i didnt want to blog at first. but i couldnt resist. shit, im addicted. hahaaaaa.

been stoning and sleeping today. only managed to finish the singapore education part of the ss thingy. mumie tooter. damn difficult to memorise la ): im still left with so many things. sighs. damn bad. anyways, there's these inner voices telling me what to do, something like the angel and devil. hahaaa. drama mama ehs? rofl. so anyway, one's telling me that i dont have much time left already and that ive to buck up and study hard, while the other one's telling me that i still have time left. hahaaaa. i listen to half of each :D

and i tell you im completely wasting my time away. im gonna listen to the angel. seriously. no more procrastinating. hmm. come to think of it again, ive been saying that since dunno how many years ago. LOL. okays. im off.

audition's screwed. cant login ): rwahs.

i hate staying at home, like seriously. its damn great how the women in the family can always make my mood turns from really good to very bad. fuck. i tried my best to be nice. whenever i get hollered at for whatsoever fuckshit, i'll just swallow my anger. i'll always think, yea, its partly my fault too. i put myself in their shoes. i tell myself i'll react in that way too if i were them. but i just realised. no one ever tried to put themselves in my shoes. life's a bitch.

rahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhs. if the o's over by now, i'll be out of the house.

i still dont feel better after ranting. it's so sad, that the people who makes you unhappy are always the people whom you love. see, i said life's a fucking bitch.

yay my blogger's back to normal already :D

so anyways, im sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo sick of studying already. oh whatever. 6 more days to the start of the end! everything will pass fast, i believe. shopped for apples just now with lowshimin. aint no easy task ehs. theres so many lan ping guo. rofl. kay. tomorrow wont be going down buddy. so i shall stay at home and do ss. i just hope that for once, i'll be able to study at home. im so hyperactive, you know. hahaaaa.

im happy cos two people just boosted my ego! :D and cats arent bugs la. stupid. fine im being really random. off to audition with poopoo head! it's been long since i last played. heh. buhbyeeeee(:

thats one reason why i love photoshop to death. i forgot to draw lowshimin's ear anyway. HAHAHAA.

phs open house this year sucks. nothing much and the cca displays were kinda crap. but still, i miss the schooooool :D and i miss choir (:

so anyways, went behind the school for lunch and we went over to CWP. walked around and i finally found something which fits me haha. but still, its kinda normal looking but whatever. went over to BK and did mathhhhhhh. rahs. i hate graphs and all the stupid shapes. pttf =X

so phebe came and join us and we walked around a bit before we headed home. saw zhenting and his gf. its kinda like, saddening that he became what he once said was 'not good'. hmms. but whatever. he likes it, that kinda, well, unhealthy life. well, kinda. lols.

it's like, shit ass. cos the skin i uploaded yesterday, i accidentally set it to be on blogger archive mode which i dont really know what the fuck it is, but its aint like the normal thingy you download from blogskins, and i dont really know whether i should reupload it or something. OH nevermind. sheesh.

anyways, miracle happened today. my sister passed her driving test. like, what the hell. you can see singapore snowing already tomorrow, like, seriously. hahaaaa. okays im off already.

i woke up at 12 today, and i still felt tired for like, the rest of the day. couldnt sleep last night. as i told lowshimin, i think im turning into a vampire. hahaha. ): its bad really, like, im tired but i cant get to sleep at night, and im so lethargic during the day. rahhhs. hopefully i can get to sleep tonight and i'll be wide and awake and ready for intensive study tomorrow. rofl.

i want new phone! i shall bug my dad for a pink z610i after the exams :D:D:D but whether i'll be able to get it or not is another different story altogether. ugh.

AHHHH laopop has got a job for me which pays like, quite a lot per hour i think! but theyre like, recruiting now and i cant cos theres the bloody o's! #$%^&*(! screw the exams. i need money. rofl. kays pray hard that i'll be able to get a good paying job after the exams cos seriously, i need money. i wanna settle all my debts and buy lottsa stuffs :D this has been on my mind the whole of today, well, besides all the other crap stuffs.

staying at home with nothing to do does not do good to people who think alot. pttf. ohwells. mcr mcr mcr roooocks (:

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH I FOUND MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE'S NEW SONGS YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY :D their new albums effing nice la ((:

okays so anyway i cant stay at home to study, like seriously, cos i wasted today away >>:( tomorrow's out at the cafe for intensive studying for me :D intensive intensive! otherwise i'll go to school.

oh and yuenchen's going crazy cos im listening to the songs now and she cant. teeheees. alrights im off. buhhhhbyeeeeee.

MCR - Teenagers
They're gonna clean up your looks
With all the lies in the books
To make a citizen out of you
Because they sleep with a gun
And keep an eye on you, son
So they can watch all the things you do

Because the drugs never work
They gonna give you a smirk
'Cause they got methods of keeping you clean
They gonna rip up your heads,
Your aspirations to shreds
Another cog in the murder machine

They say that teenagers scare the living shit out of me
They could care less as long as someone will bleed
So darken your clothes or strike a violent pose
Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me

The boys and girls in the clique
The awful names that they stick
You're never gonna fit in much, kid
But if you're troubled and hurt
What you got under your shirt
We'll make them pay for the things that they did

They say that teenagers scare the living shit out of me
They could care less as long as someone will bleed
So darken your clothes or strike a violent pose
Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me
Ohhh yeah!

They say that teenagers scare the living shit out of me
They could care less as long as someone will bleed
So darken your clothes or strike a violent pose
Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me

All together now!

Teenagers scare the living shit out of me
They could care less as long as someone will bleed
So darken your clothes or strike a violent pose
Maybe they'll leave you alone,
but not me[x2]

HEYYYYLO.

my sister was one bitch yesterday. rahs. the idiot called as usual and she started yapping away and all. made me soooooooo embarrased. but at least he understood, cos apparently, his sister has that kinda behavior too. but still, i feel so sorry cos i think he got kinda embarrased too. like, wtf can. sheesh. i wonder whats wrong with those 19, 20 something years old people who act like they're 50. im so not gonna be like that in 3 years time. like i would give a toot about what my bro do. okays maybe i will, but not so much la. he'd think that im fucked up, like, seriously.

kay i know she cares. but, whatever. i dont like the way she cares.

group studying today at buddyhoagies again. weihan joined us today too. plus xiuanpin and victor. yay. did quite a lot :D well, hopefully our papers this year will be easy. if the difficulty level arranged changes from high to low every alternate year, we're so dead cos it will be our turn for difficult papers. #$%^&*(! so we should pray hard that they dont set the papers according to some annual pattern shit. so, yea.

anyways, well. i know im kinda crude. but obviously im no girly girl who goes, "omg you just said the F word!", and i doubt i'll ever become like that. the most i'll do is to refrain the words from coming out verbally, and even so, it's not for you whom i did it for. so, there, you sefish jerk. i think im already better as compared to how i was perhaps a few months ago. i like myself just like that. yay :D

i believe that people like their friends or boyfriends or girlfriends, or whatsoever relationship they have with that person, just for the way they are :D ohhhkays. im done here already. if i dont have anything to blog about, i doubt i'll be blogging. cos it's kinda stupid to hafta think of something to write. hahaha. yepp.

went down to bishan today and realised that the people didnt want to come down already or something like that >>:( dont exactly know what happened. but talking about certain very very good friend of ours certainly piss people off. wasted time. rwars. met ahmah and we went back to khatib cos coffeebean was bloody full. buddyhoagies is still the best (:

kays did chemistry. im still really really bad at it. rahs. so anyway, aint baby faith cuuuuute? :D hahaha.

i know i aint supposed to do this now...... but i did! xD yay new template. hahaha. and i love glittersniffer's graphics and everything. OKAYS. chemistry now. seriously.

by the way, watch the video below. buhbyeeeeeee :D

RAHS! my track shoes got stolen by some fucktard. he also took my sister's nike tracks. what the fuck. knnbccb laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa @#$%^&*(! on a brighter note, maybe i'll be able to get new shoes :D but that pair had been with me through soooooo many events la, and no other new shoes can replace that. UGH. fucking faggot. i think the culprit's that bangala guy who cleans the corridor. pttf. may his hands develop fungus and rot till he has to have them amputated la >>:(

today's been boring. i want new template. sheesh.

11 LAYERS OF YOU


LAYER ONE: ON THE OUTSIDE
Name: eve lim y
h
Birth date: 29may1990
Current Location: homeeeeee
Eye Color: brown
Hair Color: damn black (x
Righty or Lefty: righty
Zodiac Sign: horse


LAYER TWO: ON THE
INSIDE
Your heritage: cheeeenaish :D
Your fears: flying insects
hahaha
Your weakness: im effing fickle
Your perfect pizza: lotssa
cheese ham and pineapples (:
Your Ambition: I DUNNO LA.


LAYER
THREE: :YESTERDAY TODAY TOMORROW
Your thoughts first waking up: why the fuck
is the upstairs people drilling at this time of the day la
Your best physical
feature: i like my teeny weeny ears :D
Your bedtime: 1 am
Your most missed memory: year 2004
(:


LAYER FOUR: YOUR PICK
Pepsi or Coke: coke
McDonald's or
Burger King: BK :D
Single or group dates: group


Adidas or Nike:
adidas
Lipton Tea or Nestea: whatever
Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate
(:
Cappuccino or coffee: cappuccino


LAYER FIVE: DO YOU?
Smoke:
nahhh
Take a shower: DUH
Have a crush: not really
Think you've been in
love: naw :D
Want to get married: in future yesyesyes :D
Believe in yourself: hurh.
Think you're a health freak: nawwww

LAYER SIX: IN THE PAST
MONTH
Drank alcohol: nopes
Gone to the mall: yeaaa
Been on stage:
stage? hmm. i forgot!
Eaten Sushi: doubt so
Been dumped: nopes
Gone
skating: nahh
Dyed your hair: nahhh


LAYER SEVEN: HAVE YOU
EVER
Played a stripping game: kinda. rofl
Gotten beaten up: yeaaaaa.
HAHA
Changed who you were to fit in: no wayyy

LAYER EIGHT: GETTING
OLD
Age your hoping to be married: 23? HAHS.


LAYER NINE: IN
GIRL/IN GUY
Best eye color: brown
Best hair color: anything that suits
him (:
Short or long hair: short i guess


LAYER TEN: WHAT WERE YOU
DOING
1 MINUTE AGO: answering the above questions
1 HOUR AGO: lazing on
the bed :D
1 DAY AGO: watching Death Note in the theatre :D
1 YEAR AGO:
like i'd know. SHEESH


LAYER 11: FINISH THE SENTENCE
I LOVE: 2904
(:
I FEEL: #$%^&*(!
I HATE: exams la!
I HIDE: my report book.
hahaha
I MISS: lalala
I NEED: entertainment (:

Dream Guy Survey for The Bored. hahahaaaa.

Hair Color: anything that suits him
Eye Color: brown? (:
Height: taller
Six Pack?: preferably :D
Facial Hair: hahaha naw
Long or Short Hair: short actually, but anything that looks good on him will do
Glasses: doesnt matter
Piercings: yeaaaaa. not too much though
Tatoos: wouldnt mind. not too much too, though
Scars: not huge ones on the face
Big Bushy Eyebrows or Straight Hairs: straight?
Chest Hair: ewww noooo
Buff or Skinny: whatever, not too buff though. lol
Straight Teeth, Gap, or Braces: nothing too gross (:

Personality: understanding, caring, supportive, sensitive though not overly, SWEEEEEEET (:
Funny or Serious: funny, but know when to be serious
Party boy or Stay at home: 1/3 stay home 2/3 party boy
Should he cook?: why not :D
Should he have a best friend?: it's up to him
Should he have a lotta girlfriends: if i trust him, yea, why not (:
Outgoing or Shy: outgoing
Sarcastic or Sincere: sincere
Should he love his mother?: duhh
Should he watch chick flicks: whatever he likes
Phone/person?: both? :D
Would he be a smoker: wouldnt mind, but better not
Would he drink?: not all the time la
Would he swear: not too much
One or more girls at a time: no fucking way i'll share my bf. rofl
Call you hunny, sweety, baby etc.?: yea thats sweet (:
Would he pay for dates: perhaps for 2/3 of all the dates. hahaha
Does he kiss on the first date: a peck the most i guess.
Where would you go to dinner: anywhere
Bring you flowers: on special days yea (:
Write poetry about you?: uh, not too much? lols
Would he hang out with you and YOUR friends: yepp sure
Would you hang out with him and HIS friends: guess so
When he hugs you, where are his arms: i dunno. doubt i'd like em on my ass though HAHA
Will he walk you to the door at the end?: yepp (:
Holding Hands: yupps
Hugging Quickly?: hmm sure
Short, Sweet Kisses: sweeeeeet(:
Neck Kissing: uh not really? lol
Forehead Kissing: yeaa

Would he Play...
Soccer: yupps
Baseball: whatever
Basketball: yeaaaaaa :D
Lacrosse: naw
Water Polo: anything
Surf: anything
Skateboard: thats cool (:
Snowboard: lets find snow in spore first

Does he..
Sing?: why not
Play Guitar: preferably (:
Play Piano: hmm. why not (:
Play Drums: thats cool
Clean his room: uh guess so
Paint, Draw, Sculpt: draw
Writes His Own Music: why not.
Think's Justin Timberlake is Gay: haha whatever
Calls Other Guys: why not. lols.
Boxers or briefs: boxers (:
Use the word dude: thats cool (:

ohhhkays whatever. rwars.

went over to woodlands today for group study. bought tickets for Death Note (: library wasnt opened because it's deepavaliiiiiii >:( rwars. so we went over to BK. did math again. packed up at around 4 and we went to buy titbits (:

Death Note's a damn nice movie la :D and Kenichi Matsuyama who acts as L in the show's damn cute. he's the one biting the finger in the picture. hahahaaa. so we were saying, movie marathon after examination! (: i wanna watch The Covenant. think it's gonna be a damn nice movie with lotssa eyecandies. teehees (x and and and, of cos, Material Girls :D i want watch The Grudge too. 'nuff said. now for the major examinations. heh.

ohhh. today i realised that my blog song's sang by a cheena guy. hahaha. but his songs are rather nice la (: anyways, i totally dislike most of the kids who hang out at the bball court near my house. well, most of em act like total babarians most of the time. fucking retards.

kays. reading up on chemistry later. im kinda tired today though. lols. so, yupps (: by the way, sony ericsson Z610i is fucking pretty too :D the pink one, or rather, the maroon one's damn nice. i'll wait for the price to drop laaaa. ohhkays. 16 more days to the start of the last lap. goodbye (:

screams! eheh.
studied with lowshimin at buddyhoagies today and the js guy was there tooooo :D kay thats so whatever. hahaha. did quite a lot of math (: will be watching Death Note with neoahmah and lowshimin tomorrow after group studying at the cafe. absolute waste of time and money, but still, (:

i check out k850i on the internet. damn bloody eyecandy :D i want i want i want! teehees. ahmao wants the white one i think, but i think i'll get the black one (provided that i can get it. rahhhhhs) cos critics on the net says that the white colour will fade. hmm. the black one's pretty too (:

ohhhkays. i wanted to make a new template just now, but after an hour search of the perfect picture, there wasnt any much results. so i give up. wait till i feel like wasting time will i then try to make a new template. rofl.

oh by the way, something funny happened. both shimins are down with the same flu symptoms. hahahaaaaaa. like, effing hilarious. lowshimin will get it, i think. ahahs. hmmfs. all of a sudden i wish my phone can be silent for the whole day. uhh. not including sound alerts made by calls from the idiot and texts from the girls la. the rest can banish themselves out from Earth for all i care :D yay im evil.

too much aint too good sometimes. alright. im off already. i think i'll read up on chemistry later. pttf. i love science i love science i love science i love science i love science i love science i love science i love science i love science i love science i love science i love science i love science i love science i love science. forget it. i copy-and-pasted that. sheesh.

grad service @ chapel (:
(:
kays the O'level science practical examination was easier than prelims, and i think i'll get higher marks for it, but i think the most i'll get is just a lil more than the passing grade ):

tried to sleep earlier last night but i couldnt sleep at all. like, what the hell. managed to wake up at 5.40am feeling effing tired. my eyebags are getting worse ): after practical we went over to J8. had lunch, then walked around. sheesh. theres like, so many things i wanna buy. i think im gonna pay em all by myself, so i'll have to wait till i get a job or something.

i shall work for a new camera, hopefully an all-weathered one or better yet, water-proof, which need not look pretty but has all the functions, and i want a mp3. i want a new phone too, but hopefully i'll be able to get my dad to pay for that. teehees. oh, and i want more shopping for new clothes, which means i need more cash. pttf. shant talk about that now already :/

so anyway we went down to coffee bean for a lil bit of group studying before leaving. shared the tiramisu in a cup with the losaaar :D its okay, just that there aint any alcohol taste at all which makes it not as nice. it was like, freezing cold there. so left with min after doing a bit of physics, and we were talking about how dumb guys were cos they never seem to get it. and nothing has got to do with luck, cos its all down to them actually, not luck or whatsoever. but somehow, they always seem to screw things up for themselves and the girls end up having to feel guilty kinda for nothing. ugh whatever. rofl.

so anyway, saw junwei and yiling on the way home. like, omg la. so damn long never see junwei already. and i think his voice's really cuuute. HAHA. he thinks i changed a lot. i think he didnt change much. lololols. kay whatever. tomorrow will be down at the cafe for group studying again. its better for me (: and and and, hopefully that js guy will be there. hahahaaaa. nah im just kidding (x

okays im effing tired today. jbsafbyedb. anyway, the below is a nice song. click HERE to listen. lol.

scrap that previous post when i said im like, not gonna blog on a frequnt basis because im still blogging everyday. hahaaaa. kay whatever. i'll blog as long as im coming online, unless ive got nth at all to blog about, which is like, close to never.

hmm. so went back to school today to give my FNN. yay. doubt i'll be seeing that pile of paper anymore. well, at least not for the rest of this year or something :D saw miss haq! :D she's back from maternity leave, i think. so it's great. it just seems like she has been pregnant for damn long. HAHA. kay whatever.

went to buddyhoagiescafe with yuenchen and met min. did math (: today's session was rather constructive cos i guess i can manage vectors now. ugh. i suck in math. pttf. ohhh. and that really cute guy was there. that one whom anet used to refer to as edwin last time when we played basketball at the khatib court. i used to think he was ugly. but ive changed my mind, i think. ROFL. min even found out his name hahahaaaa.

kays. it's the science o'level practical tomorrow. omfg. hafta reach school at 7am and we get to leave at only 1pm, i think. rahs. it's so stupid cos we hafta wait till everyone finishes their exam. pttf. i think i shant answer the phone today. i need an early night. WELL. at least earlier than my usual 2am. sighs whatever.

kays im off already. pray hard for me tomorrow cos im so afraid i'll screw the whole thing up again. and i shant break my test tube or spill the powder or do anything stupid like that. hurhhhh.

[edit]
omg. i found that guy's friendster. HAHAHA. sheesh. now i sound like some effing stalker. rofl.

hello. quick blog before i goes off to continue my !#$%^&* FNN which is so #^*)^#tsadfbji. RWARRS. ive edited it so many gazillion times already and till now, im still editing. W. T. F. >>:( morever, it's not as if im gonna get really good grades for it. afrose says it's difficult to get As. and i was like, what the hell, cos FNN's one of the few subjects im hoping i'll get at an A for. (fine. maybe compared to ahmah's coursework, i might as well just dump mine into the sea. hawhaw.) now, i think the most i'll get is an effing B4 or something, after what afrose said. ugh.

so, went back to school to get the effing few pieces of FNN coursework. fine. aint few pieces. around 50++ with the addition of coursework B. called yuenchen out and we went over to J8's coffee bean to, uhm, study, which i didnt really did at all. cos it was damn cold there and i didnt want to do accounts, which was like, the only thing i had with me besides my fnn. pttf. so anyway, group studying tomorrow again, that is, after thr trip back to school to hand in the fnn. prolly at BuddyHoagies. im gonna do math or science i think.

pttf. 20 days down to the big O's. UGH.

thats baby faith with her new red with white polka dots hairband. pretty. HAHA. i think shes a future vainpot la xD i did chemistry today (: sheesh. hafta go back to school tomorrow to get back my FNN coursework for more editing. rahs. i think i'll do physics tomorrow. science practical exams on thurs. omfg so fast. i hate practical. ohkays whatever. it's the o's already. chiong finish and say hello to all the fun (:

today's effing boring ):

i wonder if i made the wrong choice, but still.. OH WHATEVER. someone should screw my head in. hmm. the phone's silent today. thats great. cos i think the bill this month is gonna cost a bomb. i overused last month's sms by around 500 more. cant imagine it. i sent 900 over texts. its aint normal for me la. and i think this month's gonna be worse :/ ohwells. i want a new phone, but the father is #^(%^!$%@ about spending money. rahs.

was on the phone with the idiot till 3am in the morning. the phone calls are coming in later and later. hmmfs. now i cant get to sleep until it's 1.30 or around that. sheesh. but nevermind, cos i think with this late-sleeping habit, i can burn midnight oil effortlessly in the next few weeks :D

ohhh. and i watched the cd-r which came with the farewell card from the HPT juniors yesterday. kays i missed camps and all >>:/ i think i'll miss phs alot alot (: i'll miss hpt and i'll miss the choir. yay. oh anyway, we need tickets for the concert on 30nov (:

needa get to chemistry. i havent started revision on it yet. sighs. im looking forward to life after the effing big O's. late nights out, steamboats, concerts and all :D oh, and jobs too ): i need extra income. rofl. and i wanna go suntanning!!!!!!!!!!! which reminds me, i wanna save up to buy that polka dot bikini i saw laaaaa :/ oh nevermind. why buy something i already have. sheesh. lol.

okays. shall be online later in the night to post up one last blogskin on sweetmisery;; before i go on a hiatus there. by the way, i doubt i'll be blogging on a daily basis after this, cos exams are like, in a few weeks time and my prelim results are like, fucked. well. except for Chinese perhaps (: im gonna do it again. shock everyone with A2s again. hahaaaaa. i think i'll have to work like mad for that :/ gahhhhhh.

ohhkays. HAPPY BIRTHDAY YUXUAN AND BOULDER. yea. thats about it for today. goodbye.

WAHLIAOS.

look at these two motherfuckers mumie tooters:


eff la. okays. the one who called himself/herself a fucker still nevermind. he/she can call himself/herself whatever he/she wants. but whats with that guy naming himself 'i love to fuck eve'?! knnb la. people around are getting more and more absurd nowadays. that guy should just go -sensored- and bang the wall since he has got nothing better to do than to change his name to such a yucks-im-telling-everyone-im-a-dick kinda name. SHEESH.

hey. photos are on the way to shutterfly. im so sorry for the delay (: so anyway, yesterday night thanks to ANET CHEAN THE LOSAAAR WHO FOR ONCE AINT A LOSAAAR! :D like, thanks for being there the moment i needed someone (:

problem solved/unsolved i aint sure yet. but still, the msn nick wrenched my heart ): wonders if its referring to... im like, sorry. i feel effing guilty and the feeling alone is enough to make me feel like crying ): i never meant for things to turn out this way ): blame myself for being so indecisive and all ): rahs.

couldnt concentrate at all today, kept wanting to get out of the damn house. so i did. met up with min and ahmah at CWP. wanted to go down to town, but it was like, uber late already. walked around, then the both em wanted to eat seoul garden for dinner. it's like, damn ex la! =X 25bucks per person. so min was like saying she'd pay 15 for me, as a damn early birthday present. HAHA. cos she couldnt stand all my naggings about the dinner being too ex. after that phebe came over too. went home at around 9+.

okays. i'll start mugging tomorrow already. ugh >:X

):

im sorry but photos will be uploaded only tomorrow, i guess.

things just took a turn, for the better or for the worse i dunno. OH. i'll take that back. i guess, it's better this way. im getting real exasperated. i can never understand. i hate it when i feel like the way im feeling now. its been fucking long. you can see it whatever way you want. im sorry for being indecisive. they can never understand that it's their choice to carry on or to give it up. screw em. i dont want that last wish i made during midauntumn festival celebration anymore ): well, not for now. i guess.

goodnight people. problem solvedfuck. still unsolved la ):

im uber tired today. plus im freaking out, yea like, a bit, and i dunno what to do ):

today's final day in school. final assembly in the parade square, final morning devotion, final time at singing the school song... oh wells. it's rather saddening.

grad service was great today. mr wee's a great singer and everything. cheyenne was falling in love with him during worship i think. HAHAHA. kays so there were a lot of talks and prayers and blah blah blah and grad service ended after like, 4 or 5 hours in the chapel. yeaa. after that we had reception at the cca block and lotssa photo takings (: the 2904 people finally took a photo with mr chin. and as mr chin says, its a 1grace'o3 class photo taken three years late (:

after that went to RJC open house with phebe min and sherjie. the campus's huge and there's like loads of CCAs. after that we took a taxi over to NYJC. saw boonjun and some other phs seniors. NYJC's aint as nice as RJC. but it's like, obviously. RJC's so much more difficult to get in than NYJC.

kays after that we went to J8 for mcdonald sundae (: then ahmah came over and we walked around before we left. oh anyway, phebe's uber retarded today. and and and, i realise sherjie's ears are smaller than mine! HAHS. so yea. im still figuring figuring figuring. oh, and i realise im better at audition when something's bugging me. cos i'd like, put full concentration on the game cos i wouldnt want to think about anything else at all. lol.

KAYS. PHOTOS LATER (:
dammit cos ive got ugly fringe in like, 80% of the photos. screw it! ):

blogger sucks cos i had to refresh for 15654318533265 times before i finally can blog. think it was under maintenance or something.

SO. tomorrow's grad service already! today was spent making farewell gifts for the girls (: min came over too. hmm. the other stuffs are not going any better for me, but i shall try to not put too much thoughts in that already. studies first (: uhm. ehehs.

yesterday night the idiot hung up early. the really bad feeling was there again. fortunately, yuenchen texted me. took my mind off things and i felt much better. i think im suffering from some psychological illness or something like that. omfg :/

lotssa photo-taking tomorrow. yay.

____________________________

The Machine interrupted. "I know what it is." He looked up from the nozzle.
His voice was heavy with sarcasm. "Don't you recognise it? It's love. Also known as hormones. Biological reactions. It's the meat talking, not the brain. One of many reasons that i'm glas I'm a machine."

"Nothing wrong with biological reactions," Danny-boy said quietly. "Is there?"

The Machine muttered something but did not look up. Danny-boy knew The Machine was avoiding his eyes.

"What's the problem?" Danny-boy asked.

"You know the problem," The Machine said. He was breathing faster. "She left and you hurt. A biological reaction. Pain." He glared at Danny-boy. "And this is just the beginning - you care more and you'll hurt more. A simple equation."

"But T.M.," Danny-boy began.

"If i werent a machine, I would have died with the others in the Plague," The Machine said . "I would have died in the empty house, where only the machines kept running, going about their business as if nothing had happened. Everything was changed, but the machines didnt care. I realised that it was better not to care."

Danny-boy looked down at his own hands. He knew that all the talking in the world wouldn't convince The Machine. "It's not all bad, T.M.," he said. "You can't just look at the pain. You have to -"

"It's dangerous," The Machine interrupted. "Be careful, that's all I have
to say. Watch yourself."

Adapted from - The City, Not Long After

): all of a sudden, i think that life's gonna suck without school. im not in a good mood today and i spent half a day stoning away. it must have been pretty obvious, since sihao could even feel it through sms :/ like, wth. i thought females were the ones with intuition? lol :/ well, i wonder why am i so affected. it shouldnt be this way at all. stupid bird. i wonder when will i finally start to understand what i want. im always screwing everything up for myself ):

fricking hell. MCR's new mv, Welcome to The Black Parade, is like effing nice. and Gerard Way shaved his head and dyed his hair blond and yuenchen kept saying he's effing shuai. fine. he look much nicer with a shaved blonde head than with long black locks of hair which kinda looks, erms, dirty untidy eww? ROFL. i prefer Mikey Way i think. hahaaas. but yea. MCR rocks. ahahs (: the mv above is a bit kinda pixelated though. bad quality. lol.

so anyway, today's the last day of school already. awww. time flies ): still, there were many absentees and i had a hell of a time trying to collect the money for the chemistry compilation cos everyone claimed to have given the money already when the namelist says that they havent ): rahs. so my last duty as the class treasurer is like, giving me a hell of a time >:( gah. hmmfs. i dont care already. i'll just give what i can collect to mrs teo. sheesh. ):

so, there wasnt much lessons today. didnt take any proper photos at all. just candid ones. hopefully on the day of the graduation service, we'll be able to take more photos (: and im so sad cos im too broke to even make brownies for the people ): AHS. maybe i'll see if i can get money from my sister :D eheh. rahs. everything's about money this week. and i really really want to settle all my debts asap (:

i dunno why, but yesterday i was thinking so fucking much about everything, as in seriously everything, all my problems and stuffs, i couldnt sleep at all. i dont even know why i started thinking so much. it's like all of a sudden. and i just feel like making proper changes finally and all, and theres like, this really uncomfortable feeling at the pit of my stomach and like, theres something pressing down on my chest ): perhaps i grew more mature overnight. ROFLMAO.

so anyway, i couldnt sleep and i did situps in bed. HAHA. but i still couldnt sleep so i got down the bed and read a book to make my eyes heavy, but i still couldnt sleep. then the idiot called and we talked till he was too tired to continue talking. thats like, a first cos the norm is that i'll go to sleep first. but after that i finally was able to sleep cos it was like already 2+ am >:/ and i felt much better, as in, the heart and stomach thing. i think im worrying too much about everything ):

sighs. wonder whats happening to me. hmm. so, grad service is in two days. then the revision for the O's will really really start. kays fine. i dunno how to go on already. the way im blogging these few days is wayyy weird too. theres like, something really wrong with me, i think. shuacks. kays. i love all the 2904 girls and i love 4joy too (: goodbye.

photos uploaded later on. blogger sucks now.

life's hard for me now cos im fucking broke. rofl. i should have learn how to save like, years ago. damn. i wonder why i stopped saving once i got to p5 or was it p6? whatever. but i used to save up part of my pocket money, and i can tell you, i was one rich kid. HAHAHA. but now, it's rare to see me rich cos i dont save! ): okays. im gonna change for the better already, like, seriously (:

oh, and i should stop feeding money to my stomach. i shant give in to temptations, it does no good to me except to give me temporary... uh, i cant find a word for it now, but aww. im sure you know what i mean. heh. im sucha pig la >:/ im like, gonna settle all my debts once ive got money. no more giving in to temptations! as birdface said, we aint living 2006 years ago when dunno what what gave in to whatever temptation and ate the effing apple la and those blah blah blah stuffs la. sheesh. hahaaaa.

kays so anyway, school wasnt of mush use as usual. PE was great today :D even though i didnt want to play at first, i joined them in the basketball game in my school uniform. like, fun. and eugene goh owes me pizza now cos he looked down on me :D he didnt expect my third ball to go in as well. eheh (x

tomorrow's last day already! omgomgomg. secondary school's life ending so soon. im gonna work hard, since my targeted L1B4 is like, 12&down and presently it's 21. yea really bad i know. ive gotta pull up my socks already. like, even the idiot is asking me to work hard cos he said he didnt and he's regretting. lol. i turned down yuenchen's invitation to go Sentosa on wed! :D yay. i cant give in to temptations (:

right. theres like, so many of my bad habits which i need to change :D so im like gonna do it immediately (: yeaaa.

kays so the principal came to our class today to give us that motivational talk. meaningful, but still, i keep feeling like im about to fall asleep cos im really tired. lol. the after school, me min cheyenne and anet went down to sunplaza for lunch and library. so like, lowshimin, thanks for listening me out hahaaas. shant think about those crappy stuffs already or i seriously feel like banging my head on the wall. rofl. kays. im off already. needa go source for pictures for new templates. well, that at least keeps my mind off things (:

YAY I FEEL LIKE MAKING A NEW SKIN!

and the biiiiiiiiiiiiiig huge O is coming at me. dammit. anyways, i just summited 2 of my previous blogskin cos ive been neglecting sweetmisery. im just so lazy. and i wanna make a new template for the losaaaaaaaaaaar. she's sick, i know. hawhaw. shall try to think of something. at least i did a lil bit of algebra today (: oh, and one TPL account question :D

hmm fine. some things are stucked in my mind today and they refuse to be removed >:( ah whatever. i'll just see what happen as time goes.

carolin tan's coming for some class visit tomorrow. so there prolly wont be as much absentees. i feel like playing basketball. it's been sooooooo long. but i dont like bball games with my class guys cos they look down on girrrrls. fine. me only. rahs. whatever (:

i'll go do my stuffs already. goodbye all monkeyasses.
(:

group studying today was good cos my concentration span was longer than usual :D so i did accounts, the CTSS paper. even though i didnt complete the paper, it was a good start, i think (: then the poopoohead was a #$^U*P(U*^! poopoohead cos he kept pointing his mumie tooter middle finger. ehehs.

after that had dinner with min phebe and ahmah. then we bought chocolate ice cream, lighter, candles and sparkles and we headed to the playground to celebrate a belated midautumn festival. sadly, there wasnt any moon to admire cos the haze was rather bad. (presently the PSI's 150! =X) lololols. so anyway, ate, played and chatted. today's one of my happiest day since my moodswings last last week. so yea. i love these girls :D

ah. seriously. i wonder why guys cant get straight to the point. they prolly think girls are dumb and wont know what theyre trying to get at. see, guys are dumb cos girls do know. hello, intuition, cuckoo. though it might not be 100% correct, but still... ohwells.

i wonder it's the haze or the result of too much icecream, im starting to cough. rofl. okays. goodbye all clever females and dumb guys (:

school was crap. 12 were absent. cf lesson was fun though :D jake claims that when youre on the reailway track and the train is coming, lie down onto the ground and the train will go pass over you. hahahaaa. i bet his face will become smoothen if he does that. LOL.

after school decided to go for lunch with eugene ahgong weiliang and yuenchen. went northpoint cos they wanted to eat chicken, and katib didnt have any kfc. so after that we just sat there and chatted for like, 3 hours straight, till around 1830 :D with yuenchen, the topics that we talk about will never be uninteresting. rofl. so we studied, yea, we did, about human nature. hahaha. and all the preverse stuffs come out. LOL.

well, had fun with em (: but my mood wasnt so goodwhen i left the school. i was stoning halfway through when yuenchen was talking. wtf. sometimes i really feel like banging my head against the wall. nothing should be affecting me can ): ah whatever. i shant let wee things like that affect me already. sighs. come to think of it, there aint really any sweet misery. if the guy's real sweet, he wouldnt be putting you in misery. shitass.

but well. was thinking we should go out for lunch together more often cos seriously, we left kinda reluctantly. hahaha. and even though i was like, damn cold, eugene warmed me up. hahaa (: ohhhkays. im really kinda tired already ): physically, mentally. at this rate i wont have any energy left for the Big O's. so yea. i should stop waiting for the call every night, thinking so much everytime, sleep more and put more time into my revision already. im like, well known for sleeping alot in school can. sheeesh.

anyways, the beansprout is fucked. somebody should go beat him up. rofl. omf. i want those new MCR songs la. wonder why they arent downloading. rahs.

"Disenchanted (Shut Up And Play)"
Another sad song, with nothing to say
About a life-long wait for a hospital stay
If you believe that I'm wrong
This never meant nothing to you
I waited so long for someone to say
If you can move on
I'll never get you to stay
If you believe that I'm wrong
This never meant nothing to you
Another sad song, with nothing to say
About a life-long, wait for a hospital stay
If you believe that I'm wrong
This never meant nothing to you

And if you hold on
And need me to stay
You get the hard thoughts
Oh baby just the mistakes
Maybe we'll just
Shut up and play
It never did mean nothing to you
Never did mean...

Another sad song, with nothing to say
About a life-long, wait for a hospital stay
If you believe that I'm wrong
This never meant nothing to you

If you would hold on
And need me to stay
You get the hard thoughts
Oh baby just the mistakes
We never really got too much anyways
Yeah, yeah, yeah, just go

Just go, run away
Where did you run
Don't fight it just run away
Let it go...
And when you go, run don't walk
And when you sing, scream don't talk

Another sad song, with nothing to say
About a life-longWait for a hospital stay
We never really got too much anyways
Another sad song with nothing to say
About a life-long, wait for a hospital stay
Maybe we'll just shut up and play.
You never really got it
No you never really got it at all

FUCK. i wanted to delete all of ___'s msges and i pressed the wrong thing and i deleted all of my other msgs except his. like wtf. i can go and bang the wall already for being so stupid. @#%$&! rahhhs. luckily most of the, uhm, important ones are set as protected msgs. what da toot. >:@

the class was half empty today. it has been like this ever since prelims were over. morever, it's nice that birdface dont bother to get MCs or letters from us. so yay. we are kinda free to do whatever we like. so anyway. ahmao told me her class was like saying that im gonna rent a dress for prom, like wtf. how nice. i dont even know what im gonna do about the prom dress thing and people can predict for me what im gonna do about it already. -claps- nb. all i did was to ask a harmless question about the renting stuffs, like, just asking about it. oh fuck. bitch. sorry but i cant help being pissed about it. shit ass. fine, they dont mean anything. sheesh.

so, today's the last fnn lesson and it's the last geography lesson already. then after school we were arguing about high-pays part time jobs. hahaha. i cant wait for the o's to be over. and ive gotta prepare a few brownies for grad night for the idiot and laopop :D it's all about brownies :D had lunch with lowshimin and we chatted for quite a long time again (: then i saw angtat on the way home, and like seriously. he changed so much since primary school days. he's like, so much slimmer and wayyy better looking. hahaha.

hmmfs. theres a getai in my neighbourhood and it's effing effing noisy. rahs. tomorrow's midautumn festival. go enjoy the moon tonight. roflmao. hoho. it's only october and someone's already worrying about being partnerless. wtf. okays whatever. hah. okays. i must go do my fnn already :DDD the fnn nightmare's ending soooon (:

HELLO IVE BEEN BORED FOR THE WHOLE DAY. but it beats going to school and trying hard not to fall asleep :D i can sleep as and when i like at home, just that my mom kept on saying that im effing pig cos i kept falling asleep. HEH. cant help it. ive been sleeping real late for the past few nights.

dbfkwfiunsdufk. bye bye. im dying of boredom soon.

my headache is gone finally, i think :D but im still so tired. lololols.

for once, i dont feel like blogging. but seriously, all of sudden there doesnt seem to be any thing for me to do except study. so, uhm, i'd rather blog first and decide what im gonna do later. im so gonna set up some sorta study plan.

well, accounts drain my energy off >:/ pttf. im so not looking forward to petcheong's lessons again cos she's drowning us with other schools' prelim papers. ohhhkays. fine. she's drowning ME. and im struggling and struggling during all her lessons trying hard not to drown. so imagine that. ive gotta fight for my life in case i drown for 3 days per week, and an hour per day. roflmao.

after school we went for lunch at khatib mcdonalds. then just sat there and chat, and then there was this cute opss guy whom me and phebe noticed. HAHA. sheesh. so anyway, i guess me and phebe really have similar lifes and similar stuffs happening to us. twinaiais :D rofl.

hmmfs. theres nth much to do online already. now what's left for me to do is revisions for examinations and i hate to think about it cos the studying's go on for one miserable long month. gah.

right. doubt im going to school tomorrow. kays. goodbye. im off to post somemore blogskins up. ive been abandoning my sweetmisery. rofl. ohh. on second thought, im too lazy to. ahahs. whatever. (x

hello(:

im sooooo much better today, even though my headache was still there ): ohwells, i gotta blame that on myself cos i slept at 2 yesterday. WELL. sighs. but i guess im feeling better now after a nap.

school's a drag. there's nothing much to do already. netball with the 4h girls was good, and we had to play silently because of the n'level going on. so there we were, shushing each other. chinese period was crap, english was too. but i think whiteway's cool. hahaaaa. he saw yuenchen drawing on my hand and instead of scolding us for not paying attention, he was like, tattooing? rofl.

ohhhh. i gotta do my fnn and hand it up tomorrow already. ohwells, ive got quite few things left to do anyway, i think. hmms. im gonna go check out the chalet stuffs. updates will be on the twograce'o4 blog, i think. i'll announce :D

okays. goodbye.

this is post #900 already. how fast. yesterday i was looking through my 2004 and early 2005 archives, and i was like, fuck. i was sucha @#$&*!^%$kjlfwjhjjfjsdl retard. HAHS. cos i tyypedd liike tiishh andd liiKe tiiSh aNdd ii hAdd aN effiiNgG hEadAchh aFteRr rEaDiiNg. rofl.

somehow, the headache continued today, on and off ): so anyways, my sister changed her phone, cos her phone was more lao kok kok than mine. HAHS. kays. i like her new phone. it's that k610i, and the white model is really pretty. hopefully i'll be changing soon. if luck's on my side, i'll get to change next sunday. otherwise, i'll just have to wait and wait and wait. rahs. i think i'll get k800i. LOSAR! get the same phone eh? :D haha. cos that phone's kinda cheap and best of all, 3.2megapixel with all the other functions. oh well, that is, if i can get a new phone. lol.

darn the headache. looking at the computer screen makes it worse ): i was out in the afternoon at causeway point all by myself. rofl. i went to the library and i swear i almost faint, halfway browsing through the books. LOL. im prolly having a serious lack of sleep :/

right. the words are making me more giddy than ever. so till tomorrow or something. buhhhhbuaiis. muackzxzxzx.