that there wasnt anything to do, so they insisted that we go up again and have another game of pool or something. ended up playing 2 games. and there was these two chinchows there who were sooooo effing irritating. rahs.

ohkays. after that went NorthPoint for dinner. saw shawn tay and caleb. ahahaha. shawn tay looks fricking weird now :/ and thats an understatement. LOL. fine whatever. its none of my business. changed the batt of my watch already, so its working again (: and i saw this effing nice green Adidas jacket. MY GAWD. damn nice. love at first sight. sighs. pity my birthday's over already. ROFL. i doubt i can ever get that jacket. sighhhhhs ): then went around the mall to help ahmah look for her body scrub. lololols. bought a facial mask. ive been having pimple breakouts! fugly, and i refuse to listen to the idiot's theory of not shitting regularly. HAHA. he's bloody gross. i shall drink more water and refrain from consuming heaty food (:

i dont like hearing about couples breaking up. i think it's damn saddening. anyways, people think im skinny. kelvin the poopoo head added me a testimonial saying: she is very SKINNY i believe tat when there is a storm wheww off she goes flyin in da air ba.. =P
hahahahaha. but truth is, im not skinny already. i hate my weight ): gah.

im back to my old self again. im fricking happy to know so many people care ♥

Tearjerker, Korn

Well I wish there was someone
Well I wish there was someone
To love me

When I used to be someone
And I knew there was someone
That loved me

As I sit here frozen alone
Even ghosts get tired and go home
As they crawl back under the stones

And I wish there was something
Please tell me there's something better
And I wish there was something more than this
Saturated loneliness

And I wish I could feel it
And I wish I could steal it
Abduct it, corrupt it, but I never can
it's just saturated loneliness

Does the silence get lonely?
Does the silence get lonely?
Who knows?
I've been hearing it tell me
I've been hearing it tell me
Go home

Cause the freaks are playing tonight
They packed up and turned out the lights

And I wish there was something
Please tell me there's something better
And I wish there was something more than this
Saturated loneliness

And I wish I could feel it
And I wish I could steal it
Abduct it, corrupt it, but I never can
It's just saturated loneliness

And the bath waters cold
And this life's getting old

And I wish I could feel it
And I wish I could feel it
And I wish I could steal it
Abduct it, corrupt it
And I wish I could feel it
And I wish I could steal it
And I wish I could feel it
Abduct it, corrupt it
But I never can I never can
Never Can
Never Can
Never Can